inside of the outside...

there's nothing outside that calls my name... being my favorite place to be i sit in my cave... looking out the window at the emptiness touching the breeze... sighs last longer than relations unable to breathe... all that's seen is the air blowing around the debris... until night has chase the sun into hiding as i'm to dream... laying still for morning to come back around... listening for daybreak to bring a voice carrying a sound... yet it fades to the elements that determine my days... guess i'll jus stay here within my home that hears me act insane... talking to shapes imagined on the wall coming to life... but first i'f havta wanna be found someone inside the linings of my mind... as i'm tired of waiting around for my will to be ready... after all it is a choice to play if i could ever not be unsteady... here in years gone without being touched the way luv does... n doing me looks to be the one thing i do the best due to others drift jus bcuz... i'd luv to step into the open space n feel comfortable again... for a chance to be seen in the flesh that awaits it's thrill to find a fan... one to listen as if they were the one speaking to me... to realize i ain't what i've labeled them to be... it's funny how time changes the tongues ability to taste a real set of lips... as words lose focus due to over thinking the process of elimination that ends self to give... oh the way i wanna exit this place in which i hide... to save myself from this overwhelming drift that's taken something from the way i rhyme... yet my joy will come into focus as i won't have the ability to refuse the offer shown... even though i've already passed up a few jus wanting to be alone... seems being scared of what people can do has taken an effect... then again that's jus an excuse to feel better for the lack of interest jus has no reason to feel anything deep in the chest... twisted is he thought of sights that attract me from a far... as an exit strategy is needed to rejoin friends n fam for a sense of norm to do my part...