in i go to lift this feel that's taken over me... to correct me from turning in to what must leave... having enough of how i cannot shale the condition of the mind... knowing i jus need to get out n enjoy my time... to reverse this solitude that's taken control of my life... somehow i allowed it to consume me where i hide... it's gotta be pull from within her n now... now that i finally realize what it is that i've found... the weakness that's plagued my heart isn't the lack of luv... it's being alone too much as my heart cannot feel the reach of a friendly touch... as it isn't relations that bother me... nor people that tend to go with the same ol flow of silly things... it's me that i have come to not trust... the one that's supposed to have my back when all else fails as i'm supposed to be the clutch... so i gotta dig n find a way to rearrange the way i live... in a different state of mind where i can actually enjoy the bliss... for the truth jus came outta nowhere as i ease the fuck up... as if a weight has been lifted from my very own hush.. i was twisted within as i couldn't pinpoint what was wrong with me... i had forgotten what it's truly like to get out n do something other than sit around n leak... telling tales of scenarios n angles through words that captivates my depths... n all i need to do to change it is to see what's next... with no burdens to concur the inner makings of who it is i am... i defeated myself by not taking a stand... giving in to the silence that has drove me insane... yet i caught it n i intend to feel the reason i escape... to return to the real world with one smile that will never fade.... i too wanna see more of life n recreate what's been tamed... for me as it no longer feels as if i am crippled be the confusion i've caused... though opening this new door will help me take my finger off of the pause... to join in on what i have missed out on for so long... as the drift wound me up with a better outlook so i too can belong... it dawned on me that it was me the whole time... n for the life of me i do not know why...
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