can i tell u all the things that make me who i am... jus so u can feel me as i ain't so different in the way i stand... i've hurt... n i've been betrayed... let others down doin the best i can knowing the emotion will fade... smile cling to my face n they have fallen with tears... i've believed in others n was left for dead to drives myself crazy living in fear... i found out what friends truly are... lost a few as they still remain in imaginary scars... n i wish i could gather the courage to open the fuck back up... to allow my heart to be content with another to feel more than what ever was... i miss aspects of relations in silence so no one knows... as i too have lived with chains that captured my hopes... gave into the wrong ones jus wanting a thrill... felt down as the ups are hard to reach with a fading chill... landed on my knees n had to come up on my own... realized people versions of luv are as fake as invisible thrones... there was a time i didn't wanna go on... i hated everything n i luv'd at the top of passions that poured... i became human by trial n error... laughed when i lost my mind faces the mirror in terror... i didn't know where to turn n had friends open doors to get it in... went without food n gave my last to help when i could so someone else could grin... n i sit alone n feel distant from even myself... trapped within thoughts that wanna escape into arms that jus might give jus enough help...i used to be a different version of who i came to be prolonged... n i drift in my own lane trying to figure out where in the fuck i belong... afraid to do anything other than relate... i am not the same... things got twisted n i had to go in to correct the delivery that came out wrong... can we talk about u for a while so u don't think i'm too far gone.?.
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