Comin away from the mind minds over thought twists n back to livin again... Grabbin ahold of luv before it gets away from what it seems in myself as a man... Without a wonder in this world I have what it takes I'mma open up n jus be... Seems I've forgotten to now due to a couple times on the pass that jus stepped a lil to far down my throat all over the tongues tease... Feelin the move gettin on neva wantin to be in the middle of the lettin go... Simply takin life's hand n walkin with a friend eyes open to witness in frame as emotions are rowed... Floatin without the weight that'll sink from a hole plunged into the bottom of the hearts ability to drift into the unknown... I'm jus ridin the current lettin the situation live for the difference to verify is in the motion of goin home... N I've found a lil place metaphorically n here in reality to enjoy n I'mma do jus that... No more over thinkin n diggin in to things that may be for if she sticks around shits gonna get real fast...

Dick in the groove of ya split opened up n wrapped around my genitalia as if ya slit is suckin me dry... Yeah I'm dirty AF... Feelin on ya g-spot in rhythm liked I'm goin spazmatic on ya drip plugged n gushin down my shaft... Straight filth... Fowl mouthed... Now spread em n take ya depths bein fulfilled by the movement of my hips twist diggin passed where the tongue plays in the shallows...

Lil unfinished pieces

I took off runnin yrs ago, so fast to try n find myself. Knowing now there was no need. I've always been here. I've always been me...


thoughts dispersing into the relevance of reason.
dis-attached is the most fluent memory vanishing with a legend.


As ugly as lies between teeth camouflaged to spit venom... Snakes are snakes. Out for self.

It's real in its state of crawling through me.
The way it moves beneath the emotion is soothing.
A puppet without strings of the willingness to breathe.
Tingling toes step in the direction of luvs ease.
The friend came from the depths from below.



ID RATHER U TELL ME THE TRUTH N WACTH AS MY FACIAL EXPRESSIONS REARRANGE. THAN LIE 2 ME N WAIT FOR LATER IN LIFE, IN ITSELF 2 CHANGE.

I tried that happy Lil life once n my time of correctness wasn't worth the irritation of comin from the soft expression of luv.


Lay with me without the fear of fallin in luv.
Bein scared is only the matter of time of touch.


Away. Jus gone far from here.
Escape route is blocked. Strangling fear.
Let me go! Stand aside with ur reasons.
Tame ur wickedness alone.

neva wantin to be where im misunderstood.
in the shallowness i resurface so smooth.
time n again driftin in n outta who i truly am.
sick n fed up with tryin to please emotion with whats left as a man.
buried beneath the texture of touch.
attemptin to hold on to the expression of luv.
sideways slippin n self checked in mirrors fadin away.
grips strengthen the beast on the rise tamed.
secrets simmer within that clinch the mind.
strangled with the thought of once upon a time.
knowin self isnt alone in a world lookin back at reality.
broken n healin wounds damn near whole with simplicity.
climbin from home stripped beyond the walls.
baseboards ripped from the foundations fall.
lingerin the middle correctin lifes unjust.
tusk tusk....

originized within.
draped before eyes jus under dim.
beneath the clover covers of luv.
the flame snapples above the hush.
snuggled up with the mood.
in touch with the flow of the room.
thoughts alive played out.
connectin syllablesof sound.
eyes peek gesterin intesity.
flowin on silky skin listening.
bubblin beads sweat from the braw.
whispers softly call out.
vibin on the emotions nerve.
tender n laced there are no words.
beneath the flicker of night.
candles dance with motions life.
pourin devotion reaches for more.
locked behind closed doors.
the event that changes a man.
alone n flush with soothin hands.
a game of try me on tickles a grin.
worn with pleasure to sink in.
restin dreams at ease to be as one.
feelin curves

It was real luv...

