a touch of sadness...

hidden secret shortly lived... exposed is the beginnin of the end losin the fun fallin away from the ribs... somethin so good gone with the usage of neglect... as there is no goin back to a past moment to reflect... what's done is gone n there's nothin anything can change as minds wrapped around the warped behavior... as every time the intake went in bombs dropped as if actions wanted me to hate her... n as it eased its way in unseen by the eyes blinded by her sneaky ways... a friend turned unnoticeable to the nakedness once shared as interest evaded truths goin on n on around the winds change tryin to behave... it's hard to witness let alone visualize the process of the separation that lead to the point of no return... yet i was there n fell from her fingertips as she let go of even my worth... hurtin each n every time she went under the usage of runnin from the pain... swallowin what was to come as we parted i fought from a distance when i was allowed to care for what used to be as one in the same... i held my end as long as i could as she ran off to a lifestyle fallin further than i could attempt to reach... but was on the other end of every text call n message sent to me as i came to show her all shed havta do is stop the madness that makes her a leach... she fell in luv with a different way of life n through time she jus didn't come back as who it is i know no other took the time to find within her true self... i was the enemy  as she explained why she pushed me away into the feel of hopelessness as from a far doin what she could to help... she forced me to hate her as i could neva do... knowin this she kept goin as she claimed to be a friend runnin back to that life as she spun away from me for i knew it was time to be through... she refused to find the strength it would take n washed her hands of me givin what i could do to get her back on her feet... she was the one to lose of all others bcuz if it wasn't for the drugs no other female would eva have a chance at relations with me... i tore myself away once we decided to end the fiasco as we've known it was over a few yrs past due... n quietly i feel a touch of sadness still due to the life we couldv'e had madly in luv for we were to be envied as we were the truth... that click that's so fuckin hard to find in this world that was ripped from our hearts bcuz she dipped in n couldn't find her way back as she got lost in the ripples of her own heart deep in between the creases of the evenin dimness n mornin rise... n until now i hid from this world as i couldn't move on til i knew without a doubt my best friend was unwillin to come back around n live in my presence as she still hides...