earn it...

the way u see luv i see pain... it's my eyes that have seen a different version with no gain... as u wish to to have the chance to feel me close as to get under my skin... as i jus want a friend that ain't so emotionally incapable to think without i luv you's flung from lips... n i hear u plead ur case bcuz u believe in unconditional hope that neither of us will ever leave... yet u fail to realize that jus opens me up to do as u please as it will go to far forcing me to flee... i've been on the overflow leaking out as the past floated away with the same promises u throw at me... spoken as if ur different when we're all the same unless u can correct ur train of thought of a wasted kinda free... loosening u up so what it is u seek can accept ur conditions slowly coming in to focus... as it's an individual that proves the heart isn't wrong as the decision to mingle doesn't wind up hopeless... for the moments it takes to confide is not an overnight party in the chest catching feeling that hold no ground... u see an opportunity without even knowing me as i'm witness to yet another loose mouth... tempting the pulse to awaken n race u to who luv's the other the most... even though i do more than visualize what could be if we were to rock the boat... lookin at angles unseen by those who haven't adjusted to tha pain merely covered by an other... n i ain't ready to be the next one of ur influenced luv'rs...i come with the experience to think as actions present themselves one at a time... n the judgement call is mine of who is allowed to enter my life... not that i'm special in any way... it's jus i cannot take one more blow that steals a friendship on the rise away... to sit inside myself once again n contemplate why i continue to do the same shit... so relate to me if u can find the content before i can touch u as desires become crisp... i don't have it in me to reside only in luv... falling from who i am to please ur wants of me as i'm spun... mind losing control before ur eyes bcuz the rush wasn't patient enough to gain the trust two should share... i could care less if u do not wish to evolve into an adult so selfishness has no room to end in a tare...