words find a different emotion lurking on the ongoing feel of needing relations to be done... rounding around the clock for more days to come not worth the time that ticks as my own heart is still on the run.. at the ends of drip all dried out the linger still holds on as if it needs more of my life... as the walk that turned into a movement has a new direction wanting to be freed from attachment that let go of the hype... shit jus ain't the same as i'm trying to void a contract that once had my best intentions that went down a more self centered way to live... there's jus nothing else to possibly give... the threads hold only a worn out pattern unworn n awaiting its moment to reside in a past sense of thrown the fuck away... luv here isn't what was said to be as the roll over found new faces peeking in to a place they could never reach for i contained the relentless pain... yet the feeling has come to pass for a new kinda will to come to the surface to be put to use... well rested n full of what is seeked is thy sighs crawling their way out for something new... it's been far too long since i've held passion placed in my hands that wanted nothing but for me to live n let live... from fingertips that flow with the shape of a pretty face to the grip of the curves she brings to my very own lips... as the unknown version of self has been hidden with extreme caution... stopping along the way for only the few of a small percentage of others that has gotten behind the wall as eyes sunk beneath the shell as i slowly paused... finding the same ol nonsense on the front burner burning another hole in my own fuckin heart... as i think if i were to explain how my life's been. how would it start.?. do i go back to where the top blew whole or a lil further where nothing seemed to faze me.?. bcuz for some strange reason i got lost in a lonely dream... confused on the feelings lent to on;y three that's ever rested within my the happiness i held so close... in a short amount of time 7 yrs felt like an eternity to get here jus to rid myself of the goofiness applied to the emptiness of a single rose... a meaningless symbolism meant to spark the excitement luv fell away as i'm waiting to see who's up for the long haul... as i sit here today with one more eek put on the shelf before i can free my intent to whom i choose to share my minds inner walls... listening to the ticking of the clocks tick tock as it will never stop spinning its way around my thoughts... as one day soon imma open up n blow a mind worth the expression once i put to rest this legal matter flipped n tossed... laid to its rightful place far behind where it is i find my gain instead of a short lived dream... living for once without having to attempt to forget the memories made that simply can not jus leave me be... i talk without words that can only relate to correct depths infected by the acceptance that failed a friend... p.s. the end...
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