round two...

as my hand slides around from the backside of ur neck... grabbing at throat... feel my grasp squeeze... i wanna hear u moan... as i softly ssh into left ear... followed by instructions to let u know what is expected of u... i nibble jus so u can gather the heat of my breath... knowing ur about to be put to good use... slowly removing ur panties from up under ur skirt... i suck so easily upon ur skin... down ur back...as u lean forward to be tasted... fingers touch u jus before my tongue sinks in... moving smoothly with the shape of ur pussy... goin with the flow... making u wet... as we are alone... with ur clit on my lips... kissing n teasing ur hormones so well... ur juice drip down my chin... damn near as if ur desired melts... n as u cum for me with two finger deep inside... i slap ur azz to intensify the thrill... face buried in ur azz... licked n ate as ur the one thing that's been on my mind... jus to rise with a hand full of hair... tugging ur head back... forcing u to gasp... arching ur spine to remain intact... in true form the way i like... submitting to my kinks... i restrain ur wrists in front of u... n against the wall u lean... damn near begging for me to begin...as i walk u to the middle of the room... demanding that u stand still... to bend over n don't move... blind folding u as my cock brushes up cheek... making sure u can feel my girth... n one lash across ur buttocks creates an mmm almost as if u growled.. showing signs of it did not hurt... then two n three along with a forth u begin to sigh... breaths start to become heavy as each stroke turns u on... pleasing the way i need to discipline ur body... a fifth n six smack makes u feel like my whore... asking u have u had enough... allowing u to nod yes... giving u a few more... to feel my own excitement leap from my chest... ssh in ur ear once again to ease ur thoughts... quietly commanding u to ur knees... mouth open n tongue out... dick hard n inserted as if a fiend... thirsty to suck on the tip so nicely... u make such a lovely slut... oooh daddy likes the way ur suction performs... extracting my cum... as i need not tell u to play in it u do... such a good girl u are... licking it off my shaft... tempting the other side of u in which is dark... ur jerked to ur feet smelling on my jizz... bent over to tie ur ankles to ur wrists... as motionless u await what's to come... it's this feeling you've missed... feeling the lube applied in ur backside... i get behind u n adjust.. readying u for intrusion.... in i go with a thrust... to hear ur whimper u take it whole... no warm up... no running... fulfilling my lusts... n as i take ur hole for myself... i think of how good u feel... penetrating u deep... until ur nerves have been peeled... jus to pull out n untie u for a while... laying u upon the edge of the bed... grabbing the dildo as i drop to my knees... so delicious u are so perfectly groomed... shaved n spread with ur lags wrapped around my neck... i lick jus to feel u move... exhaling as i shove u full... listening to every tone... every slur... faster i pound the more u explode... mmm, u luv to be heard... talking filth to me giving u what u deserve... with words so provocative the noise gets me goin... squirting in my face... trembling from the orgasms ripping off one at a time... say my fuckin name.!. face still covered in my semen i flip u over n tell u to wait... n with patience u do as ur told.... as i go clean of so i can slide inside... jus to return to watch u lay there with the moment u hold... feel my ease my way past ur pussy lips... length reaching for ur gut... all the in... u like rough... so the digging is done... gripping ur hips...slapping ur thighs... janking ur hair...  now ur mine... take the dick... scream for me... let the world hear u beg for more... let ur inner bitch free... as my balls bounce off ur clitoris... squeezing ur tits... i fuck u so hard i peek... aahhhhhhhh, shiiiiiiiiit.!.

i'm begging...

pick me.!. pick me.!. i never get to go first... even though i beg to be punished... pretend for me that i have a worth... oh, please let it be me... i'll make myself look so damn foolish... for u i'll be dumb n desperate... no matter how many times it takes i'm ur nudest... to serve ur every thought... i don't want u to go... i plead for u to stay... i'll do anything if i can have u alone... i see u in my head... u feel u in my heart... i need my crown... lemme play my part... use me to ur pleasures... come n go as u wish... take full advantage of me... jus don't take away ur lips... life without u i cannot face... there's no other i want more... it's hard for me to walk tall... ur ripping out my core... i'm weak... n i hurt... i'm all fucked up... n behind u i lurk... chasing ur every move... following wherever u may go... jealous of others in ur life... i jus want u to come home... hate me if u must... treat me like shit...  dig into my depths n call me names... in my face jus spit... show everyone how irrelevant i can be... give me nothing to trust... wish me dead... bcuz it's u i luv... i'm nothing i know... an after thought to u... n i don;t care about myself at all... for i give into the abuse... u can destroy my self esteem... cheat n betray me... i'll be ur piece of shit... losing my own mind for i need not think... my thirst is real... my devotion unmatched... help me hold on... even though i've been had... mistreated i am... broken for life... u make me feel incomplete... when i ain't by ur side... n even though i fear what u can do... i'm shallow n want u around... the other girls don't matter... yet i'm not even a sound that slips from ur mouth.... fuck me.!. i'll get on my knees... to obey ur every command... for u i will forever weap... so make me cry... at least give me that... torture me in ways i will never recover... jus don't ever throw me into ur past...

this was written about a woman who refuses to let go of someone who doesn't give a fuck about her...

hello.?.

hello.?. can u hear me.?. is anyone there.?. i'm lost in a dream... trapped... somehow i cannot wake up... sake me... i miss reality so much... hello.?. i can hear someone breathing... are u listening.?. i'm done dreaming.. i wanna come back now... to join the rest of u... to play along... i call a truce... i won't cause a scene... i'll not make a fuss... i jus wanna fit in... maybe some day fall in luv... hello.?. please answer me... tell me ur getting me outta here... i wanna be free... to live like everyone else... to feel something again... i'm over the solitude... the misery of the trans... hello.?. help me open my eyes... it's bee so long... get me away from my mind... i've done my time... even took a few extra yrs... n all i want is a friend... maybe shed some happy tears... hello.?. who's there.?. or am i all alone.?. i'd be grateful if you'd give me some fresh air... n comfort me for a while... i forgotten what it was like... i'm no longer in denial... hello.?. is this how it ends.?. am i to remain this way.?. or is there a hand to be lent... to pull me from this place... ridding me of this empty space... shedding light upon my face... i feel life wanting to live... don't let me go completely insane...

Breathtaking...

Walking the beaches in the heart... feeling the flow of comforts gaurd... dropping the walls to drift with the breeze... with toes in the sand n u next to me... strolling along until the sun goes down... hand in hand as waves create sound... goin so beautifully with the tone of ur voice... as the sunset in ur eyes is more than enjoyed... stalling to a halt to dance for a bit... for the fire inside like the scenery is lit... clinging to ur skin in a moment cherished in time... Oh how I luv having ur presence in my life... to swim in my depths like the oceans to be... ur more than welcome to stay inside of me... losing to the movement of us as we sway... coming together at the end of the day... watching the horizon shape shift with colors... having u I know there is no other... calming my wits to breathe the fresh air... as night falls upon us laud out to be shared... taking notice in of the moon bounce ofc the waters untamed... reaching for us with each splash to remain forever the same... in luv with the likes found from within... displayed upon our faces undeniable grin... as pure as selflessness can possibly live... to u my all I will give... with the sky as my witness u are the one... completely n so ever madly in luv...

I do it for me...