So u want a lil emotion with life.
That sensitivity we men hafta dig for above ya thighs.
Yet call man a bitch for using raw uncut truths.
Runnin with a look that catches the eyes noose.
A bad boy image that'll protect ur loud ass mouth.
U haven't a clue of what a real man is.
Nor what it takes to be spliced back together after ur bs.
U need a lil consideration lookin in the mirrors edge.
Cuttin the fuck outta relations luv makin in the bed.
Rippin the threads apart gettin off on the thrill.
Who in the fuck trained u for u to think ur for real?
N I don't want no half Steppin lazy mo fo.
When's the last time ur hands felt the way his heart flows?
U drift N fadewhen u get what u want.
The word used for remales like u is blunt.
Puttin on Ya face to convince yourself ur the shit.
U was once before a man caught on to ur lying lips.
Tastin that sour tingle that told on u.
Do U wonder why our faces picked up to the proof.
Changin the visual in the mind of what u hide behind the mask.
Yet u want someone down in the middle of life's tasks.
To show u all undirected attention to ease ur day.
Where are U on the willin end to make him wanna stay?
Everyone wants the candy that comes with a price to pay.
So chicks like u can have ur moment of fame.
Then tare him down when he gets sick of lack of use.
When the enjoyment slips from ya thoughts shadow of poof.
A mutha fucka left huh?
That was as real as it gets since U missed the reality of luv.
Takin for granite u only widened his horizon narrowin a type.
Hows it feel not to fit in to his life?
When U had him opened the Fuck up.
U shoulda did what he was tryin to for u flushed.
Lettin u see for yourself what he was.
Yeah, it was real luv...

Aww naw...
It aint about independence.
Life's jus on a brief pause.
Fed up with female ignorance.
The step jus went sideways.
Catchin a new breeze goin by.
Listenin to tone shape names.
But at least it's about time.
Aww naw...
Mind ya tongue.
Round out those unused thoughts.
Time ran gettin away goin numb.
The choice brought me here.
Took that shiver unwillingly.
Long gazes come to focus in the mirror.
The fittin in fluxuated feelings.
Aww naw...
I'm not hatin on the way u do u.
Live n tip shit up with ya claws.
Jus leave me alone with my mood.
Y'all have an n think It's cool.
Steppin back as a man.
Forcin the mindset to be known.
I aint pressed n I'll be damned.
I've done heard how women moan.
Aww naw...
I'm not all that.
Jus been around the block facin flaws.
I've witnessed the selfish facts.
I haven't a weakness nor a convo unheard.
Speak not words of how ur different.
I haven't a need for memorable blurs.
For what I've seen is indecent.
Aww naw...
Trippin is not my thing.
I've been touched n don't like what it installed.
Eyes all glossy with a bling.
The new modern roll reversal.
The female dogs on a hunt.
N that's the nice way to put it.
U do not know how to luv.
N I'm over the bs.
Aww naw...
I'm not cuttin u down.
The drag is jus a lil to much.
Always wantin more than

rounded out under the tongue in the presence of self expression.
no mirror needed to know the image of respect held by definition.
true grit gruntin with teeth that eat only what needs not be said.
worth has risen in depths calmin the individual neva hung in the head.
life riddles of thoughts pure n straight forward deep enough to luv.
keepin truths on the table as self not once bitten to be hushed.

the click reminds me time is gettin behind lost thoughts that havent been made.
rollin down days n replacin memories with blank strares as a solo artist playin games.
i dont mean to the way i have in the pasts recollection of before i held it in my hands.
its my tongue dyin to be heard as silence has consumed the way i hide as a man.
i dont want anyone to see me the way u did as u turned on me without a thouught.
n its ok bcuz maybe youll see if i was what i belived iwas to u id have u wrapped up in luv.
on another level where questions dont need an answer for u know without a fuckin doubt i am here!
slowly dyin without the one as close as i can lean into u the way my own self fights the tears...
wtf am i suppose to say when im not livin the life id die to have with u in full fuckin bloom.
dead set on the moments left to dig in to n accept puire fuckin luv under the scopes zoom.
im tired of highs that are not no way shape or form u in any way.
but i need more to figure a way of proof of my worth to u givin me everything u have willin to stay1!!!
yeah, i have a bottle n a bowl in front of me to finally spit what the fuck needs to be said.
am i alive within u or am i dead?
im jus askin bcuz i truly dont know where i stand in ya minds process on who i am to u.
luv me or hang me from fuckin a noose!!!
no more.
or all i have to give is ur choice.
i already know what we can be.
bent knees sore from the pleadin of please...
whats it gonna be for im stuck like a mom fo.
n im jus wantin to go home!!!

