i wanna be something else... free to live... someone who's felt... with something more than nothing to give... a different person... in a not so similar life... i wanna break from these chains... have a new state of mind... to feel luv again... within a fresh sense of joy pressed against my lips... i no longer wanna be this man... he doesn't wanna do shit... afraid to drift with the mingle... he's shut down emotionally... simply lost the craves tingle... so away i wanna go... far from reflections so i don't know who i am... to start over... jus to see where i land... no more excuses... never to sit alone with silence as my only friend... i wanna somehow figure out where i belong... before the bitterness claims my end... n it's slowly coming to curtains... scared of the spotlight taking aim... this hiding shit is not for me... i believe there's much more to gain... living as someone that's not this thing... i don't know who this is... how'd i turn into this creature... frightened by the tenderness of a kiss... i wanna roll around n play fight... laugh n enjoy myself... cook n feel the presence of another... jus leave me here as i begin to move on to be redefined... solitude isn't working no more... it refuses to talk back... pillows are worn down... n i'm losing me fast... goin the opposite way of where my heart needs to be... my minds playing with me... i wanna go home now... i wanna know what it's like to actually breathe... to feel a body close to mine... as someone they can confide... with hope n trust n all the above... without the insecurities of blinded lies... as the tongue wants to talk all night... to get to know a new face... i wanna get away from me... n maybe even change my name...
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