Dedicated to the noose...

I can see me hangin there.
 The joy in my expression is eerie
 Smilin cuz the pain is almost over.
The soothing feelin isn't all that leary.
 It explains the struggle.
 N I'm Losin my fight.
 I bet it feel good to tap out.
 The backs filled up with to many the knives.
 N hard times forced me to swing.
 In my mind i fantasize.
 As it eases my truths.
 Beaten by my very own reality.
 I feel it as the rope tightens.
 Takin me away from the bullshit.
 Finally the relief.
 There's space between the ground n my feet.
 The endless has come to pass.
 Tied above as it releases me.
 N my own has found the answer.
 I jus wanna be free.
 So i guess this is that letter.
 This world isn't worth the anguish.
 Humanity has lost here.
 It's to fuckin selfish.
 Yet i connect with the vision.
 Danglin in the breeze.
 Somethin went seriously wrong.
 I can't sleep without this dream.
 It haunts me.
 Yet gives so much comfort.
 Cuz there's a way to stop this depression.
 I see my suicide stranglin my vocal chords.
 Once dedicated to the noose.
 Jus to know if the after l life is a lie.
 I'm sorry i jus can't go on.
 I lost control of my mind.
 So far into reality it drove me nuts.
 There's no return.
 This is a for sure a one way ticket.
 N now it's my turn.
Come with me.
There's one for all of us.
That way i don't feel so bad.
For leavin u n such.
Cuz its time to climb.
 1, 2, 3.....
 Take a deep breath.
 Please remember me!!!

Fuck dreamin... I'll sleep when I'm dead!!!