if they only knew...

why not me is the train of thought being jus the same as the next... yet coming to terms of being different settles in to the nerve of second best... knowing self has what it takes as it comes down to a preference of types...jus wanting to find a medium of what an other is used to as in changing liking's could switch upon characters in the grips of life.. why the fuck not is the brain not understanding the obvious shown on levels of standard as if good enough falls short of what is to be... undeserving of a chance to coexist in the same reality willing get along with an opposing being to have the joys created by a friendship able to remain free... like, who in the fuck do they think they are is the heart confusing the mind of emotions that contradict the mental aspects of relations to evolve... somewhat not able to accept people like what they can learn to luv if the attraction is there  past the physical desires where trust get involved... wanting the eyes to turn the head n look twice so self can come from within n give in ways it opens them up to new things... yet fear of anything other than what they know or have been taught to enjoy restricts their hearts of the compassion of people are jus in need... who is it others seek in the minds lead by  the unknown feeling of going all in with strangers like self isn't worthy of the ties.?. as questions linger in sights watching them get lost from one to the next all the while laughs redirect their intent through the lines of lies... sitting on the sidelines where hope settles for the similarities that never correct the drift as time consumes the ending coming too soon... giving in to the same ol bs unable to identify the issue the plagues luv that never once adapts to the cuddling sensation of in the mood... as self knows without a doubt if they were to jus drop their guard to enjoy the other side for a moment it could be everything in which they've longed... but it's off to the races that leave them with depths untouched as the betrayal of words sit alone with all that's gone wrong...