There's a difference in the way I laugh... it's caused by relations that's driven me mad... I no longer cater to others humor anymore... can't find it in me to excite they feeling of wanting more... so my chuckle lives to entertain only i... jus bcuz sunny no ke ever kept the pace to giggle through time... with a goochie goo I'm twisted asf... n I don't mind others judging on a hush... my smile works jus fine with or without their intervention... feeling that tickle that sticks to the ribs is my choice to make my own decisions... to do me with birds that chirp... all bcuz I have found within my own true worth... with a snorkel when I feel myself a lil too much... as funny as my vibe cannot be hushed... I love to please me n no one else... bcuz the joy in my chest is nevertheless felt...

Unwanted luv...

Give give give... tying to be someone to another jus to witness true intent live... doin to much is never enough wick confuses words coming from the mouth... n it's played out... always being the one who digs too deep... to surface to the floating alone needing air to breathe... never met anywhere near the middle aggregates the emotion... ending thoughts on an eventual stoppage of devotion... they take every last once of what's offered as a friend... jus to walk away once the lungs vent... claiming differences are the reasons to part... believing not a one of them has felt self in their heart... jus games of leap frog so comforts aren't afraid... lonely scares them more than saying a strangers name... as from one to the next they roll in n outta bed... looking for something they cannot find suppressed in their heads...  always feeling empty n incomplete... taking their past out on the willingnsss of wants n needs... as catering to them only feeds their starving hearts... unable to truly luv bcuz someone else fucked them hard... for the pain that settles in shall be shared with who they come across... telling lies of promises meant for someone else to overcome they're flaws... damn near waiting patiently for their experience to get it together... we teeter on the verge of worth fading like worn out leather... tough enough to last forever... yet misused in a chance of never... lingering so long until truths emerge... n the souths feel the ache driven to hurt... as it's on to the next that knows nothing of their ways... pretending to be amused by jus another face... having no attachments to cater to due to they cannot open up... they still belong to someone who doesn't want them as they're trapped in an unwanted luv... reliving thoughts allowing others to fill the void... frightened of solitude n the silence the has no noise... anyone will do as they to one day will be gone... all they abs do is move to a different tune jus to get along... wasting time of whoever chooses to put up with their shit... n all the hate that will soon be released from their lips... transforming into the monster they will remain... even though they were once seen as proof that passion can be obtained...

getting lost...

gathering pavement chasing the sun... westward bound n feeling the run... moving with the curves that wind with the pavement... leaving behind the chaos's irrelevance... motion leads to nowhere in between eyes connected with the horizon... escaping the grips of reality as u n i feel the rush twinkling in the eye looking like diamonds.... smiling from ear to ear... losing sight in the rear view mirror... off to nowhere in particular... the windows are down seeking the extracurricular... hands flowing with the air cut through like a knife... making way to no mans land in the middle of life... all filled up n drifting away... watching the sky change colors before it's too late... jus to stop n sit still with the sunsets beauty... bouncing of our faces nudity... at peace with the all the things left back where we're from... holding u in my arms ever so nicely... as the scene transforms light into a moon shown the entice thee... in the stillness of where in the fuck we're at.?. not caring of anything but the moment to make it last... laid up on the hood of the truck looking up with a convo that captures the use of the heart... taking the time to enjoy the presence of u as my unknown star... laughing n giggling n emptying depths that brings us to life... at a moments notice with our surroundings cuddled up all night... getting lost... in our own lil pause...

wanting to come back to life...

words don't come so easily when speaking of luv... the feel changed some time ago back when i enjoyed to be touched... since then nothing is felt quite like the same... everything's different n i, well, refuse to stare at anyone's face... i'm not sure what happened along the way but it's difficult to open up... as conversations are anything but emotional so i don't havta admit truths n such... to say the least i have crossed over n jus wanna fall... face down to enjoy how soft the land would come to my call... whispering my name from a set of lips that awaken me once again... body felt by the most tenderized set of hands... but my tongue is bit for reasons i can't remember anymore... i'm ready to come through the seams to bust loose from my core... to hang out for a turn at a few sighs that hold on to a moment shared in the middle of a perfect night...

losing track of time n forgetting everything that;s gone wrong in life... for a chance to use the remains of me built up... to go with the expression reaching for the rush... yet, when i attempt to take an interest i bail the fuck out quick... n i truly makes after the fact sick... lips ain't free to say what the mind is thinking n it's getting old... the edge has dulled n my delivery sounds like nothing more than a friend standing as a frozen bur so cold... watching days get behind memories never made... for some reason i drift when it comes to connecting with the heat wanting to be untamed... damn, what's gotten in to me.?. this illusion of free isn't what i remember as that long lost dream... fading beneath the lights with nowhere else to go but home... to hear the sounds that send vibes that ain't jus moans... as fingertips moving slow create a smile worth a chuckle... with eyes the forever remain humble... dusting off the dust that hides an honest use... but i cannot find the letters to form sentences that tells another of how i wanna come unglued...

free from me...

i wanna be something else... free to live... someone who's felt... with something more than nothing to give... a different person... in a not so similar life... i wanna break from these chains... have a new state of mind... to feel luv again... within a fresh sense of joy pressed against my lips... i no longer wanna be this man... he doesn't wanna do shit... afraid to drift with the mingle... he's shut down emotionally... simply lost the craves tingle... so away i wanna go... far from reflections so i don't know who i am... to start over... jus to see where i land... no more excuses... never to sit alone with silence as my only friend... i wanna somehow figure out where i belong... before the bitterness claims my end... n it's slowly coming to curtains... scared of the spotlight taking aim... this hiding shit is not for me... i believe there's much more to gain... living as someone that's not this thing... i don't know who this is... how'd i turn into this creature... frightened by the tenderness of a kiss... i wanna roll around n play fight... laugh n enjoy myself... cook n feel the presence of another... jus leave me here as i begin to move on to be redefined... solitude isn't working no more... it refuses to talk back... pillows are worn down... n i'm losing me fast... goin the opposite way of where my heart needs to be... my minds playing with me... i wanna go home now... i wanna know what it's like to actually breathe... to feel a body close to mine... as someone they can confide... with hope n trust n all the above... without the insecurities of blinded lies... as the tongue wants to talk all night... to get to know a new face... i wanna get away from me... n maybe even change my name...

accepting changes...

i've felt words slung on the switch  of use... changing tones once luv was no longer amused... taking one rib at a time until my smile was gone... learning of the misery tongues can sing along with songs... stood in mirrors with the mystery of relations coming into focus... shaking off the dwelling of feeling hopeless... i've known strangers that resembled who i was supposed to have trusted... opened up to believe i wouldn't lose me to emotions lusted... fell in hands that were thought to have catch my heart... n wound up left for dead as if orchestrated like a work of art... i've followed the design in eyes seen as a crypt... hiding truths untold that snipped like a whip... sacrificed time n patience to sit alone in comfort... when another was supposed to fill the void as the ultimate luv'r... had jealousy thrown in my direction to alter the friends in my life... jus to shut down not able to be one themselves after the hype... i've bared depths to miss who did not care to carry me in their memories...feared self's choices to make rational decisions due to character instabilities... made promises meant that i wasn't able to keep... smiled n frowned at the same time while wondering how cliche self looks of the need to flee... i've forgotten the highs at the bottom n turn on the up when down... gave into the merry go as around became an adjustment unbound... hurt from both ends without betraying use first... felt better after drifting emotionally feeling the worst... lived in a different state of mind jus to realize it changes every five to ten... n enjoyed attachments that came n went...

