choosin to live...

the shit was fuckin hard as my truest friend became self... n where else better to start tan from within to get help... no one felt the pain i awakened to every single fuckin day as life was tested... not a person could fix the negligence tryin to show luv the boundaries that the heart didn't believe existed... an emotion tore the mind from the frames as ironic was the pleasure of the touch... i opened up jus to feel that luv cannot be trusted... without a train of thought raw passion is fatal to the willingness of the heart... it hurt in ways i neva felt sittin in vehicles as locations changed n home was a figment of the imagination... the right thing turned out to spin around n go back in the same direction away from the well being of limitations... creativity ran to keep me from crossin the lines of harmin an other to have a way outta the alleyways that shook me straight... through the curves where hands couldn't reach i cherished my life n it wasn't all that great... as determinations jus wanted to prove to self i ain't done yet... talkin about fuck everyone who believes words over what i was goin through darin others to place their bets... i knew better but mama didn't raise me to lay the fuck down... thinkin my three are watchin n they wanna see more than words come from my mouth... as i looked at every angle with a microscopic way to bounce back as it was a financial burden that took me n swept me under the rug in this legal world... a woman with no sense of reality showed me the grasp i had on my own that would up moldin me into the individual i choose to be givin up my time to correct me in in the eyes of my road dog, my left hand, n my babii gurl... i struggled bcuz the luv i have for mine twisted me until there was nothin left of the moisture that others claimed to have for me... eyes dried from the same well that quinched the thirst of another so called friends leave... there's a story unheard through words broken knowin mine stayed beneath my foot for it wasn't allowed to move... i hung myself on a fuckin metaphorical noose n told myself to survive to show to the one in the mirror, who is who...