The first one was a lesson to never settle as round two with someone else was nothing more than a game i played... But we all at some point have a selfishness to gain... As the next one showed me it's ok to open up... Fell into an endless feel to come where i was willing n caught my first twist of having no sign of trust... Follow that up with true intent n how deep emotion can go i realized what's no good for me... I had to dig that one outta my chest as the burial was self inflected on her part setting me free... N in between that one n a repeat of similarities in a damn near identical being i could finally comprehend what tongues are capable of... Removing myself from dreams i had no business role playing as superman n gave up on the rush... N then there was how the recognition of luv'd ones was to be considered for relations to evolve... Complicated the walk took a turn to depart outta respect never to tamper with family as a problem solved... Revolving once again it all came down to having patience in the round about of the last one that clarified being alone isn't so bad... I tried to make a friend who like three of the ones prior to the temptation couldn't hold it together for a better cause that will go down as a story told in a tone so sad... Holding trust tight n wanting to believe in someone is a mental irritation even with all the others i cannot remember that never got close enough to feel me beneath my skin... Each helping shape a better version of me that has had enough of luv's bs leaving the memory with those i can recall tucked in the ribs... As focus truly zoomed in on what's best is a friend if they ever choose to understand everything is mental... Able to establish a rare maturity where desires n passions are safely embranced in the comfort of arms creating dimples... It took seven different tingles on mutlilevels n idk how many flings to wrap my mind around what matters the most... As individually very few actually had my curiosity willing to see where things could go... N as the days have come n gone life doesn't seem to be the same having to restart new beginnings that ended for me to ever enjoy... Missing pieces of where the heart was is what hurts the most when the walls cannot see the light living with a void... Overlooking the misfortune to getting on with life that refuses to wait on halfhearted bests... To hopefully rest with the earnings of actions placed into needed thoughts to remain as what cannot be taken outta the head... One by one they've been placed here as a whole as there was always something that drove a wedge... As i wonder who in the fuck can function with a natural sense of ahh within reason so the silent crave can relax as is... I paused to live a lil so it's me to be known even if others just can't come to enjoy the me i am after so long... Allowing the ashes to set for the wind to carry away all the lingering false hopes that need not be prolonged... Forever in tuned with my smile no matter the situation I'm in... I am only as picky as wanting my joy to shine so i too can relate to someone in sync with their grin...
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