that gray area...

it was luv...

no matter how much u dont wanna admit it...

so gettin mad at yourself is ur own fault...

u felt that shit...

yes, it was good...

then it fell away from the feel...

n u excuse yourself from the truth...

talkin like it was real...

admit it...

u say it wasnt true...

yet, u tasted their name upon ur lips...

u hide for u got hurt...

spittin the downplay from ur jibs...

u dont wanna let em have ur best...

washin ur mits...

ignorin the fact that the passion that jus gave out...

as ur givin up come from ur self empowered mouth...

like it wasnt worth it when u had it...

n we both know that was BULLSHIT...

 u remember tryin to hold on to the way it ripped...

how the tare opened u further than u wanted to be exposed...

retaliatin with it wasnt meant to be...

when the fact of the matter is nothin ever was, is, or will...

u know the reason u dont wanna get close...

afraid n not bcuz u aint feelin it...

u fear ur gonna havta let go the same way u did before...

with someone reachin in n releasin what theyve find...

the denial that awaits of them takin part in ur life...

collect ur mind...

reason with what spews from within...

fakin the front so others dont look at u as if ur weak...

or is it self u try to fool knowin someone got in...

n as it didnt work out u refused to be honest as healin was more imprtant than needs...

as the want of them realized what u could neva say...

n that leaves one question that asks if u didnt luv em, who did u luv...

dont fake it to make it when weve all been there...

fallin to our knees  away from the way they feel to us...

it was what it was...

in its moment to enjoy like, damn.!.

let it go down in ur past that u were capable of more than they jus aint shit...

u wasnt sayin that when they was in ur hands...