I didn't know I wasn't for jus anyone... I had no reason to believe I was that different... I thought I was what others went looking for n couldn't find... Come to find out I am but they don't seem to wanna do anything when time gives in... No one told me I was rare but would never find true luv... Seems I'm some sort of misfit due to I jus don't fit in to the norm... Others even tell me things like I need someone like u in my life... Yet, I honestly have never been felt outside of an others willingness to make home made porn... It's like I'm the one who gets sidestepped for either financial statuses or goofballs falling the funk... N there's no purpose to go n pretend anyone wind want me around... I'm not like them n that's quite alright... I'd rather not hear the lies of how I'm everything they've ever wanted slip from their own mouths... No, I didn't wanna become someone left in solitude with the ache of falling short... I never intended to be anything but who I am... N even though my words find a way to relate I'm nothing special... I'm jus another face in the crowd mumbling words like, shit fuck n damn... Knowing I have what it takes to please on levels a real individual could see... But i think everyone's to to themselves to be a witness to someone new... Dwelling on their past n claiming to be ok as their own words tell a much more complex story... Having no interest in my will to jus wanna live as it doesn't take long to remove their scope as I'm outta zoom... I ain't shit is what I've gathered others that come n go... N the ones that stay to long ain't about what they say... Trust is eventually broken n I can through their bs wanting something for free... As my emotions run deep n some to be given to shallow hearted fakes...
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