...lettin go...

she let me go... jus released me n i wasn't done luv'n her as i lost my sense of home... n i know why... as there's things that jus must be so comforts can find happiness in someone else's life... as her eyes told a different tail... derailed by the pains attention that failed the friendship so losses cut the luv from within n watched it float as it sailed... life changed... n all that emotion sittin still had nowhere to go as passion went unheard no matter the moment of the flame... oh the heartache at night... there was an emptiness that linger through my driftin misplaced mind...  runnin from the feel of relations... holdin on for as long as it would take to properly let her go n it hurt like a son of a bitch fighter her off for she was my temptation... sittin still as my insides stirred... lookin around every now n again in disbelief that she was fuckin gone n there was nothin my azz could do wash away her worth... as time will neva tell her who she is to me... yet. she does... n it's ok for ways tucked under the tongue forced the separation as dreams came back the way they did before when i wondered where she was... missed n healed to move with the flow... i figured a way to live without her as a few attempts shook alarms as self was movin forward into the unknown... it's strange the way life appeared... for a while there was an absence that took up so much space... n i allowed it to feel free to let go of what broke the spell of tenderness to help me become even better than i eva was with her name... damn the sting... yet, i found me in the long run as i got the point of what it is i truly luv to read... collected by the eyes the way mine did her... played out in the aftermath here tellin a piece of me that had the girl fantasies were made of so fuckin alive in every motion as it blurred... jus to open up n witness me livin for me... she was the greatest thing that eva happened to either angle pointed in my directions need... depths of luv were ripped out... roots is all that remained as a childhood friend that came along n shared a connection until shit went south... as i'm thankful for the memories at their best... in safe keepin is my own version of life as she sits where iv'e been in my head as it's come time to find a face that gets close enough to have the right kinda interest... smilin like the healin took its good azz time... jus to round me back outso i could feel somethin real as i once again do not havta hide...

i'm good...