Why should i.?.

Why would i wanna spend time with u.?. Then sit around with thoughts i cannot use... Missing someone who will tare me apart... Even though not being intentional is the fucked up part... As emotion wouldn't wanna levee my mind the fuck alone... Distributing my well being when silence is heard in the dialtone... Having to let go of something in another dead end... Jus to have to repair the memory of a new list friend... One who's gone n drifting further n further away in life... Why would i want u on my mind.?. To play peekaboo with the wonder of what was some sorta hope... Jus to infect the chest with hidden flaws... Knowing damn well u knew the details laid in ur palms... There's no need in pain unless secrets are not barred... N i don't like to be hurt so who in the fuck cares.?. Friends before foes fail with false interactions... Where would i be if i let u in to lie about red flags infractions.?. To submit to what i do not know... Believing in all ur hyped up demands i can't help buy to think are whoas... It ain't u bcuz it's everyone else saying they're not like u... The same way u claim ur so different so eager to prove... In what sense should i consider the joy to be tampered with.?. As the stranger in me ain't so quick to embed u into my wits... Some shit is jus sacred until a guarantee presents itself... So why should i give u moments of my life that jus may go unfelt.?.