There's jus nothing left to say... So hitting longer like we're friends isn't something i feel to remain... The opportunity of my loyalty left the day I figured u were no good for me... It was the selfishness I walked through to get to u that went n took what I allowed to be... N u thought I was some sorta ignorant numbskull that couldn't see the truth... But as time unfolded even u seen what it was i was trying to do... Jus to reach u the inside of ur lost mind... As a friend first who in which died each n every time u thought u played to the side... U forget who knew u better than u knew yourself... N I still believe it doesn't register what I lost be there as ur only fuckin help... As things changed n I held on to know for myself what was between us... Day came to sit in ask, if it's over we should sign bcuz u said there was no luv... I watched u fall n I went down with the ship bcuz I honored my vows... As these things I speak of I haven't mentioned until now... So why do I set u in my inbox pretending u care of how my life is goin.?. N what interest is it u have in what I'm doin.?. I'm not urs n I have no need in comforting u after relations were forced give up... U didn't sit n wait not knowing if the drugs was gonna take the one woman I truly luv'd... N I don't have no blame other than in self for I let u show me who u were... As I was put on display by ur wicked tongue to tare me down with lies bcuz u had nothing on me but empty words... Believe me it was ok... I stood tall so u could witness a man down to see ur face every fuckin day... Through anything that was to come... With the pain u couldn't shake that I did not cause peeping the way u run... U were personal n a joy lost that stole lied n purposely tore my mind apart... Yet it wasn't it fault I caved due to I wanted to be able to walk away in my heart... The facts what I after as u dug ur own grave... Yeah I'm happy u didn't go under even thought ur buried in beneath my emotions so u cannot be felt when I hear ur name... Throwing away the one thing I wanted the most... The dream of u n I old sitting with fam during the holidays as the came home... Shattered I found every piece of my will as I searched hotels n alleyways for what I tossed away for u... I came to accept it was me i couldn't do without as I stepped to the side of ur abuse... I seen u at ur best n that's where I fell jus before ur worst was dragged out to turn on trust... A word u know damn well I would've never broken as it took everything to leave u to a life that doesn't know anything of us... N all i wanna know is why I can't be left the fuck alone... There's not a drop left feel u in any sense as u come across my phone... Talking about, are u good.?. I jus shake me head as this is the last time I mention u in my own book... For once this chapter is read I'll be jus fine to get the it out... I've been done n I don't wanna remember who you've become acting like a child with a delinquent mouth... U don't know pain the way it rips holes to ventilate... N there's goin back to entertain the games which u participate... I've seen all I need my eyes to view... Leave me be to find a new groove... I didn't got u up when u were down jus fight... N I refuse to go return to the battle when the wa won is mine... I know who I am for I've become me with a heart worth the touch... The one thing u acknowledged but were to afraid to feel u in the middle of luv... U don't know who resides here... Go admire yourself in the mirror... I ain't mad... Sending me pics of ur new tats... U pulled through n I get it... But I made it to n I don't wanna heart the blabbering coming from ur lips... U weren't there for me as I struggled to end the way my life collapsed... So no we're no longer friends as u will stay in my past...
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