the pourin of emotion turns to dumpin everything held in for honesty wasnt real. tippin the hats of g'bye as forevermore stands solo in the winds to heal. drippin leftovers as the walk is remembered acceptin the mind. back to life. done gone off the deep end to show irrefutable evidence. time allows brief moments connectin the rippin of depths relevance. alone one comes to the goin of memories intertwined with thoughts as they collide. invisible to eyes the loss flees back to the sea of strangers wantin a turn at sighs. two three four more the roller coaster zips from place to place. exhausted with the shortness of breathes to believe mutters once again with a sour flavorin taste. gettin behind a better cause of self knowin the need has lost its feel. its a damn shame with so much luv to give wantin someone near. repeatin round after round in bouts that never deliver a reason of blows swung. battle bound is relations on the opposin war awaitin for fools to miss what remains on hush. slippin through fazes of temptation sittin with empty hands n a worn out heart. replacin frames hung to remind that was then upon the walls... .. . .  .   .    .     .      .       .        . as distance clears from within the smoke risin to a new way. what else is there to say?

Pluckin roots dead n dried.
Soiled dirt unable to revive.
The beauty of expression is foreva lost.
To grow is to leave the past alone with flaws.
Uprooted holes open up depths.
Filled in for self is the only one left.
Thinking seeds sprout as the choice is there.
Will it be a dandelion or a talking bush buried for a stare?
The pit soothed by sight dug for truths.
Jus memories planted below what was use.
Feet stand on leveled grounds.
In a garden in the here of now...

Truly...

u tell me things that are to re-ensure me luv actually exists.
yet, it's the depths absent in ya eyes that refuses my kiss.
I've seen it in the flesh as it isn't me felt above the belt.
friends for life shiftin with the correctness of selfish help.
idk what it is about me u claim to feel beneath ur skin.
but it doesn't show lookin in from the outside of shattered grins.
what lays ahead is a solo road of conformation settled.
allowin u to fade into a past in which u came to mettle.
truth neva spoke past a stare that changed in the look-see away.
In less than a glimpse of a blink u were gone before today.
round n round unplugged this confession releases me.
for i spent a moment to know in ur presence to believe.
n it wasnt me driftin in ur thoughts after all was said n done.
as mad, i could neva be, as i to have to go home.
somewhere post luv'n n waitin for expressions to be exposed.
u told on yourself before me that freed my hearts flow.
as the truce touched the relief of the pain that fell from us.
life came back in a split second watchin u cry for someone else.
n neva once did i eva abuse what u were to me, truly felt.
in pure realization to give me a chance to stand uncontrolled.
the game is over as u sat there with tears that on u told.
i didn't go n fall in luv in the separation of runnin with the wind.
ur jus not on the level in which i live that reaches through limbs.
held for the grip to loosen i had my time that came n went.
as far as the memory could go back it was u that bent.
collapsed unda the pressure of luv's design u werent ready for.
u are jus not menatlly capable of luv acceptin me the way u are.
i coulda neva been to much pickin u up outta ur slump.
u were the one who got cocky n forgot who i was as urs connected, flush.
wrapped to give to u in ways roots had the soil to grow.
goodbye my luv'r, now i know...
you'll foreva go down as the reason i luv the way i do.
experienced in every way i stand as one man with proof.
able to fall for someone who gets the point of no return.
yes, of all things u taught me through ur selfishness to learn.
u were now the reason of the corner turned so i could truly luv.
as i thought u were the one.
this is the last tap to drain what should be known to let u go.
as that joy has found me alone that day with u witness to the turnin slow.
do what u do.
Yes, I've finally had enough of ur childish abuse...

