At war with choice...

We get stuck in a state of mind jus as u get caught in a way thinking... Losing hope in opposing genders as the opposite sex isn't a myth worth dreaming... Tired of the same ol bullshit we jus stop believing the way u feel free to give the fuck up... N all in all, all we ever want is for someone to open to the feel of us n actually fall in luv... Men don't find crazy attractive the same as u don't want no fuck boy climbing in ur bed... Yet with both sides shut the fuck down, who's gonna drop their guard n place a bet.?. Time has taught us how to grow up n give in to a more reasonable way of relations... As the moments it's taken women to get to the now we seem to be nothin but a figment in ur imagination... We sit alone wonderin where in the fuck she's at due to every night it's the same ol shit... As u hang around home drifting in the thought that all men are bigots... N as time gets behind the moments we take it seems we're running out of days... Lost riding solo pretending we ain't so lonely chasing the expressions upon our face... We both know we've bad decisions no one else can claim other than self if we were to deal the truth... That is once we're done being selfish n trust in someone so we can move forward with a better use... From the wall men can't climb to the door that opens for us to leave... A woman can't find comfort in a boy the way we can't find a friend in a lil girl who has wants over need... As the goin back n forth is jus as immature as the choices made that bring us to feelin let the fuck down... Listening to the passerbys goin unnoticed unable to hear their feet shift with sound... War has raged in the hearts of the abandoned n abused keepin emotions at bay... As we try to convince others we don't give a shit bcuz we ain't afraid... When in fact deep down in the depths we all know it's a fuckin lie... We all jus want one person even though we can't own them, to call mine...