fuck it...

why am i so desirable when i don't feel like much...

let's talk on some real shit from the heart while i'm lit...

who doesn't want luv to come around n do a lil more than crush.?.

in all honesty, why in th efuck is someone like me the gift.?.

i don't get it n i've been tryin to wrap my mind around why.?.

i know i have a way about me, but seriously.?.

who is it others think resides in the deep dive.?.

i can ask questions all day n n it'll remain a mystery...

even with an answer causing the confusion the aches...

i wanna be luv'd but i've been too many places to believe in words cut short...

as others tend to set sights on my unfortunate face...

as it ain't like i ain't grateful but is there anything more.?.

n i'm tired of having a heart to heart with myself...

yet, there's no one i feel i can onfide in that's truly on my side...

i'm jus a cute face to look at n that sounds like i need help...

though i ain;t never had a real woman feel me the way luv is supposed to confide...

call me beside myself n blind but others do not see what i do...

what i witness is an exterior fixation none the less...

as all i wanna do is collapse in a set of arms willing to close as if glued...

but i've never once been considered to be given ones best...

so i don't know what there is to feel even though i seem to have an idea...

 for i too have given the limits of emptying my depths///

left to feel like a never ending case of diarrhea...

all claiming to be in tuned with the crave of physical genetics as self...

n it fuckin hurts to be this image eyes only wanna look at...

unable to believe i ain't fuckin with no one but me...

as the saddest thing ever is i've become distant from the norm everyone has...

somewhat lost in my own hidden away from life as time jus doesn't defend dreams...

fuck it is the feeling i get when stare refuse to take my word...

forced to be turned off by insecurities i haven't even had a chance to dish...

it 's a loss to not have someone like who resides beneath the skin considered as a worth...

so fuck it as the truth spills out without even moving my lips...