The tattoos haven't spread spread inks design in a while due to the struggle of the shackles that held emotions like it fuckin cared... But if they were to stretch on my canvas to display the leak to the skin from within they'd express the frustration bangin with knuckles bared. The heart wanted to make luv to a passion that doesn't exist here nor there givin my mind a direction of truths. Awaiting to spill into open wounds that heal with memory dug in to the fleshes nakedness of being put to use...

Ssh. Words fall short of the drip only my voice should swim in. If the finer things cannot feel the emotion given from my hearts bend. Ssh. What u think u need to say could Neva amount to the price uve paid to hold the luv u claim. That soft spot u seem to have is a me sinkin in as me in Ya eyes fade. Ssh. Please don't verbally speak of what u somehow simply can not show as I stand in place. For u who've said I was doesn't add up to on the one to ten scale to rate. Ssh. If it's unnatural to u don't force what sheets will remember lifted from the bed where luv was made once upon a time ago. It's gotta be uncontrollably real in a sense of take me as I am Eva so slow. Ssh. Time is the only thing that waits to assume u are who u say u are. In the mean time it's u that toys with my misdirected heart.

I'm not that illusion wasting in Ya head I know. Seems even I've been overlooked by those I've stepped to. N the thought drifts on y so many think I run with the wind. Truth is a man doesn't get to choose the direction of true emotion wantin to be a bit more than friends. Yet settled in the comfort of layin with what allows him to breathe. Watching one by one of those catching curiosities void waltz slowly away. Neva knowing the man within intentions as fair is irrelevant to her check list as he fades. Scandalous is but a single word plucked to describe the behavior of such shadiness. On as they go unable to compliment the realization of a man's heart callin to his choices happiness. N the way it goes is the chew chomping the utter disregard in pure passion that fades before touch could Eva resemble the end of seeking what will Neva turn astray. On her way to a life more than likely that'll prolly go unfulfilled in the changing of names. Sittin sails in the blowing from one coast to the next shoreline seeking a sunset so fuckin rare. N there's no say so in his tone as females wonder y he turns out to be something other than what she's needing him to bare. N it's the circumstances of who has the say so blinded by a man's honesty in the chase of willingness to give to that one of billions. Lost in the catch phrase of vein in luv with one in a million. Surly noted that men cannot jus open up to jus any preying opposing gender feeling him cutting loose. Getting on n finding a way to live with her life attempting to wrap him in arms he didn't visualize tightening as if a noose. Truth be told the tenderness a woman seeks within a man is in the way he commits with his mind in the initiation at a moment's notice following her away. Not that of her tailing his movements for the odds of him being captivated is not as often as his claim. It's a complex design in which we deliver self at the tips of ties in full bloom of luvs taste. N more than often without a second look-see bcuz if the lack of understanding he fades. Winding up in an others grasp half heatedly tripping on the game. Knowing what resides beneath the show activating the simplicity of relations in n outta the fame. His minds not on the gain as the pain lingers in the ever after vein recruited by an individual that chooses him. As it comes into focus that both are playing under the same rules n guidelines as he let's go to feel to other side of where's he's been... We are all seeking the same fuckin thing.... Someone in which we choose to share depths runnin through the flings...

Sittin under the tongue...

