I don't have much of a social life... I don't even have but a few friends... So to say I'm scared of relations wouldn't be true... I'm frightened of living their life as mine wouldn't be any of their interest... I've lived in someone else's world a few times over... Even tried to get them to lean my way... I don't know, maybe I'm jus not that important for someone to step in to mind... So I suck to myself so I don't get used to anyone wanting to repeat my name... There's times I've looked for mutual grounds... N others where I jus walked away from the selfish bs... I went as far as to prove a point times jus open some eyes... Nothing worked as I rely on self as it's I isn't missed... No one's every came around to find the balance it takes to exist... It's as been about them n is why I don't like vanity that much... Like was a hard thing to come to add it's even harder now... N I wish for the life of me i could talk some real shit about luv... That was even a one way street but it didn't matter no more... The only thing that counts is my kids who watched my fall... Filling their eyes with tears that cut deeper than any luv'r could... N I have no one to tell my secret aches to but 4 emotion walls... But I'm safe n can find my way in what it is I enjoy... Away from others that only care about what interests them... But I ain't on no pitty shit so I'm jus gonna stop... I jus ain't never met a true friend...
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