say what's on ur mind...

u don't know me well enough to want me... so where's this idea of luv come from as we drift with reality.?. i'm jus like everyone else... looking for my worth to end the misplacement of trust never felt... why me if i may ask.?. who is it u think i am to intrigue such an individual seeking facts... how did i stand out as i hide in between everyone trying to fit in.?. u don't even know what's made me or even where i've been... so i'd like to find my way around ur thoughts believing i could be of some use... attempting to figure out how we would mingle in life calling a truce... ur interest is a start yet i may not be what u expect... everyone sees this clown when behind the scenes there's this human within my chest... or have u caught on to a lil something deeper no one else has.?. there's things i need to know before i allow u to dig in with ur grasp... alone i am ok with n i will remain until i get a single reason why i am in ur eyes... as self be u n do ur best not to fake intent or even lie... you've been under the scope since u approached me living my life the best way i know how... n it's comfortable one so make it good so if u want me to redirect my time to the sounds coming from ur mouth... it's as real as u say u are with a curiosity leaning in to me... u have my attention so i suggest without being rude that u begin to speak... i wanna listen to ur tone n n the way u talk prior to considering u a new friend... not everyone is meant to be as differences play out before long n emotion is over spent... come with it or settle for us jus knowing each other for a few laughs n smiles... i'm no one special at this moment to u so please kick up ur feet n stay awhile... i'll give u a conversation u can relate to jus to hear u come from within... from a mental aspect sitting around jus wanting to live... to be known by someone that catches more than emotions worn on ur sleeve... talk to me n tell me all the things i to will share n see if ur hunch of me fulfills ur dreams... or is it that fantasies aren't that important to u.?. set ur heart to the side n collaborate to the way lips move... jus know i ain't doing anything until i've seen someone i refuse to go on without... n there's no telling who's who without the vibrations or words cutting air searching for a friendship through sound... so lets get to knowing what's be on ur mind... n try not to feed into some sorta short lived hype... imma need to witness something rare n as raw as depths flowing with the mood... that is if u wanna see me finally rip loose... showing u pieces of trials n errors that created such a person i find attractive enough to take a chance... i'm truly flattered that u noticed me at first as i must say we all have monsters looking to play with the feel of the groove...glance... but what i appear to be on the outside isn't all of what ur sight should be clinging to...  i'm down to see if ur stable... if u are indeed mature enough with a touch of goofiness to be more than able... as i am jus me... possible wanting to feel the way u breathe... but lets not get ahead of ourselves jus yet... we still haven't said anything to even place bets... to calculate the odds of how far we could get... or if we are what's been missed...

someone without judgement...

when u jus need someone to tell some real shit to... someone who vibes with a conversation getting loose... when u jus need someone to lean into for a change... to open up to n say a few things... truths never to be repeated no matter what... jus to be able to let loose never to doubt trust... when a body is needed to comfort a bad day... a friend would be nice as with them you'd lay... feeling the ease of someone like no one else... someone who gives the mind some real help... when they listen to all the details no one else knows... someone who believes in u in a place called home... shutting out the world for a moment to calm ur nerve... never selfish is the honesty of worth... when a lil break from the norm is more than needed... to hold on to luv without being mistreated... as reason in words become whispers until ur fast asleep... as they're even in the presence of the flow of dreams... someone when morning comes they're still there... awakening to a well rested version of self... thanking them for their time knowing u were felt...

witnessed by no one...

to remain hidden one must after work, go straight home... close the door n lock it... then forget about ever having hope... others cannot exist in the silence as the mind dwells... creating an endless battle of emotions to live in a self made hell... alone n drifting in thoughts... stuck somewhere in a timezone wishing to be forgotten... telling friends one doesn't have time to do anything... as the solitude is accepted to ease the pain... for the silence is better than losing self again... creating a twin in reflections as ones biggest fan... one hasta lose their own fuckin mind... removing self from all the hype... become the only one to depend on so emotion won't get hurt... avoiding attempts of others trying to flirt... in the dark where the nothingness never makes a sound... comfort is the key to breathe as if self has been found... shoved in a cell like domain to reside... a dungeon for desires to die... unseen by sights within the design of others eyes... never allowing tongue to speak of new lies... at the base of the basics life is set on reset... saying fuck everything for the better of what crawls not only through the head but lingers in the chest... remembering nothing until it all fades away... as the day will come where one is no longer afraid to show their face...

do u...

so what happens when the next mutha fucka eventually leaves.?. when u side step others looking for something better than what u thought they could ever be... spending time on useless acts u cannot take back no matter how bad u want luv to exist... as emotion goes to waste n turns on u in the middle of another breakdown causing ur head to split... taking thoughts on a journey you've been on how many times before.?. you'd figure by now you'd be able to see a good thing within reach ready to be explored... yet u bypass  good intent for something more familiar to what continues to create the endless pain... never making eye contact until ur heart is allowed to make a choice of passions so called gain... once again giving in to the cheap lusts of touch instead on looking for a friend... ignoring the facts of how two get along prior to the valves opening to flood ur thoughts drowning... when they are done, where are u gonna turn.?. who's new face will give u the comfort as they broke a promise never to make u hurt.?. when those u walk by refuse to cater to the sorrow of decisions you've made without them... due to they weren't worth a moment to consider as away u went... how's the interest lost gonna show u that u need to stop seeking the same ol bs of chasing flames.?. maybe evolving is a better way to actually enjoy someone real that might be a lil different than what you've grown to blame... as u run into walls wanting a repeat to mangle ur precious lil mind... finding the image in reflections resenting the motion of ur own fuckin smile... all bcuz ur own worth isn't good enough to live for more than a lil while... for ur used to a certain type that leads to stray u from who u truly are... telling everyone else u ain't interested in who they are yet, live with an emptiness in ur heart... only if u could see yourself the way u say u don't care what everyone thinks... preserving ur hunt to continue with the useless kind that care nothing of ur wants n needs... when it's all said n done... n ur left looking back at the purity of real individuals with no one... living in chains for the hype... always wondering why... unable to comprehend how selfish luv truly is... not even able to like yourself holding on to the bitterness... moving through the memories u can never keep... losing self being the worst part once u realize u stand on ur own two feet... reaping the rewards of another loss as u shut the fuck down... knowing if u woulda jus believed in someone else you'd be snuggle up without ur drooping frown... so go ahead n let that same ol same concur ur desires... we'll sit here n watch the show as u set yourself on fire... igniting a betrayal take advantage of ur hopes... as u havta walk away from what was a place u called home...

Hidden within the crowd...

The thoughts I keep to myself...

The one's in which you're involved... 

Damn they get me stirred up knowing how touch could evolve..

.The details mention...

Captured in my imagination...

Loosened for a lil happy time...

Pure satisfaction...

The moments alone I wish I had...

When ur by yourself...

Worth no one around...

Wanting it to be me u felt...

My silence will never be heard...

Yet shy, I am not...

For I have my reasons...

Even though together we'd be sizzling hot...

