Grown is grown...

There isn't enough luv to go around if I don't like u... Like ur words given ur word I don't want like anything else from u... I can't feel u if u ain't on my level jus to keep it real... N I ain't tryin to relate to a thief lookin to change the way I feel... N even if u manage to understand it's ya actions that plays out behind my eyes... N there only way to get that look u seek upon the vanity on which u hide... I'm not new to this n I ain't on the whole jus gimme bullshit... There's jus not a depth reached within me willin to share with shallow minded lingerers attemptin any ol thing to get their fix... As the linings in my pockets do not have holes so there's no need to follow me around... If u listen you'll hear my patience come from my very own mouth... I ain't like anything you've ever known as so fuckin many claim to be different yet resemble the rest... Nah, I ain't willin to experience the selfishness shoved in to my chest... I don't have it in me as my time has past the motion of bein wasted... Even though u jus might be as delicious as bein tasted... No I'm not anything special to anyone but me... This I know for I've been to my the end n dangled on the edge of luv slippin from threads of my sleeve... I don't want none n I cannot give u what it is u think it is u wanna do... I set emotion aside n found the ability to see through thoughtless use... Let time fade n find yourself n stop pretendin ur not like everyone else... Maybe then I'll open up as it is ur face that is to be more than felt... Bcuz I ain't been shit to no one or even u thus this long so I know I ain't shit to fall in n be someone I ain't got it in me to be... I jus wanna be who it is I am without that silhouette in which u dream tryin to shadow over me... I'm already free n I'm unwillin to switch some shit up jus to go in reverse... Honesty could neva hurt unless u have to much self worth... To good for ur own good... As I'm doin exactly what I should... Lookin after the way I crack a smile n who is allowed to affect my stability... If u don't follow what it is i have to say maybe u truly haven't joined reality... There's a mindset that remains intact that mingles within the way we interact... N I'm jus speakin on the facts... Grown is grown as goofiness is a must to ease the fuck back... Now how ya like that.?.