lost in between dreams

jumping out from a dream i wake.
wondering how much more imagination i can take.
out of sync and disoriented for a nightmare i ridden.
i dreamt up a dream where we were forbidden.
reaching i extend, i roll and grab hold.
as my body feels so extremely cold.
clinging to the past a dream attempted to steal.
feeling more than the depression that appeared to be real.
tightly wrapped stuck to your side in a freezing sweat.
a little thing called dreamland told me you left.
slowly coming to reality of what we share.
for this thing it is as real as it is as sad as it is rare.
finding a love more passionately than i did before i drifted off.
winding up somewhere where i felt so utterly lost.
pulling me out of a dark tale trying to i am shake it.
from me you were violently ripped and forsaken.
tasting the worst of all my frightened fears.
our future became an absent minded smidge of a smear.
changing times, living past outdated expiration's.
i thought you gave up on all our expectations.
you and i were done inside the subconscious of my mind.
through with living a love we could not hide.
i lost control in between dreams yet one more time.
as i am waking and finding myself wanting to break down and cry.
wanting to tell you i never want to watch you leave at all.
i comfort my confusion with your skin for it is so silky soft.
the tricks of the mind damn near killed my heart.
broke me down and tore me completely apart.
i came close to freezing over and my core becoming bitterly hard.
as i woke just in time to a feeling of total disregard.
and though i escaped the depths of an illusion that had took my one.
i learned a valuable lesson in a lonely dream of a love going numb.