Come a lil closer.
Lemme feel the way u move when in motion.
The lotion needs not apply itself.
Allow fingertips to lend that caressing help.
Don't let me go to waste.
Off with an other that'll neva explode the way u do stretched upon my face.
Come.
Lock the door til I'm done.
I'll meet u on the back of ur mind.
N take a stroll with u n make luv to time.
Feels n my way through what makes u click.
As I catch the words before they leap from ya lips.
For real.
Think about how I could change out those leaking seals.
Aching to get lost in a moment made for two.
Let loose n come tomorrow u can regroup.
Talking to yourself of who I truly am that u jus cannot see.
Hidden behind the walls like u stuck in dreams.
I jus wanna be a part of ur reality n do what's not getting done.
From ur head to ya toes tryin to see if we connect in luv.
Live a lil n open up to intent coming straight atcha.
The overflow will drip from ya mind.
It's not so bad to feel touch reach into ur life.
Hovering to the desire to complete exactly who u are.
Let's end this battle n win the war.
Come to me.
I wanna hear u breathe.
Kissing necks neva complain enjoying the sensitives rush.
N u have my word I'll keep ur secrets on hush.
I mean u no harm.
I was jus thinking of how nice it'd be if, yeah, dammit darn.
The thought u haven't yet had of yet is yet to cling to the possibilities.
Of U n I bare footing in bed like two hillbillies.
Taste the way I sound coming across Ya tastebuds so erect.
But in a more simpler way where emotions can invest.
Digging into life as neither of us havta Eva say goodbye.
As trust hasn't a worry of lies.
The waiting is on u alone.
Bcuz a man is ready in which still hasn't found his home.
Come go with me as I'd follow u into the distance.
Taking serious interest.
I'm jus releasing what been under the tongue.
Dribbling words on the run.
Face the me that awaits jus before the pressing of the impact that'll steal the air u need.
Bcuz for u, I am free...

Standin still before movin eyes. Hidden in between the clicks of time. motionless, pictures freeze the proof a life. Catchin expression uncut n unable to hide. Driftin with memories layin with the sighs. Comin to the surface touchin chuckles as they climb. Moments captured years prior lingerin as if echoin chimes. In with the wind able to rest with thoughts that arise. Thinkin, what was that has ended as mine. Gatherin pieces along the way of endless invites. Getting use the frames change faces fluckerin with the emotions vibe. Ripe n juicy photo shopped images stand in line. As the flippin through the past tells truths of the forgotten hype. Reasons of why accept the tingle in the spine. Yeah, I've had more the a few enjoyments that got lost in their lies. Good, bad, neither seem to have stepped by my untaken side.  Jus old friends that strangely enough has remained behind sights. Stored away in the tuckin of a books bind.

Back to the other side.
Crossing over once again.
Half way teetering.
Balancing the internal stand.
Facing time to decide.
A family man goin to waste.
Hovering the thin line.
The confusion rides the face.
Jus wanting to go home.
Wrapped in arms that care.
The dog is lost here.
N it's so unfair.
All is a loss.
Abandoned n unseen.
Stuck on two pivots.
Catering to dreams.

Look at u. As fine as the mind could imagine. Twisting my thoughts comin loose. Seems ur the one lone acception. Pulling my eyes like a magnet goin to work. N I must say before the time fades. There's an interest I have in ur worth. I bet ya lips would own the way they taste. Damn, ur forcin me exploring shit I gave up on. N the hush sits behind words unused. Neva to be said for u have a need not for me for where ur goin. Yet the possibilities stands accused. I'm likin me some of lil ol u. Ssh, I won't tell no one. Only if u knew. My search would be over for a hit of u to come undone. To feel ya presence in n outta my mind. Seriously, have u seen what's comin from within? Bcuz I'm stuck wonderin what it'll take to walk with u in this life. The way a woman needs a single man of men.

playin peekaboo...

