u ever had a foot on ur neck with support u coulda done more without it bein taken by straight fuckin greed.?. felt the way the courts stole from ur own pocket that coulda went to urs knowin the money aint goin to them.?. unable to find a way to give to them... u eva been caught up in relations u had gotten away from as u lost everything n found yourself with nowhere to go as u didnt wanna give anyone false hopes knowin u jus needed a lil help to get back up.?., then get hit with a garnishment that crippled ur chances due to everything u tried collapsed.nefore u... have u eva felt the bottom grab u as u put in the work to go nowhere as u lost faith in others to worried about them fuclin selves even though u were there for them... what of the friends that actually extended a hand n caught u jus before u fell too far to come back up for air.?. without bein impaired as others judged u for fibes from lips questioned ur character when they shouldve known better.?. u eva sat in an alley as close as u could to ur own flesh n blood n cried as even they were told lies as the situation was to much to explain why u lived in ur car.?. i bet u neva had ur fuckin heart ripped out sayin fuck the money it took to bounce back... have u eva shyd away from hurtin someone bcuz u were broken,,, jus faded away findin the gym as a place to shower so u can work... what about havin to depend on someone bcuz ur shit broke down n was too much to get fixed on top of what was goin on n in the due process of life bein fucked up that started out as a choice... one in which an other failed u as u gave everything u could to get at it as they turned into their own selfish ways... u eva luvd someone that connected with an addiction that tore ur life apart.?. knowin if they woulda stayed in their lane things woulda been so much fuckin different... then turned around n leaned in to some one else in a worse situation truly jus needin a friend as they too got attatched to the drugs u dispised... u dont know the half as youve neva felt urs lookin at u for answers doin everything u can as the other parent forgotten how to be their friend... takin the bunt of the resentment as ur name was slung into the gutter in which gladly gave u a place to sleep by a legal addict that was supposed to be lookin out for their own which was also urs... have u eva truly felt the fuckin struggle walkin the line as u refused to be broken.?. as the fight swung as every blow knocked u further n further back as those who claimed they luvd u pretended not to notice... knowin u jus needed a way to help yourself as only three doors came around to swing open as everyone else can go fuck off!!! do u know what the luv for ur own kids can do to u clawin at life unable to get ahead as the had to watch u fall apart from a distance bcuz the is unbareable to deal with the other parent that simply doesnt give a fuck to be a part of the kids lives when they had a need in havin someone who was there the way i tried to be... what do u know of 5 yrs havin to deal with the bs u normally would cut from ur life.?. i luv my three.. n the three that was there to give me a way for they defined real in my eyes... n now u know why i am the way i am n why i will not back the fuck down...
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