Living without...

Never to have a father to cry for. As a mother gone too soon to see how a child grows into musical chords. There's no family known that can touch a shoulder when times get hard. No grandparents to guide with wisdom and precision to mold a young mind to ease the heart. The bond simple isn't there through a lifetime of winging one's best to create something within that's respectable. There's only the dread of longing for a normal life so irresistible. Friends don't grow old with little ones looking at each other as if there kin. No functions of friendly faces that withstand times hands changing everything but what lingers beneath the skin. Some are born into a lifestyle that isn't who they were meant to be. Fighting off the cultural norms that didn't fit the gut wrenching eagerness to reinvent to keep it together at the seams. As lost they run seeking self and sanity until there is no end. Trying to forget the childhood that didn't give much to growth as the repetitive patterns is the definition of broken. And inward one dwells in failures to do more than make do. With every breathe as a piece, a chance to have the dream as a guide stone for others cling to. Yet, as the fade slowly drifts from fingertips as if it's just not the way it's supposed to have been. It cushes hope with subtle solitude that chases the good from the face as it's the forbidden. To encounter luv. To enjoy the rush. To have a real connection with smiles that return without ever going away. As the crowd grows with smiles and happiness stretched across the face. Building a life in which is only found in the movies that lie. The emptiness of normalcy loses it's place in the twinkle of the eye. For the head cannot confirmed, why not me? Isn't there a home where it's more than a structure that's filled with the same wants and needs. To live on with a comfort of those who wanna chuckle through whatever comes about? As self sits in silence wondering of all the ways that's been tried to implement what comes from the mouth. From breaking cycles to correcting behaviors for a better cause. Being the lesson for kids to base rights and wrongs even though everyone is flawed. To never have the teachings to becoming the raw uncut version of change. Everything still will forever remain the same...