As the rotation of reality speaks...

Back to a dream of use...

Quietly easing info a mood...

Ooooh, the things I'd do...

The reactions I could create..

The smile that would never end...

As comfort becomes a way if life...

With me as your best friend...

And thy tongue falls when I say ur name...

Like my pride to it's knees...

Imagining having you all to myself...

Truly for once freed...

Coming from a mental image wanting to play...

To get closer than anyone has ever been...

As I sit in crowd not saying much...

Finding a tingle that craves a goochie in your ribs...

It's jus me though...

Fiddling around in my head...

Watching you cross intent behind my eyes...

With lil to nothing ever said...

Knowing how I respond to the way you appear...

Seems life if you knew could be more than sigh..

 But I ain't much...

And it ain't about getting you in the sack...

So I stay outta sight...

With my truths that have me intact...

On my way with a visual only I can see...

Feeling gitty as fuck when I see your face...

Moving something deep within...

As it will drift into flutters that will eventually fade...

speechless...

if i knew what to say i'd be sitting with my best friend... but the tongue has forgotten the taste of what the mind comprehends... as a war within has drawn lines as sides has been taken... fighting is the mental aspect with the emotional frustrations aching... wish i could come up with a way for me to gather the fragments scattered no one can see... i might feel a lil comfort come closer to me than what's left of me in my dreams... words are lost to the imagination when relations step to the plate... damn feeling scares off the willingness to go with the flow n escape... either it's not felt or another jus don't fit desires wanting to play for a bit... as characters mingle to touch the tingle of softened lips... i lose my train of thought n confuse myself all over again... as emotions feel trapped within refusing to come out on demand... tightening the restraints to wait a lil longer every time a new face emerges to be seen... lost in a place deep behind the eyes not one syllable breaks the silence to breathe... afraid to fall in luv with a stranger without a friendship to be examined thoroughly... knowing the picking is stretched with the lines others cannot cross in a mind narrowing... redirecting focus back to a mime like mute unable to move in plain sight... as still as letters avoiding an arrangement to make sense of a better life... missing the compatibility yet more petrified of the end result... so through distance the fade watches what could've been felt become the lack there of a lil skin on skin so raw... steering away from the attachments of the passerby's wanting in to feel around... i should be wrapped up n catering to verbal expression shown with gestures but i've misplaced myself as i cannot be found... having no voice to comment on interests as commitments fall to the floor... speechless on both ends of an attempt to loosen up for the thought of wanting more... never coming to life is the unheard crave that settles back down with limits reached... shaking the head jus to be left alone to deteriorate as a obscure kinda free...

cooking up a feel...

candles lit to show a gesture of luv shared... an appreciation of a friendship that truly cares... food sizzling like passion in the air... wine tapped n making the situation become bare... in a moment of truce where time stands still... losing sense of time to the impact of the thrill... kisses find necks exposed n with an insisting fill... touch is felt through fingertips reaching the turn up of grins spilled... tasting both skin as desert n the dinner we may not make it to... with another swig taken full advantage of the way we move... together in the simplicity of living in a groove... adding flavor to a night calling a truce... as the burners turned off show the lack of resistance... making a mess of the kitchen without hesitance... pushed against the wall for compatibility's assistance... smiling with laughter knowing we together are the acceptance.... as a meal waits to be finished upon the stove... we find our own heat with the sounds of moans... wanting the passion to feed the expressions drove... truly in luv with one another  as the room looks like a cyclone... hit my the twister of motion created by pure luv... two bottles in n feeling the irresistible need of the rush... goin hard with the floor being the destination collecting the memories lust... unable to resist the crave digging deeper than emotions that cave into trust...

gettin it in...

While most are living their normal lives I'm rebuilding mine... damn I tried to have the life where I'd be sitting nice... instead I sit around n mousy most of the time bcuz money's tied up... n I believe I've lost the intuition to luv... seems the more i look around the harder I can't help but to feel incomplete... having to restart mid way through life when the good times should've captured my dreams... instead the bottom reached up n took everything I knew away... as hearing others talk about a struggle is a joke due to they know nothing of being homeless on top of betrayed...  n it fuckin sucks to witness others enjoy their hard work when I'm still climbing outta a hole... in the slums giving up quality time with only time to get the job done... n I cannot help but to laugh for I've already forgotten how to be normal so fuck everyone's version of hope... as i drift on a thought mentally exerts efforts for me to truly bounce back in a home where I'm not alone... or am I to reside in the feel of ain't no one here for me as i'm so fuckin over it... jus do me n get on with what's to be jus bcuz relations bring so much extra fuckin bs... i need not be controlled nor wanna feel as if who i am isn't good enough... so i settle on to the grind to do it on my own without words that express luv... no friend n no mate to help me along the way... for i've never been able to count on anyone to be real to my face... as the pits linger with hollow depths wondering is another eventually worth the time... ain't no one been here n i've come from the bottom in a lonely mind... twisting thoughts into a reality that never make any fuckin sense... i believe i jus might be ok if i finish life out without someone trying to change to better of me on the defense... for earnings haven't stepped to the plate to comfort the feel of liking a lil company as of yet... it's always gimme emotions as they avoid things need to be taken care of so my own well being can invest... damn the trip of luv that sends ripples through attempts that end like waves upon a beach... stopped by dry lands for their desires cannot sail freely due to my vessel i refuse to leave... it's a work in progress that is gonna take some extra efforts to complete... n until then i must admit i jus might reside in peace as wants think about teasing the needs... i'm on reset n most don't feel me trying to come back to life... resisting anything n anyone that disrupts my goals to correct decisions that drifted beyond an acceptable life... fuck it is the mindset that doesn't wanna go back to where the tumble rolled... at a loss without a friendly face watching everything irrupt when it had to fold...

in hiding...

wanting to live yet there's nothing to do... as time spent is attachments cut loose... memories not needing to get that close... so it's back to the nothingness of alone... jus craving that one person to create memories with... to live n be felt as if self matters... in the middle of life until the end of being missed... simply happy enough to be flattered... as the silence allows thoughts to be heard... with walls so bored of having nothing to watch... thinking about how what's slipping away is life... yet relations by all means of being picky is dodged... leaving self in pieces already gathered... in a sense of what the fuck... as it's the mind that's being battered... beaten beyond reason due to ashes in solitude will become dust... afraid to connect with all the wrong ones... no one is ever right... n it goes on behind doors closed off from emotion that needs to adjust... to believe in a memorable night... holding on to more than the pillows that's had enough... somehow it hasta stop... but how when the seclusion defeats the chance.?. seems all the good ones are jus as scared of being robbed... used for a lil while before truths admit it was an empty romance... blinded eyes in the dark cannot see... fearing someone who ain't with it to cling to the rush.... so it's back to the dreams... n accepting the thrills of lusts...

to be saved...

to be truly luv'd... damn what a thought... to have someone so in tuned with life in its own as time has no cost... simply beautiful as depths are shown... as lost is the imagination of a saddened mind escaping the past... so much for once lived... never to be again... gone too fast... leaving a chip... no longer fans... so it's to figure out what's next... drifting away from what was... still felt in certain places within the chest... no longer believing in trust... oh the visions that come from day dreams... twisting reality... focusing on a more mental estate... going through faces wanting to be friends with insecurities... as the tongue doesn't feel their name... to be card for... wouldn't it be nice.?. to have someone jus wanting a lil bit more... as enough jus ain't what resides... needing an everyday type of unity.... damn it's been some time since the heart caved... jus one real opportunity... to be saved... as the memory reminds days goin without being touched... opening holes within to bury pieces that never fit... lusts bound to desires that cripples bodies flush... lost in the pits... yet, if use could be found... hope might redefine life's purpose to give... but how.?. the torment of self can't get past the endless rib... so in tuned with grins on the run... falling into a safety net... hiding from the inevitable rush... loosing up for what's considered as ones best...  jus to be in sync with another... off in paradise not wanting to return... grinding with the perfect luv'r... accepting the connections worth...

