It lives... Schizophrenia

 I felt it fall deeply in luv with me.
 Ssh. I'm tryin to hear what it wants.
 The aches r dead silent.
 But the echoes vibrate the truths hunt.
 Oh, the way it turns to stone.
 Every time I try to escape.
 It's claim feels me through.
 The filter of Luvs stage.
 Trustin in me, it has no need.
 I let emotion gargle on the waste.
 N from the taste it flees.
 I can only feel what it allows.
 In full control it's still.
 Motionless in time.
 It's had enough of what's been spilled.
 Listen with me.
 Through my actions that speak.
 As the ripples can be felt.
 In the way I breathe.
 Gaspin for airs life.
 Strugglin to find a way.
 It's unwillin to let shit be.
 I'm constantly reminded with drownin waves.
 Under the tsunami face down.
 Forced to swim to shore.
 To visualize the pain.
 Witness to my damaged core.
 It's been givin the reins.
 Stearin whatever may be.
 Directin the orchestra in my heart.
 Remindin me dreams don't belong in reality.
 My face can only express what is true.
 Draggin the waters.
 Seekin my worth.
 In search of what truly matters.
 Toot toot, this steam engine lost its caboose.
 Runnin outta track.
 Derailed.
 In pieces in the middle of a heart attack.
 It hurts to be normal.
 Quietly kept, I'm imprisoned within.
 Trapped by fear.
 By the muted scream that empties the grin.
 Rippin me open to shed dry tears.
 Slow n steady.
 Squeezin heartbeats pulse to a minimum.
 It's fingers like a cage.
 Wrapped around my stolen minds equilibrium.
 Made to be conscious.
 For it is my carelessness that be this.
 So yes em sir.
 I do what you's tells me from ya lips.
 Enslaved by neglect.
 The comfort turned on me.
 But it doesn't see it that way.
 Neither my pleads.
 Lackin a vivid description.
 The image of self is vague n blurred.
 Disoriented as if confused of what it is.
 The unknown me has been stirred.
 Yet to surface.
 Due to failin my own.
 Corrupted by schizophrenic design.
 I've been tamed by irrelevant moans.
 Livin under a casted spell.
 Dethroned n captured.
 Chained to my darkest dungeon.
 By far, more than fractured.
 Alone n torn.
 Reckless courage now afraid.
 Sunk n anchored.
 The bubbles reach for the stagnant faze.
 Floatin on patience.
 Guided by the endless linger.
 The old me ancient.
Lost to the inevitable.
Mind blown outta proportion.
I am not alone.
Talkin to my illusions.