they tell me i'm the one that's missed... as their words reach to me as i'm the one they lost... i hear them say they wish they could go back n change the way things took place... as from a far i listen to how I was the best thing in their lives as they're payin the cost... apologies send chills up my spine as my mind cracks in disbelief...when i stood in the way of a different kinda freedom they couldn't see me... It seems time makes them remember how it was me that made them feel wanted... as i've been placed back into their loneliest fuckin dreams... i'm told that i was the only one they could count on as they feel ashamed of how they did me caught up in their own thoughts... n it's hard to sit still long enough to gather the words to express i could neva return to the way things were... as they understand i'm jus not strong enough for us all to keep the fiasco goin well beyond the moment of control losin grips on flaws... they call n they text in an form they can jus to hear my voice... to speak a few truths of how i was felt in their own unkind gestures i didn't deserve... damn how time flips its switches after the fact of the hardships that wind up in situations like this... n i wonder if they'll eva quit or get over me the way they said they would in the heat of the moment that neva went unheard... they claim the luv is real as they realize i witnessed my own worth take a bow... n i try to remain friends from where i rest my head jus so i know i can sleep without lookin over my shoulder... it's fucked up to be so close to someone who jus wants to rip u apart... n i'm still the same person through it all as they now see me in a way i stand out in their minds as we grow older... lost in a sense yet, found by what could neva be denied... from time to time i feel them as they cry due to me bein gone... as it's in their tone cracklin n breakin sounds... n we all know, no one won.!.
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