I lost the promise of truth.

There isn't much good left behind these hazel peekin eyes.
Caught up in an endless stare that only wonders of happier days.
Closin the world away they shut to the undeservin pain.
Retreat is the only thought that caters to the aches unwanted stay.
For the help has gone n done in the misfortunate with the unthinkable.
As i collapse within where no one can see me lose my minds dream.
Fingerprints have touched n failed to capture what's left of the unseen.
There is no friend that'll fix the impossible pleads that silently scream.
I'm off on a deserted highway in the middle of my mind to nowher in particular.
Alone as empty as emotions can possibly wanna try to even forgive.
I'm stuck in a rut driftin down my only way comin completely undone.
Diggin deep n honesty jus wants to forget the frustration n live.
I'm dyin within as my passion has simply slid sideways n stopped.
It doesn't wanna feel me fail another time around to be impaled.
The ring side seats aren't worth the show even when the pics r cropped.
I haven't any fight left to swing a tired n weakened awakenin blow.
I jus wanna hide the hidden compliments that feed over used desires.
I lost the promise of truth cuz it didn't have a need for me to be free.
The trust was rusted by the tears that somehow grew old n retired.
Turnin a page in which i wasn't mentioned on for some unknown reason.
So i think imma call it here n now as done til my life jus passes me away.
The shit hurts to much to keep repeatin the inevitable of what i can not have.
Cuz I've been given the prize n it was taken outta my parades display.
As i floated face down n was left for dead to drift solo along the banks of nowhere.
So here we go with my side chilled from the luv gatherin pieces of the void.
Thinkin what it would be like in my secrets to open back up n ensure what is for sure.
But its not for me to endure the wrath of bein enjoyed.
Not even for a brief moment til the capture kills the claim of mine escapin the rescue.
To be released n refused to be acknowledged fallin inward once more I couldn't handle.
I ain't got it in me to feel the torment of a replacement wantin to stand that close.
That space jus doesn't need to be filled nor adored beneath a flickerin candle.
Crippled by the snap that broke my will to believe i resist the chance to breathe.
Í haven't the time to resurrect what is only briefly used here n there.
So jus lemme close my eyes so i don't havta witness the attempt to see u comin.
I've been there n i was damned by the visual effect that forgot how to care.
It's all the same from the top to the bottom bouncin from the peeks point.
Inside n out the outcome will remain the repeat of the appeal fadin, then gone on loan.
I did better on my own lookin onward to live another day to obtain my dignity.
Leave me be til i rise to the irresistable one's crazy legs findin a lil place here as home.