let it rain!!!

it'll do things to the way u think as the mind will never relax.... watching everyone else enjoy the life u once had... waking up to someone they never havta let go of...  it's a constant reminder of ur own depths in the form of luv... n how u put in n lost it all due to someone else's negligence... it's hard to look up n witness how they live without hesitance... as eyes overlook u like u did something wrong to deserve their lack of respect... from the relations they get to keep to the way life jus seems to jus give to them... knowing u have what it takes on an uphill journey that cut a nerve... most don't truly know what it's like to hurt... taking a lil pain n draining it for what it's worth yet still remaining financially intact... never looking up from the bottom jus wanting the good times back... as vacations are non existent bcuz u refuse to give up... having to work harder as time gets lost in the memory of the clock spinning for the trail of money like what the fuck... when u had the materials n the holidays that paved the way to a easier way of living... u remember the times home was not allowed to cross the minds sanity drifting as no one is in to the giving... as the heart opened up n vows took place to sign dotted lines of a contract taken on the burdens to show an other the time of day... it'll fuck with ur train of thought in ways you'll hear cry babies whine over simple shit as their life keeps going on as their fuckin tears are fake... from the bowels of society one taps out to tune in to what matters the most... as others point n chuckle bcuz ur no longer the same as if ur the reason of the roast... finding birds to mock silent tones that flip their expressions off their own face... judged by those who know nothing of the fall that consumes the talking of names... n all u can think about on the bounce is when u reach that mountains peek n friends pretend they weren't foes n come around to enjoy ur moment... the door, ur gonna wanna close it... people don't give a fuck to even know of the good ones that fall trying to do right... as it's a mental condition somewhat like retardation that doesn't mind shunning u from their lives... only if they were to find themselves in the gutters they'd know what true pain is... bcuz i've been there n i chose to live... to rise by my own will for my own comfort without a fuck u to give... i don't need nothing from no one who was ok with how a turn of events had me scrummaging for a way to reach the tickle in my kids ribs... as the twist spoke lower than the spit that hung from their white picket fences lip... it'll get to u if u ain't strong enough to fight back... finding out who's ur real friends as even family will fold the cards with a winning hand n that's a fact... birds fly on the parting of owns way when grounds finally settle to shut others the fuck up... morals in this world has seriously forgotten about luv... n the struggle will dig in to u becoming someone different as ur able to see things more clearly as a lesson well learned... two tweets flipped as the tips tell everyone who didn't believe i for myself have n always had worth...  it'll redirect ur heart as if going into battle where life will never be surrendered... it jus takes a moment that wraps patience up in years as materials havta rendered... n there's no luv lost for the the war won is for self to claim... let it rain!!!