do u...

so what happens when the next mutha fucka eventually leaves.?. when u side step others looking for something better than what u thought they could ever be... spending time on useless acts u cannot take back no matter how bad u want luv to exist... as emotion goes to waste n turns on u in the middle of another breakdown causing ur head to split... taking thoughts on a journey you've been on how many times before.?. you'd figure by now you'd be able to see a good thing within reach ready to be explored... yet u bypass  good intent for something more familiar to what continues to create the endless pain... never making eye contact until ur heart is allowed to make a choice of passions so called gain... once again giving in to the cheap lusts of touch instead on looking for a friend... ignoring the facts of how two get along prior to the valves opening to flood ur thoughts drowning... when they are done, where are u gonna turn.?. who's new face will give u the comfort as they broke a promise never to make u hurt.?. when those u walk by refuse to cater to the sorrow of decisions you've made without them... due to they weren't worth a moment to consider as away u went... how's the interest lost gonna show u that u need to stop seeking the same ol bs of chasing flames.?. maybe evolving is a better way to actually enjoy someone real that might be a lil different than what you've grown to blame... as u run into walls wanting a repeat to mangle ur precious lil mind... finding the image in reflections resenting the motion of ur own fuckin smile... all bcuz ur own worth isn't good enough to live for more than a lil while... for ur used to a certain type that leads to stray u from who u truly are... telling everyone else u ain't interested in who they are yet, live with an emptiness in ur heart... only if u could see yourself the way u say u don't care what everyone thinks... preserving ur hunt to continue with the useless kind that care nothing of ur wants n needs... when it's all said n done... n ur left looking back at the purity of real individuals with no one... living in chains for the hype... always wondering why... unable to comprehend how selfish luv truly is... not even able to like yourself holding on to the bitterness... moving through the memories u can never keep... losing self being the worst part once u realize u stand on ur own two feet... reaping the rewards of another loss as u shut the fuck down... knowing if u woulda jus believed in someone else you'd be snuggle up without ur drooping frown... so go ahead n let that same ol same concur ur desires... we'll sit here n watch the show as u set yourself on fire... igniting a betrayal take advantage of ur hopes... as u havta walk away from what was a place u called home...