As she was gettin high AF my nuts were pinned to the wall... Ain't nothing like watching luv destroy u as they release u from their palms... No contest, n no I couldn't compete... She fell away n that shit hurt so fuckin deep... As it was a game to see how far my luv was willin to go... Yeah, it went the distance til I realized I could neva go home... There at a moment's notice I didn't miss a single beat... Yet the drugs took her away from me... It wasn't my lifestyle, it jus want for me... N now she's a memory shoved back in my dreams... Even after making sure I did all I possibly could... Put her up to get back to the kids and I was the one misunderstood... Seems she neva felt nor cared to see the real man in me tryin to be a friend... As I let go knowin there was a meaning for an end... I to needed to love life again so we called it quits... N I betcha she ain't even tried to file as her name rejects my lips... N no I didn't leave hee at the bottom where no one gave a fuck... I kept my vows til I knew it wasn't luv... Damn near four yrs after the chaos swept through my life like a fuckin hurricane... Sad thing is there wasn't shit but a friendship between us before what I can neva explain...