i jus want someone to hold on to me... n do more than jus feel they don't wanna let go of their dream... i need to feel the luv reach for me through their chest as i lay listening to their own heart... i seriously could use a woman to do their part... i've let down so many times by faces i didn't wanna replace to the point i gave up... i simply stopped believing in luv... n the feel of someone so close to the skin touching in a caring way would prolly unleash everything i've never truly been able to continue to use... relations seem good for a while as i'm always back to the bs of being used... it leaves me in a state of mind where women in general ain't worth the fuckin time of day... as they portray themselves as these luv'n individuals that turn in to these selfish mindless cunts as they all see to be the same.. that is within reason bcuz i have seen different with my own eyes... n that's the line i wanna cross over n truly get at enjoying life... i don't hurt no one n i sure ain't in to anyone making me feel the ache i've lived with in the past... but getting one of them to realize i'm honestly not like the others that carry dangling balls is not an easy task... i jus wanna lay in comfort knowing my efforts are met as she to will have her moments to rest on me... as there's no reason to ever leave... to change into raw harsh immaturities that cripple emotions only wanting to be as free as self can come out n play... as i hide the passion that builds even from words as this kinda shit i jus don't want to be known by the wrong one trying to sneak in for their own benefit with those fuckin games... it's hard knowing i put everything on the line some time ago n i still sit listening to the silence due to relations havta wait... when all that would feel great is to ease back n be claimed... by pure luv... with that intention of what would never ware of is the constant rush... falling deeper than limitations allow jus anyone to go... i personally jus wanna go home...
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