Goin inwards to recall who it is I can count on... Who's stood their grounds n who's failed to care enough to help me to where I need to be goin... I see draggin feet n the lack of interest when I peek back on times that shoulda been better times... So whatcha gonna do when u only have very few that ain't jus talkin jive..? Shit, lookin into the rewind of my mind I find my worth when I remember the occurances that led to this point in my life... N there ain't been more than a handful that's shown truths in a friendship that stands as real as air flowin on by... The faces take sides as I'm witness to the separation dividin what at some point I refused to believe... N there's more than what's needed on the wrong side of proof as the numbers are growin deeper than the need... N yeah, emotion kicks in n reminisces whether it be a friend a luv'r or lost family... All wrapped up in my happiness that used to be shared in smiles that neva pulled through... Seems in the middle of it all they had forgotten about who's who... N this world wonders why my head's on tilt n I push back... Maybe it's bcuz of the weight of those I've cared for that's shifted to the left side of my mind livin in the past... As I stand erect like a boner to the right with the ones that's as nuts as I am to relate... N this is me as of late...  Takin steps n shakin hands with those thoughts findin peace within... Tryin to grab ahold of the grip as lips release the flip side of my neva endin rib... Excitin mentally what only returns as it did before I did it in... Comin to terms with were stuck together n they're buried in pieces of my grin...