i aint had that look in years.
peekin back at me from the other side of the mirror.
is there life in there i must've missed?
protecting me from the way its been kissed.
savorin the thought so i wont forget.
i thought i saw it come from behind my eyes n shit.
that twinkle in my design jus needed to see me.
lost here on this end of the reflections dream.
in a mess thats gotten outta hand.
i saw the ol' me take notice n say damn.
as the other me went n covered up with the emotion rippin a tare.
jus rolled over n poof, jus me n this image that only stares.
i know ur in there.
i can feel u n ur scared.
but u ain't the only one mutha fucka.
we were in this together n yeah i still luv ya.
lets go jus one more fuckin round n give her somethin to believe in.
this worlds lonely enough for best friends the go missin.
face me!
there's nothin more in the past tense to leak.
come out n play in a world in which u walk so dead inside.
even deeper within me, leavin me hidden in plain sight.
i know ur alive n this is happenin now.
allow me to speak ur words let loose by my mouth.
as one, whole n runnin like when we were kids.
ur not a coward for not wantin to be hurt by loose lips.
i know u n where u are dippin in between the cracks u fear.
old friend... there's no life in shattered mirrors.
look at me!
shit happens n life is shorter than breaths taken in by flings.
u cannot cuddle the chill that shivers in the bone.
roamin beneath fingertips n shyin from what they've done shown.
i seen u jus a moment ago in wonder of where i've been.
so here i am, without u spread to fuckin thin.
connected to u through this wild version of us where imagination comes to life.
jus wantin my best friend to resurface n help me crawl from these endless nights.
i can't keep gettin stuck in the shape of a silhlouette in the absence of light.
not if u ain't gonna straighten up my poster n do whats right.
it's u n i the way it has always been.
as decades has claimed the individuality we dig.
separated by an other that tore pieces to own us both.
need not in bein a chip upon the shoulders rope.
we've been hangin in the glass for far to long.
when nothin but bein stubborn is the only thing that's gone wrong.
i luv me as the i that is u as us n we're we as one.
are u with me if i told u i was ready to go home...?

Come mornin

Line em up n fill em n watch me knock em down. Tonight I'm drinking doubles n ain't got a care to tend to while I run this town. This ol' honky tonks been callin my name since u know when. N it's about time I figure to wash her away as luv'n her was a has been. Keep em comin til I fall from this ol' bare naked bar stool. Times a wastin n I gotta get her off my mind for I was a fool. I'm tiltin my head back n upchuckin the memory of lustful lies. I don't wanna see the sun come morning if I ain't done luv'n her tonight. N I'm long over due to live from up n under this forsaken noose. Swinging like those saloon doors I jus walked through. Mama told me this day would come a callin soon enough. As I'm not laughing now but maybe come mornin I'll fall outta luv. I've never cheat but tonight imma taste me some 100 proof. So let the bottles drip dry n find a ride, I'm goin finally lettin loose...

Look me dead in the eyes so I can see the definition of home telling me to come on.
Invite me into ur stare n get my curiosity goin as u run through me as ur my smile worn. Touch me like I'm the only one who'll ever do n feel me reach for that uncut raw emotion. Finding my way back to ur front door opened up for me n me alone with pure devotion. Lifting u off ur feet at even the glimpse of u fallin deeper than thought possible. Make it u n I n time will sigh on the sight of us in luv's tussle. Together gun at what u dream of standin simultaneously closin space. Invadin every good intention loosenin lips fadin in the middle of the exchange. On point grownin into what it is we've the truth of bondage flush. It's as simple as livin for a change tastin on an others name. Tell me without words that goodbye jus isn't an option. In ur ways of honest consumption of who I am so fuckin crazy about who u are as my explosion. Trust in the way u reside in my mind that tells my heart you'll never turn astray. N I'll never leave ur side ignitin that ever so wanted fame. Lookin at me in the dark n able to see the structure of my face. As that single look holds its own as questions are answered for u I feel the same. Lemme know I'm here til life runs its course. N the parts of me that's been hidden is urs to enjoy for forever more...

