i win...

at the top lookin down from luv i watched the ground rush up on me til it was too fuckin close... bouncin for yrs on the dribble of times life tryin orchestrate the addiction of emotions dose... found alleyways comfort a place to sleep once materials lost their shallow feel in my depths taken by force... felt a metaphorical foot stand on financial debates on how to come back up thrown into the gutter by the courts... thinkin in the middle of the mix of a way to rise to the condition of societies spoiled needs so the struggle would release me as i neva gave up... even looked in eyes i knew wasnt a friend a few times as it was to pass time peepin on the nudity set free to feel me full of lusts... as i spent more time workin jus to eat n snuggle a pillow in hotel rooms all due to i trusted passion that turned away with my mind as i gave chase... runnin out of real estate in my heart i went under the flow of such things pointin fingers callin names.. back then i figured it be worth the moment that took to fuckin long to stand back up without a way to go home... as the funny thing with that is it moved the whole foundation that resided somewhere i havent a clue to the longitude n latitude roamin alone... i felt my reality change on the switch of pain to the experiment that attempted to live agian... found i was jus tryin to return as self with a new twist which was inevitable as to who i was as a man... as i was resurrected the day my ties ran out n i nneded no one to pretend i had any meanin in their life... i stopped where i stood as i knew i found where it is i belonged n it was nice...  diddly dallyin with the flip of words from the tongue documentin the path yrs took to correct my mindset that fell to harsh lines frakin the feel of frustration misbehavin... back when luv didnt exist within peekin... out from the inner makings of what i allowed to come forth n be as at the time there was no escapin... n as i sit n tap on the truths i know it was me that defeated self as well as gained control of better things to come as currency was freed to cash in... i win.