Please...

Please don't close ur eyes without me... whether its the end or jus to dream... I'm trying to find my way home... please don't lose hope... keep ur eyes opened jus in case u see me first... I'm coming as soon as I figure out in which direction u lurk... for next u is my comfort before all this is said n done... to be buried side by side for an eternity as one... please fight the sleep that pulls u in... resist the darkness n the way it changes u from within... I know I'm running behind but I'm goin as fast as I can... I'm jus lost in the middle of life as motionless I stand... waiting to witness ur face come near... falling into thin air without fear... having so much luv to share... to show u how much I truly care... please jus hold on to the thought of me... with a grip so intense it's me in ur mind that will never leave... unable to be replaced by a different feel pretending to cater to ur use... if u would, please, be patient until I get to u...

lost without luv...

interest fades as quick as them not getting their way... when one jus doesn't feed into giving them what they want they disappear... ghosting intentions that jus move to soon... faces change as fast as the mind changes for someone else to give to over rated emotions... believing all men are incapable of feeling any fuckin thing... but fail to realize it's the last thing we wanna give due to friends are yet to be made... so it's on to the next one so called ready when they haven't reasoned with self in a mental aspect of fuck dreams... eyes watch them come along n reach in to depths wanting to be the next lesson faced in a new chapter... rushing the scene for the sensitivity of comfort with jus about anyone willing to smile n play along... refusing to admit luv is nothing without liking a mate worth a convo one can withstand day in day out... they demand to be felt n place the blame of relations not having what it takes with impatience that go wrong... losing what feel there was that built through a lil time spent... gone with a sweet goodbye claiming to be mature as frustration settles on their facial features... telling on their true intent to have things the way they desire or it's a fuck u then... n to witness it makes the thinking process unbearable bcuz of selfish gestures that are nothing more than lent... childish in it's own actions force decisions to pass on what could be if they'd jus wait it out... as it's not enough for they jus must fill the void to be luv'd or life jus ain't right... causing a retracting situation mentally simply not wanting to let anyone the fuck in... the blame game is unfair to true individuals n unseen in reflections by the enforcers of fairy tales that corrupt real sighs...

getting along...

so what if i couldn't let go.?. is there a chance the feeling would be a mutual flow.?. for once having more than words to be said... past the walls that collect the sounds created from within the motion upon the bed... deeper than likes that draw a curiosity worth a smile... lingering in the heart touching the minds thoughts to stay a while... n what if the completion of who i am looked u straight in the fuckin eyes.?. waiting on a decision to live beyond the flirtations that move lips to taste the feel of sighs... as passion escapes from the most sacred place not jus anyone is allowed to see... gathering the pieces laid about to show self in true form enjoying the way u think... if i got attached to wanting u in my life...becoming friends on levels of guarantees were place on the comfort of pillows as whispers talk u through every night... unable to bypass u in the way u jus do u that drives me to evolve... with truths on the tongue to get wrapped up closer than use could ever possibly be so raw... looking forward to time in the middle of memories made that are meant to be kept... what would come of the interest if it was real with a splash of catering in an act jus needing it to be me u accept...

mime like...

words scramble to be heard... speaking out so the tongue can flirt... as the backspace erases the truths hushed to be damned... hidden secrets ain't of the topic at hand... so fuck it as letters arrange to be of use... not to allow any ol thing to find comfort seeking a truce... no one cares if it does not affect their own life... even though the gathering of the imagination written is jus stories to open up a state of mind... relating to the reality that seems so unfair... switching tones to depict a scene to be shared... as it's choices that create what is to be... thinking a lil too much can subdue interests when freed... diving into emotions when alone... or even speaking of how there's a rearrangement of a place called home... as talking under breaths that downplays luv is silenced to keep the blood flowing... as even this is not fulfilling to who self is more than willing... to enjoy a piece of another relating with time to read along... the feel of life is the addiction of hope that if not cherished could go so fucking wrong... yet, to last beyond dreams is to tell a tale so pure it's felt... goin from one luv'r to the next is the resistance after a while letting the heart shut down from the lack of help... desires fade at another's request to establish a friendly fuck... lusts wanting to feel the touch of body parts although deeper passions feel the fall of the rush... never once ever speaking of luv's intuition to sleep... expressions can't quite find real gestures hidden in plain sight that creep... as use becomes the aggravation that the heart can't cut loose...none the less the monster is how life has perceived self hanged from a noose... making choices that leave reflections left to whither in tones that feel the abuse upon the lips... staring at a trapped face in the glass until the mirror gets sick of the same ol bs... using the alphabet to direct aim at faults leasing forgiveness jus before thoughts retire... able to correct the sound that defines a truce whispered  as breaths exhale from depths settled to replenish the char sizzled by the fire... sound goes mute with no reason to flip vowels in rhymes... never to say unheard syllables so sacred they remain within so no one is to know when sighs are the closest thing to being mime like...

Round one...

Daddy wants u blindfolded n on ur knees with ur hands behind ur back... u are to be ready for restraints that restrict u from touching what comes next... words or whispers are not to slip from ur mouth... as u are to be nude so I can lust on ur curves as ur legs are spread... u are to hear my movement with the anticipation of where I will feel on u first... as patience is a factor to build the crave u seek for daddy to use u for my own personal slave... I wanna admire how good u listen to commands before ur pussy gets wet... make my cock rock hard with so much pleasure to gain... n as u feel my fingers tips slowly ease their way around ur throat... notice the sound I make when I squeeze it in my hands grip... with the right amount of pressure to cut off the blood flow to ur head... u will feel a rush come over u you've never felt as I taste ur lips... yet u are not allowed to kiss me for u have not been instructed to do so... jus do as ur told with the only free will is ur participation to be used... as ur gonna feeling my presence standing before u... meat erect so close u can smell my scent... as i ask, are u ready to be abused.?. Saying "yes daddy", as my shaft will be inserted into ur warm mouth... hardened by the sound of ur pretty voice damn near begging me to begin... suck the tip as I jerk on myself to ur hormones in need to be face fucked... with thrusts that feel on ur gag reflex enjoying the length again n again... forcing tears to come from ur eyes... jus to pull out n tell u to lick daddys balls... good girl baby, ur so fuckin cute... as i step back jus outta reach as i'm to be heard by demands that call... applying a choker from behind... for i'm on my knees with u to feel ur body on mine... pressed to assure u daddy means u no harm... you'll be bent over to feel me penetrate ur pussy for the first time... with the leash in my grasp i'll tug as i intrude ur hole... jus to hear u moan with such shame as ur azz is smacked... to tease the nerves within ur walls... long enough for my girth to reach for an orgasms u are not allowed to have... u are to go without a nut until ur directed to explode... who's whore are u princess.?. As the heat from my breath tickles ur inner ear... wrapping my arms around ur body to feel on ur breasts... pounding with a throb so thick it consumes ur desires... n it's not until then that i'll allow u to cum jus once... for when u do I'll take u from ur knees n bend u over the bed... tying ur ankles to the foot rests to treat u like a slut... spanking u for reasons that give me a tingle... disciplined as my sex toy wanting daddy to have my way with the noises wanting to whimper an ouch... ur such a turn on with the way u submit... now say my fuckin name n be loud or the whippings will get harder than I am aroused... that's it baby, how's that feel.?. Shoving a dildo so far up in u ur shocked when my tongue molests ur clit... rolling in various patterns as the insertion moves back n forth... preparing u to come undone... hold it... not yet... a lil longer... now get it... cum for daddy as u drip... n again for i am not done... bust n squirt all over me... daddy wants to feel ur legs want to run... with my stiff rod taking ur azz... ur allowed to scream n plead as ur choked... taking every last inch thrusting on repeat... with no one to stop me we are alone... as it's the completion of taken full advantage of ur bodies cavities... I stand up to watch u tremble... unable to see my next act... all u can hear is me cleaning myself off... as i climb in the bed to bury ur face in my lap... untying ur hands so u can show daddy the suction u have... stroking me as u can't wait to taste my nut... addicted to the how it fulfills ur every fantasy... telling u how beautiful u are as u make daddy cum... slurping it all into ur mouth... spitting in back onto my flash... to play in it... to feel it smeared on ur face n lips...