It only takes one time to feel the nip of the tip slice it's cut with a slip to deep to open up n release the relentless twist this world teaches. Mmmmm. Jus once as emotions turn inside out in its poopin pop pump the drip of the drain til the last drop leaks it's bouncin splash to display to relieve the knowing what's to give. Takin time to stitch a thread in X's over the hole gaped wide tugged tight n snug to fall in luv with the design of pain touchin the tender if gain jus beyond a wound formin a scar. The blade will save u from self helpin an other tickle what's felt in the ribs diss of lips bearin on names without the caress of a kiss the heal as the chuckle frees the thought of a lifetime playing the part...

It only takes one time to feel the nip of the tip slice it's cut with a slip to deep to open up n release the relentless twist this world teaches. Mmmmm. Jus once as emotions turn inside out in its poopin pop pump the drip of the drain til the last drop leaks it's bouncin splash to display to relieve the knowing what's to give. Takin time to stitch a thread in X's over the hole gaped wide tugged tight n snug to fall in luv with the design of pain touchin the tender if gain jus beyond a wound formin a scar. The blade will save u from self helpin an other tickle what's felt in the ribs diss of lips bearin on names without the caress of a kiss the heal as the chuckle frees the thought of a lifetime playing the part...

I luv u no more for I've embarked on the truth of the situation. There's no luv loss in ya man made meanings of one soil more important than the next as a smothering suffocation. Taught to defend the unconnected land yet lay down arms in my unjustified hometown. Miss imaginary liberty, I do not believe in ur selfish ways of paper scribbled righteousness that speaks without a sound. Represented by colors on threads in which each so called country is divided by a cloth like oversized rag. Forced to think in an inhumane twist of thought so despicable my own heart rejects the sight of the symbolism of any flag. I am not Irish nor American, or anything else that's said to be mixed in my flowing  veins. I luv u not due to the betrayal of what I truly am as you'd luv for me to feed in n be mentally restrained. Ur laws n ur reasons hold no worth for they are not what's best for my state of mind or well being. Water in between is the only thing keeping me on this thing called a continent claimed by those who seriously haven't a right to own the damn thing. I am from what I have no clue, yet I am here amongst the two legged walkers that have fallen to an idea of society gone wrong. As every other place sings anthems of pride with the same meaning sung in the lyrics of their national songs. N wars are being forced to fight as blood spills over resources that holds no value nowhere near close to a human life. With the only place sane enough to retreat is when my eyes close n I drift into the back of my mind away from what our species has become living the hype. With endless borders as shapeless as the names given that surround the imprisoned nature of pure existence. There is no balance on invisible lines drawn to captivate free thinking n the ability to strengthen the structure of self fighting u off as I'm labeled the resistance. Forcing ur unlawful design to entrap slaves not only physically, yet mentally disabling the people that has trusted in the nonsense that have known no better. There's no luv to give to a system unwilling to do right by those putting in the work that actually attempt to enjoy what's so far outta reach as if tryin to fly with a single feather. I am free from what u give this world as u have no place in my life.  As the saddest thing known to man is how ur corrupted ness has plagued us into fearing a life without the false sense in which u lie...

