It's jus how it is n how I fuckin feel...

Steppin backwards ain't on the way this shit goes... The mind ain't got a switch stuck on reset so know ur roll... Backin me down will only get u slapped in the face... N I've had guns pulled on me as I dared my fuckin fate... A death wish mindset so no u can neva fuckin relate... Shit works differently in my head n unlike u I cannot escape... Don't force the issue for me to defend who I am bcuz ur reality is fake... I'll set u straight quick n turn n walk the fuck away... N if u wanna keep goin the sense in u will fly from ur mouth on the first warning to shut the fuck up... Ain't no one this way got time to suck ur azz all puckered up... Death don't scare me for I'm goin in a box... I won't know I'm there so u can go fuck off... We are not the same n u will never cross over... So stay in ur lane or over u I'll hover... N it's not the way I wanna live bcuz it takes my patience time to get to that point... I'mma give u the benefit of the doubt yet when the time is up ur gonna feel my void... I ain't causin my self no harm tryin to make the best decision for me... N I'm cool with shit but I'll be a mutha fuck if I'mma get down on my knees... Humble n kind n goofy AF... N I don't have a problem with tellin u to shut the fuck up... When the shit gets to deep n u start believin the lies feedin into the bs... I'll stand on mine bcuz I truly don't care to live... Even though I'm in luv with life in its own spinnin outra control... N ah Nah, hell no, my heart u cannot hold... It's been tampered with n ur gonna havta show me why claim to be a friend... I don't believe in anything but the unwanted end...