Apologizing daily to self.
Feeling the agonizing pain.
Unable to hold it in from time to time.
So where do i begin?
The faces have been stricken to the change.
As come from within with sorrow.
Hurt cuz i failed in their eyes.
Another yesterday I'd luv to borrow.
The weep consumes my drive.
Desperate to right the wrong so intense.
It wasn't suppose to be this way.
N my decision had no defense.
I've fallen from the status on which i had.
From day one my heart was owned.
By my own blood from so young.
Time is slipping away from all over ever known.
Words cannot express the void.
Yet they try to climb to the surface.
My plan backfired n i wasn't the only one that got hit.
In the line of fire was my own that escaped.
N sorry jus doesn't cut the cake.
Let down is my best friends of all time.
Looking into the distance between us.
As I'm losing my fucking mind.
Attempting to return as i reach for them.
Falling short with every step.
Fighting for three heads that turned.
Shaking off the disappointment i live with in my depths.
The ache wrenches me lose.
Then tightens to twist my fights blues.
Keeping one promise close to my heart.
Imma fix this if it's the last thing i do.
Wanting it to be the first thing they see.
As i beg for forgiveness to be their glue.
The super hero that had they're backs.
I'm but a stranger trying everything i can.
I have a different plan that jus might work.
Pleading for jus a lil while longer to make a stand.
My intentions has anyways been true.
Yet i broke the chain n didn't mean to.
As miles separate's the laughter I've damaged.
I am to blame for all they've gone through.
Ooh, jus to take the years in reverse.
To have a do over for life to remain.
I'd heal their emotional scars.
To last untouched by the failure as a man.
I'm coming.
Dads running in place.
Imma make it before to long.
I'll repair what I failed to embrace.