don't touch me...

u can't dig deeper than the pain is allowed... so swim in the shallows n play with my flesh until i'm aroused... the silliness of childish behaviors are unwanted to say the least... unless ur jus goofing off as that shit can tame the beast... u can keep all the over emotionalized crusades to ur lonesome n i won't mind... my depths are a lil to mature to continue through life like i haven't learned how to become defined... i'm in no need of the thoughts u possess in ur attempt to capture who it is i am... if i'm to change it's for the better of my time to be enjoyed... real isn't something that's said for other to listen to over n over again as u attempt to swindle the lack of actions gone void... scars are jus battle wounds to heal that u cannot touch... they're on the inside safe from ur fingers jus wanting to pick a scab... that shits for the birds so fly away with a couple of gestures for i'm not the on to go under attack... that hate blame bs only turns passion inside out...n i don't find humor in wasting my time to cater to ur eagerness to transform me into someone goin bout for bout... i have no fight in me for the unnecessary acts that create fear... as foes come from friendships said to be the on thing u want to hold near... happiness doesn't exist in ur mindset running around dealing chaos jus bcuz ur a bitter lil nitwit... jus leave me be to live for ur kind is a nuisance within ur chaos driven grip... don't touch me... i don't need u affecting the way i breathe... ur no more than an infection sinking into worth... taring what u can apart before ur gone without a single word... thinking ur some sorta prize when ur a phony pretending to give a fuck... i do not like u n u know nothing of luv...

ready for what's to come...

coming from a place where friends claimed we were as real as the luv we shared... never to look back i can never return too the hate for good reasons as the tongue holds still to remain fair... to let go of what i had thought was worth the time put into relations... yet i was wrong for i went with emotion n lost my mind needing rehabilitation... there is no repeating a life once lived even if there was something left for dead... worth wasn't seen in eyes the way lips babbled as they smacked of who i was to be in their head... as forgotten had become the wall i fought all alone... no matter what came to be a what was means nothing to the rearrangement of hearts drifting with the release of moans... dropping every lil piece of use that failed to free the inner beast to please... now seen as a thing of some sort i refuse to turn around n acknowledge all the broken dreams... the pain n the hurt along with the trials of errors in which i have evolved... i am so much more without thinking i'm better than anyone jus bcuz at least i luv me the way words are defined for questions to be resolved... back then can leave me the fuck be due to dying alive was a real fuckin thing... n i ain't bitter i jus want to be one my way to a mutual respect i deserve even if it comes to slinging meat to a couple of flings... there's no way imma pull a reverse move n spill my depths to someone who had me in their hands... that shit felt wrong after a while n it went sideways with my reaction as their biggest fan... knowing my luv was unconditional the switch was something even passion fell outta my chest... i don't belong in a hole as life passes me by... so it's birds as forever has adapted to the realization of bye bye...

game on...

let's play a lil game we can both win at... talk some real shit in the due process n spit the facts... it'll be as fun as long as ur truths gives us a chance... that way when we're grinding the feeling becomes so much more enhanced... it's easy to go with the flow if ur actually about what u say... actions upon lips to be proven is the factor to a successful flame... lit to start the hearts candle like a whick burning at both ends... shit, if it's to be we will wind up as best fuckin friends... all bcuz we chose to partake in a night to collaborate... by staring each other straight in the eyes without the lies believing in mates... fated to get lost behind closed doors with a bit of skin on skin to see if we can coexist... to open up the valve of luv stuck on idle's wits... we can find reasons to invest in the digging of the beating chest... as we spin turns to speak on terms n conditions that define why we don't jus wanna be guests... with a moment to correspond on out past for a better understanding of how we came about... jus to lay it to rest to get to what no one else could ever release form the mouth... involved to evolve away from provoked complication together for life...that is if u have the curiosity it takes to gain  someone who ain't never gonna fuck with ur mind... giving u the deepest intent through desires touching dreams of all the things so imperfectly perfect aimed at u.... take a turn n gimme what u have sent into my direction jus to see how i react to use... loosen up ur creativity n come on in to a different sense of time spent... roll the dice once more on me n m tongue will not fling accents... we can laugh n get along as it doesn't matter who finishes first.... as long as it's u n i twisting up life getting at  a piece of raw rare worth... n we can make our own rules as we go if it makes u feel better of the outcome of the mornings awakening... dabbling into a new fix mixed with pleasures finest felt with passion's enlightening...

seeking answers...

how does one luv again.?. i'd really like to know... to open up... accept another n grow... when will the heart get over itself.?. sheltering emotion... hiding uses feel... settling into some sort of long term devotion... who is it i think i am.?. when there's no one to prove it to... it's like i'm goin to waste... as if i cannot get a clue... like what the fuck is the deal... walking around not wanting to be bothered... having interest trying to interact... believing for some reason the feel of friendships get smothered... is it all in my head.?. thinking too much.?. or is it as real as the touch that lingers on the flesh... as the skin goes without the feel of trust...

does the drift truly consume emotions once improperly luv'd..?. as the retraction settles for darkened rooms... looking away from eyes willing to get caught in a stare... unable to see self as a reflection is removed... why is it hope literally tends to get lost.?. as persuasions reach for a friend... while depths resist the notion to to get close... changing direction waiting on the end... where in time will it be safe to evolve.?.  to find a purpose worth the mingles paused... able to lean in to the comfort so fuckin lost... having a better sense of a respectable cause...

fuck people...

