head up...

leavin it all where it wound up, u ain't been anything that resembles forgotten... u damn near got all the way in n i applaud ur efferts that fell short of ur addiction jus wantin a friend... raw n landin here is the memory of what was that neva came through like the one jus before u, u were so jealous of... yet it's ok bcuz i felt things for u time cut short due to it jus wasn't supposed to be as we to found our end... don't think a friendship will go without lips that will remain to talk... as ur own will come in due time as long u keep movin to correct ur own in which i gave a moment of my own life to help... as in u i found who it was i lost as i was unable to give u what it was u couldn't want bad enough to get clean... shelby, u were felt... younger with a way about u that took me by surprise i let u go bcuz u had an addiction that cost me everything jus before we met... n i watched u round the same bends as the friend prior to u standin next to me as she once stood... shit wasn't easy fallin down with no way to stand back up as u know i fuckin tried to have u here with me... as things between us will forever remain all good... lil bit, u brought me back through the hardships landin in mirrors as u drifted from these hands of mine chasin that feel of desperation... down in my depths u will go with a special place knowin i can not live the life u ran to as even the thought of goin back to the struggle isn't possible as we fade... there's nothin that fazes me for it was u that helped me feel that life u chose not to feel yourself as if u gave me all of what u had to give of ur own shine... n to think there was nothin but a friendship i could ever give u is the endless vibe that'll be there no matter the time or place if u truly need me for ur own personal gain... i'm emptying the feel of ripples that linger n u havta go... there's nothin in here thaat resembles what u might think is real as u tell me u want an honest chance... i can't go back as i told u time will play out as we're still standin somewhere laughin at the past knowin we jus can't be... hell, we jus might have that one thing as friends we neva had the chance to do n that's that dance...