I know u gotta.
But do u really havta?
Maybe u should
Yet watchin u turn.
I don't want u to go.
If ever words were bold.
Away from the memory.
Reinventin reality.
The loss would dig.
N it would read like this.
Openin a gapin hole.
From a luv once told.
Walk if u must.
Keep what's left on the hush.
Pack it up n be gone.
Jus find where u belong.
Down that lonely road.
It's fine to go alone.
You're ur own true fix.
Send me adrift.
Recall me elsewhere.
Later when u remember what u can not hear.
In a life i never made it to.
Side by side next to u.
But jus know I'm not givin up.
I'm still in luv.
A fool to believe.
I don't want u to leave.
The pain of bein abandoned jus might end me.
As out be hard to breathe.
My emotions may break.
As tears will eventually escape.
So go ahead n be ok with it.
It's jus me u jus might miss.
Left standin I'll be right here.
Pretendin I don't want u near.
Goin numb.
Stuck in luv.
Cuz no one will ever be u.
There week never come a truce.
Ur to valuable to evade.
The luv i have for u will forever ache.
Placed in another cravin only u.
Rectifyin the imaginations use.
Lie to me behind these closed doors.
Before my ears are muted to ur vocal chords.
Promise me you'll stay.
Be that one that'll never betray.
Singled out as my joy.
Fill the void.
Or parish into this world.
As jus another girl.
Knowin ur thunder.
The mind over u will only wonder.
Has she found what wasn't me?
What was i suppose to be?
When it's ur happiness that keeps me loose.
All I'll ever need is u.
But its cool.
Be someone else's tool.
Lost in their stare.
Act as if u don't care.
Please, pretend i don't exist.
I insist.
As my patience will never learn.
Waitin for u to return.
The length of time simply won't heal.
Without u i jus couldn't feel.
It the to tip of the top.
Not once will my heart ever stop.
To luv u is what it wants.
It what it hunts.
If u can't feel that then disappear.
Tell me I'm the death of ur cheer.
Then again please stay.
Lets awaken to another day.
Don't run off with my passions touch.
It's me, ur fuckin crush.
Witness devotion so faithful.
I'm here n able.
What more do u want from me.
I'm cavin in to the need.
Diggin in to the reality of ur absence.
Is this how it happens?
Endin prior to due times final rest.
For the rest of my life I'd reminisce.
Holdin someone as if they were u.
Cuz this much is true.
My dreams include a lifetime of connected lips.
Closin my eyes to have this.
Here in the now of what truth brings.
This is that moment that changed everything.
Don't fail me now.
Don't allow my life to go silent without ur sounds.
But if u gotta.
I don't know why u havta.
Do ur thing.
Jus leave the ring.
Live in a way i couldn't give.
Exclude me from ur own wish.
Even though I've given my all.
Stood in as u leg me fall.
I'm pourin out my heart that's filled it with u.
Shamelessly I'll never deny ur use.
Not the way u do me.
How am I now not what sets u free?
Ur all I'll ever wanna know.
What ever happened to that pound.
Thumpin as one within the crave.
It'll take to long to find my way.
I'd die before i ever recover.
Wantin u in every luvr.
Jus listen to the truth.
Makin way for the woos.
Clingin to ur worth.
Wantin ur happiness to be free.
If it's not here then jus do u.
It's not my choice.
I can not control what u want.
But i am opened n fallin.
The pieces are beginnin the cycle.
Unable to hold me together.
I thought forever was in ur eyes.
Was i ever ur everything?
If u flee it's curtains.
Spendin my luv on who?
They'll never be u.
Retreat n refuse to mean ur words.
Take flight n collapse in my eyes.
Make me a part of ur past.
Jus another name.
Don't witness my face grow old.
Allow me to visualize u steppin out.
Show me what u truly think of me.
For once jus be honest.
Be about it.
I gave in to the reason u gave me.
Who am i to u?
While I'm only a flavor at the edge of ur lips.
Somethin i jus don't get.
I can't understand the concept.
Why bail on the expressions i act upon?
Shown to be seen sat in front of u.
As me drippin a leak.
Feelin what it is i have to lose.
Unlike the mindset u dwell.
Ur it for me.
The only one that'll ever do.
Please if u must tare me apart.
Do it quickly n march.
You'll never know how long it'll take.
Gettin over u simply jus won't happen.
The goin without will only be covered up.
I'd carry u to my grave as my one.
Secretly til the day i know u never came back.
Hurt me!
Like u always do with no regard.
Jus vanish.
Sit in my dreams n smile.
Where i can't touch u as u hide.
I'm up for the challenge.
There's no one that'll ever take u outta me.
That's jus the way it is.
The way it must be.
If that's what u decide.
It's ur call.
Do better than me.
Loosin ur grip.
Release me from ur so called hell.
Or figure out what u have.