idk how many times i thought i jus wanna be like everyone else....
but for some reason it didn't make sense so i kept on doin all the things that made me within my presence as felt...
i tried to fit in once upon a time ago...
n i seen the two faces people wear jus wanting others to cater to their way jus to let go...
it was an ugly sight to witness as truths of hate truly resides in every single race...
they hate u whether u feed their egos or go on about ur way...
pointing fingers n laughing to make themselves appear to be a blessing to the sunshine's rays...
fake folks drift in packs clinging to unwritten rules of dominance they can never have...
as i distanced myself once again from a destructive pattern that drives them mad...
n the saddest thing is they cannot see themselves even in the reflection that follow their movements...
as shadows only vary in shapes to prove there's room for self improvements...
i gave it a chance to go with the flow of things...
even attempted to adapt to relate to how actions n words jus fling...
n i found myself caught in the middle of deliberate confusion as minds catered to a lack of humanity cut loose...
as my eyes were in disbelief knowing i didn't wanna believe i'd have to cut my own noose...
for the confirmation of hidden intent was shown...
i lost respect for the norm n resorted to who i was originally to live alone...
to actually have a mindset that can comprehend this world we all live in...
even though the solitude is lonely it's peaceful to ease my grin...

i'm no one to luv...

you'll never know how i'd wanna get lost in ur arms...
n the thoughts that come n go with the flutters in my heart...
jus bcuz i fear i wouldn't amount to much in ur life...
i'mma havta watch u luv someone else jus so i don't make u cry...
as there's things i wish i could show u...
but i'm scared you'll become jus another memory on the loose...
even though i have so much more to give...
i wonder how ur lips upon mine would coexist...
n all i wanna do is hide within this drift until it fades...
simply run away with the nerve it would take to say ur name...
only if u knew how i'd spend my life by ur side...
yet it won't be me to share those special moments passion rides...
as i sit here n notice how u cling to another knowing i want it to be me...
damn we'd be so beautiful under the moonlight yet i havta leave u be...
i'm scared to become an issue if ever the pain remembers my face...
to be an expression that turns emotion into pain...
it would hurt in ways the downfall would do me in...
so i mustn't get ur attention as i am careful not to adjust ur grin...
there's no need in taking me into consideration any time soon...
i jus wouldn't be enough to keep u wanting more than us laid up behind the scenes with a chance to move...
so i fade like a shadow in ur silhouette wondering of the what if's...
allowing u to get away from my version of a man bcuz i know i won't be missed...
i'm jus an after thought waiting my turn to be cut from ur desires...
once lighting ur flame it's only a matter of time i get burnt by the fire...
in a moment where u realize u need something else to fulfill ur dreams...
all in due respect it wouldn't be me...
there's jus no way i could ever see u wanting to lay flush in tuned to feel me breathe...
i jus don't believe i'm the crave you'd hold on to jus past the hype...
once we open up ur not gonna wanna continue to enjoy me for long so why even try...
it's the reason i fall back n let some other person steal u away...
all due to i'm petrified i wouldn't be enough for ur devotion to accept me as a gain..

unlike u...

maybe i don't wanna be like everyone else... it's possible this is jus the way i am... living on some other shit that actually makes sense... getting it in n feelin my way along the edges away from societies version of a so called man... so fuck being the same ol character played the fuck out... as i'm looked at differently due i choose to be me... bcuz i found a deeper passion with in that has become a friend... u ever think the bs placed in ur heads is nothing more than a dream... a forced way of thinking so everyone plays along... in all seriousness, why would i wanna take part.?. y'all don't like one another as it is... talking behind backs n pretending ur differences is not identical to hated spark... from racism to gays to genders to having ur own fuckin mind... trained to classify is the blinding tool u cannot see... seems everyone is hypocritically correct no matter their way of life... none of u can find the feel to set u free... as there are some that step to the side of the chaos looking to capture smiles... to direct us into a pattern to feed egos that have no individuality... ready to judge at any moment to make self feel so much better... as shallow as thoughts that refuse to dig in to humanity like u have some sort of immortality... or should i ask if it's ok to be me.?. with my own perspective of what life truly means n act accordingly... not partaking in ur silliness that has no end... as ur force simply can't understand how i'm enjoying me...

u can hate me later...

lemme lie to u jus bcuz it gets me closer to ur heart... close the distance in between us jus to make u feel like i'm taring u apart... so i can get my way n treat u like shit... have u so fuckin far in ur feelings you'll be swinging ur fists... seems that's what ur expecting so fuck it right.?. let's get it in n i'll pretend i give a fuck that the pain i cause is a way of life... open up n lemme twist u even further than you've ever been... i'm like all the others anyways so lets get to breaking some ribs... i'll be what u want me to be for a lil while... then turn on u once i've had ur garden jus to destroy ur smile... i can defend my actions like i ain't done a fuckin thing wrong... n blame u for being over dramatic by havin empty promises like ur favorite sad song... changing u into a bigger fuckin bitch then u were when we met... if that's what u feel all i am i will dig ur heart outta ur chest... become every thought in ur head of a luv u cannot have... n torture u with a taunt as i go back n forth half stepping u creating ur wrath... u can be as crazy as females are said to be due to the way so called men fake the phunk... then i'll leave forcing u to hate me once i know you've fallen so fuckin far in luv... jus bcuz ur mindset refuses to adapt to what a real man is... or i can walk away from u now n save myself from what another has done to u enjoying ur bitterness...

I am ur fantasy...

No limits is the only rule is wgat I crave... having trust in me as u answer to me song ur name... touched n fondled as restraints hold u down... posting with every nerve listening to the moans that create sound... it's ur will to be used n enjoyed that turns me on... with toys n lubes making home made porn... having every hole tampered n penetrated deep... I want control as u belong on ur knees... to serve n obey for ur body is my greatest thrill... I ain't to please while feeding my own hormones that spill... forcing u to do things you've never done... bringing out ur kinks that u fuckin luv... as boundaries do not exist behind closed doors... fir u are mine to to test like my own personal whore... fuckin u from the back as ur hair is gripped to tightly within my palm... slapping ur azz until the feel truly turns u on... feeling u deeper with each thrust as u gasp for air... cummmmmmm for me princess, daddy life it when ur pussy is shared...  abused n taken from ur inoscence ur truu to hide... yet u will be punished if I'm ever denied... demanding ur will to submit or pay the price... I absolutely luv that look in ur eyes... begging me please with every breath... shoving u full until herd nothing left... as down I go to taste ur flow... to press the issues of multiples that scream to be let go... no no baby kitten, I need so much more... I wanna hear ur deptgz call out from ur core... please stop, please... teasing my inner beast... finding yourself at my mercy with my hand around ur neck... as my cock clings to the rapid heartbeats pounding from ur chest... ur nipple are my way of tuning ur tone... as this is scary happens when I get u alone...

It's getting old...

