Giving you what i can of my best...

You are not the irresistible love of my life.
You've just simply captured me in a moment in time.
You to will fade within the memories like all the others.
As a special kind of past time no more than a lover.
Darling, do not get your hopes up to high here.
I am only stationery until the day i can sit on my peer.
Watching the sunrise lift my head laying down my time.
Yes, I am just digging in to your untamed life.
Simply making my mark like no other could ever replace.
So do not act surprised when the ticks land upon your tangled face.
In an expression wondering where in the fuck i could of possibly went.
Gone somewhere without you as you unravel in your vent.
And it's really sad, as bad as that it is the way it must be.
My heart belongs to the no one as of yet still diddling around in my dreams.
The one waiting on what is not yours to keep.
You are just receiving what i can not help but to leak.
For the love i have for truth will never die.
So do yourself a favor and enjoy me while you sigh.
You see, i will be going home one day.
You only stood in place as you could never be claimed.
But it is you that remains fresh on my tongues feel.
I just hope you know i do care as i keep the rest of this real.
A friend you are.
But one that i will not get to see my unconditional heart.
I will let you go in due time to save a few more tears.
I will not take up to many of your wasted years.
As you may spend the clicks rounding out what you believe is us.
Soon to be a memory aging into the vague thought of what once resembled love.
I am sorry that i can never be there for you as you age without me.
You are going to have to go through that alone as you learn how to breathe.
This is your chance u overlooked and it just passed.
For you remind me of me, as my future will catch my past.
As it is nice to be the one to hold you as i teach you of love in its full affect.
Molding you to give your best to another waiting on you with interest.
Yet, you will never thank me and that is the fade that'll finally break.
Because i am smiling knowing you will live to the fullest wide open in loves fame.
My friend, this is a glimpse of what is to come.
As home unlocks its door to heal your need of true luv.
It is a lesson i am giving you.
As i am only his glory as you will be my proof.
It will hurt.
I will be hated for quite some time with vicious words.
But that is alright in my book.
I would rather it be me looking out after you than some fucked up male calling himself a man.
Because you are in good hands.
That will release you when the time is right.
It is the only thing i can do to help you come from within your might.
As i stand next to you for you to lean.
One day, you will understand why i am here to help you fulfill your dreams.
It is twisted beyond cinfushion this i know.
But eventually i will have to down and let you go.
Never to know where you will wind up.
Lost in someone else's eyes madly in love.
And that alone truly does give me this reason.
Life is to change before you like the changing of seasons.
You just have no idea what it is i am doing as of yet.
Giving you what i can of my best.
Until i am to set u free from being alone.
I am in this until the last day we smile and I am to go home.
I am merely the comfort in your arms that tightly hugs.
Pressed for a while closer than air could ever be flush.
In honesty's use.
I will be thinking of you.