provoke me...

show me how to believe in u.... i'm willing to come back to life... tell me as i listen to ur voice direct me in the right direction... i wanna know what it's like to have u crawl across my mind... place ur hands on me so i can feel it feeling me wanting to play around... i've lost the will to make contact eye to eye waiting on the heart to make a sound... seems i forgot how to remember what it's like... life took a turn as i wound up looking up as i hid from sights... n i believe i could mean words if spoken to someone that jus cannot get enough of me... as long as u never leave... i haven't had the fortune of having my own feelings taken into consideration... i know i have it in me to luv unconditionally without hesitation... i can feel it yet it needs provoked... it doesn't wanna open up unless it has te option to go home... n the passion is lost n lingering within... dodging hands reaching in to plug the drip... leaking to make room for the desires going without the feels it takes to be turned on... as i've been good due to it's so easy for me to become once again as a male whore... i've fought it this long n it's left me in this solitude as i healed from the inside out... like u i've been hurt as i took a moment to allow myself to bounce back so i could sleep through the silence of the nights that neva seemed loud... as i'm jus waiting on a face that changes the way i think of relations... i'm done with the false representations of imitations gain to explore my long lost motivation... interest is gone... luv is a segment as if air time as somewhat of a skit gone wrong... as songs find the pain to be the most comforting of a situation that helped me find my way back to safety... make me... i wanna fall in luv but not with jus anyone... so express to me what i would look like to u in luv... i don't know how to tell one set of eyes from the next... i get lost in the way they lose themselves in the stare looking in my direction as i feel second best... so i turn n drift without even trying on the smile created... i feel it but it neva seems quite like it should as thoughts get deflated... n i need to know it isn't me... that the years that went under the bridge wasn't my fault due to friends that go astray chasing different dreams... help me fall as we land somewhere connected in a better place... i jus can't do the same ol same...