Running outta ways to say what it'll take to get close... having no need in attachments on the release end of a friend that gloats... childish behavior isn't an attractive feature tugging on chatacter... so choices have been made to represent self as a luv'r... words are losing their feel due to very few understand the complains to merge lives... thinking it's pure emotion without a hint of wits... there's no time to watch luv cater to depths as the mindset changes knowing the burn is coming soon... as others jus wanna ease the nerve for they cannot handle sitting in a lonely room... rushing the sensitivities like a tsunami swallowing the shallows of the shore... bringing chaos n heartache once the tide rolls out leaving a drowning core... luv does not exist without like forming a bond... as life itself hasn't the patience to correct themselves street the fact of relations making everything odd... grown is stable n the mouth is simply tired of telling feet to step... jus bcuz the message I'd over looked for that me me me shit to cause such a fuckin mess... give or fuck off is the most ignorant azz shit ever seen... having no grounds for safety to believe in another wanting to digg in to jus leave... the tongue is goin silent for individuals are so hard to find... refusing to mingle without a use to lay down ones pride...

do u feel me.?.

are u reading me as if ur witnessing ur own life written in words.?. or is the depths real enough to be felt from a distance allowing eye to lurk.?. following lines that define what true emotion actually feels... thought out n applied to relate as i am jus one individual willing to be real... are u intrigued or jus entertained by how letters are rearranged... able to see me n how i think from a far as we're somewhat the same... watching how expressions transform even ur secret place into a reality u believed no one else could show... as i'm unafraid of my own truths due to i care less of others judge mental moans... as i was wondering of what comes from within u when u hear yourself whisper along the lines spread to be shared... do u come back to life when who u are is captured so perfectly detailed.?. maybe we're not so different u n i... there's things that mold us i've jus been able to get out to display the brutality of a beautiful life... for my mind wanders off to create something new from a perspective describing u to a t... yet it's me that flows with the tongue on the move caught somewhere in between...

Natural flow...

Like the rain that falls to give life... luv lands within the heart n captures the mind... giving roots a drink to quinch the droughts thirst... thunder like heartbeats can be heard... rumbling impulses shake with every move... as the eyes towards the sky look up to witness reality rip loose... the drizzle of happy tears let loose... as natural as the need that flows... there's a giving of purity shown... to thrive n live on the comfort of clouds... storms remind use of a friendships found... Listening to each drip touch a surface made to please... fingers reach for nerves aimed with ease... so trees like spines stand so tall... enjoying a piece of paradise in a moment to pause...

the thought of getting close...

If the tongue had no hesitations it would speak of rainy nights n cool breezes coming through the windows as two bodies lay about... if sound found its noise to create a moment to listen to raindrops land outside the mind jus might open up to the thought of getting close enough to be found... if alone isn't what the mind needs to find the of comfort another would feel free to lounge about in stormy weather... n if the silence gave into breathing hearts jus might attend a friendship as still as the willingness feeling the vibe as pulses come together... if time allowed the nights to lounger beyond the presence as sits gave sighs the right of way... if grips found hips in a moment of passion tangled up with fingers holding lusts finding luv to give away self jus the same... if fear stepped to the side so life could come from within n believe in gasps slipping out upon the lips... if the thought of getting close was equivalent of the imaginations wildest dreams the chance jus might get to live...

Taken by the charge...

thinking of what surrounds the makings of me... on the outside where my mind cannot get seem to dream... oooh, there's thoughts that could set self free... only if it were possible to transform then into reality... oooh we... how life would wrap around being so much more than what it appears to be... with every step taken there's a picture perfect scene... opening the mind by chances taken that lead... helping the condition of the lungs so willing to breathe... life lingers to be taken n swept of its feet... owned to become a necessity to need... it's the choices that create a more than a belief... with a eagerness of an ability to leap... to have what is intended through actions seen...

Forced to step away...

I don't have any give... I don't know how to quit... n it's what makes relations so fuckin hard... everyone jus wants to play around with the emotions that come so freely from within my heart... even devotion is over looked jus acting other than to witness use interact... as intent is twisted n thrown back into the face changing the facts... as losing interest hurts every time desires cave to trample down a one way street... making the pulse skip in between the usefulness of heartbeats... there is no limits to a life I feel is worth the efforts... until I'm forced to step away to save myself from the selfishness displayed on the face eventually worn... as i find thoughts misplaced with what was supposed to be a friend... yet it's more like staring down a barrel accepting the end... loyalty is the hardest thing to come across... n it crashes a few times over to regain mental stability for it will get lost... as the feelings that linger back n forth are jus comforts that have been taken advantage of... always wanting to believe in someone fades as likes become more depth defining than luv... catering to dreams once shared that nevertheless was never willing to give up hope... jus to look around n realize foes pretend well enough n jus long enough until there's a correction within the home... goin solo due to promises that are never meant to be kept... even though self will do anything for someone real to invest...

The good n the bed...

Letting go doesn't mean it never existed... n at times the tongue lies when it speaks of hoe it doesn't miss it... it's a offset of the memory that found joy in once upon a time ago... as thought remember the good with the bad that linger back what used to be considered home... as the release gathers self never to first of selfs doings as lessons find character... knowing were all au sine point until we gain wisdom some kinda amateur... so freeing the mind to recollect of life'so chapters is to remind the reflection of the humanity within... accepting where we've been as it's ok to rekindle the past so it's self that isn't running from emotions spread thin... to break is to live with what's made the turn of foul play... guilty we are in our own careful not to reignite flames that burnt the thought process into a sizzling game... learning of the do'so n don'ts the resurface in new relations over n over again... creating tension due to one cannot allow easy hag been to become that factor to enjoy a better way as who self is isn't band...

In a moment of recognition...

She asked me why her... I replied I jus can't help myself... n in her disbelief there was an amazement that spoke without words... she knew she was felt... appreciated beyond comforts... yet she kept at the wonders on her mind... asking for a deeper reason to why her of all others... she didn't realize I found my best friend looking back at me through the most settling eyes... as i told her is she was that triggered my unconditional  luv... jus be near her was a joy I couldn't describe, even if I wrote them down... n it was her expressions that lit my passion the moment she fell into me... as she dug deeper I believe to see if my tongue was as slick as the words that leaped outta my mouth... saying, I'm jus another girl... speaking of how there's nothing special about herself... n that she thought I was delusional as I laughed... so I reassured her of her worth by telling her I don't want no one else... they wouldn't be and to bring me to life... damn that sigh that came from deep as she caught a tear... knowing I want goin anywhere unless I was forced against my will... I seen the completion upon. Her lovely face... n to this day I think back to how two people get lost in the thrills... finding a friend that can't go on without them... feeling life jus wouldn't me the same if relations ever fell through... as home becomes more than a destination that eases the rights that hey carried away... yet, to every beginning there's an end that defines a certain kinda transformation as use is to be removed...

we are family...

there's no welcoming mat at the doorstep anymore... feet need not trample where they do not belong.... there's more than bills that need attending to inside... home isn't jus some place to live when dipping in luv's sauce... the door is locked n only the real ones have a key... true friends n family that share the same flow of needs n wants... as the windows are covered so those who drift off cannot see in... life here is a lil different than where most come from... our back yard gathers smiles when gatherings open the gates... we enjoy the time spent without the harshness of the outside world beating it's way in... backs are watched as trust is the factor of self being accepted as is... feeling a worth whether it's morning or night feeling safe from the hatred of loose lips... in here there's a friendship on all levels that means something to us... loosened to cut the fuck up at any given moment jus bcuz we can... free from the bitterness others posses that spreads like a disease... we're family no matter the situation we so happen to cross so step off if ur what we call a hit man... trying to invade our ways that makes sense to us that need not be explained... tears here are comforted from compassion until hope finds it's feel... together we evolve to gain a more enjoyable life... n we are not in need of an intruder so about self claiming to be real...