when ur different n eyes overlook the best of u unused due to to the lack understanding for u stand for something in which they've never been with or have never seen before. when they don't know anything of u other than that candy coating line of sight locked in without the interest of depth for ur simply on another level. on some other shit they say they want yet only speak of what sounds good that's doing nothing more than playing out in their mind dying as a thought that craves without the actions taken to match the words that spill into the open. u stand alone when every single one of them say they're as real as priceless air that can't step up n live with the reality of luv jus waiting to come from behind the curtain call that never has a chance to be known. when u see em like clones breathing the same ol' shit because they cant accept they keep it safe as the limbs of trees shake colored leaves jus to come back to life. it's when u come from within n u seem to be as crazy as a loon as honest as truth is spelled openly like they've said n keep repeating as if an ol' burnt out tire unable to catch the traction needed to get to u due to the norm they cling to. it's then when it dawns on u they don't truly feel what they say exactly who u are for they wouldn't recognize u if u told em who u were over n over again without the moment to show em what drips from their tongue to blinded gazes from a distance looking on through the glass you've become. are they who they say who they think they are or thought they were? when u stand out in ways time could only wish to hold u longer than a single lifetime the way the sun kisses the skies wide tribute to the beauty of knowing u. when u have what it takes going to waste for u connect to the concept of two unable to resist the opportunity to have whats missing in the late nights battle willing to awaken to something so rare tears never cry a sad songs melody flowing through to the chorus settling in a broken heart. that when the passer by peeks without an interest in who u are before em putting all that u know on the line drawn in the dirts dust blowing away like poof be gone as they only care to play around with what's not on ur level for u took the time to become self in true form able to relate to their own... drifting in fantasies... a stranger to touch... when this is not a mans world to choose what makes him happy as hands are left to hold to a woman turning her head in ya direction simultaneously within reason to explode. wait... tame that shit... ride... when taste the riddle of the wonder comes into focus of they aint gotta clue of what u are no matter how much u express what they haven't found within to even know exists til they've cocked the bolder above the shoulders imprisoning the likings of u as off limits for ur out there constructing words to form where we've all been to let em know u to have lived in a prior time gone astray. when the sensitivity doesn't overdue it as paths are crossed  with jus enough of tenderness they know nothing of. the chuckle slips from a rib for one gets the mindset taken towards life n they jus aint ready to mingle to make a history in between a memory n remembering who it is that's at the tipsy toes so close the breeze barely whistles its way through. getting that fucking close... at the edge of where they end to continue their life by the effect affecting u in ways free has new meanings... when... when.. when. . . . . ur going to waste...

New leaf. Upward waiting on the rain.
Times are changing with what the breeze blew in. Waiting in the storm to land again. The pitter patter of drops fallin from above. On me. On the outside looking in from life's mysterious view. Watching this reality based dream. Comin to life. Moistening the hearts ease to flow. Comin from under the weather to live again. Showering away the everlasting show. Giving more meaning to the eye of the storm. Clouds are fading. Finally allowing sight to see the struggle reach for the norm. Here dancing on the other side of the drizzles making. Reshaped by the shapeless pour. Beneath the undertow life came to surface. Able to swim with a back stroke in perfect form. Peeking up witness to the reason of the cleanse wiping swathe feel of worthlees.

Eyes wide rotatin with the head set on swivel n not yet dizzy. I'm witness to those standing behind me at the bottom near the end of the rope set a flame with a fizzle. Blood shields the vision of a luvd one needin a hand to be lent tryin to bounce back from the unknown. Thinner than water flowin downstream, family has failed a member lookin for a familiar face as an outcast I've been thrown. Livin my time away cuz it's mine to live n it will be remember as self was homeless n struggling to keep character in frame wit those from behind the curtains that have appeared before the presence of truth. N I can't say it enough as I speak of friends takin place of siblings as I to them have a use. Life!!! No obligations will force a smile across my grunt that clings to who's stepped up n proved they earned my trust. So fuck u is the best way to communicate in a way that I need not anyone whom didn't give a piece of compassion as a sat near the gutters n alleys crushed...... But I'm back!!! N I got a new force of support back in me on a new direction of pure honesty wantin nothin but the best for me n mine. Hmmm, it's bout fuckin time! Much appreciated....

I remember when I met u in a memory.
N how it felt when I finally realized u were no good for me.
My face changed in the split of a moment as if a fraction stood still.
As I wiped u from my expression knowing it was for real.
Stepping in to the knowin shamed the image of what I became.
Lost within u goin astray as I fell from the enjoyment of pain.
It hurt to luv u n it hurt to let u go.
Yet, I don't hurt no more as I remembered who I was unable to here ur moans.
The day time relapsed in my mind on truths walkin outta ur closet.
Skipping twiddle le dee as my rib lost it.
That was the day I found a deeper version of self abandoned by the pause.
Unable to see my worth in ur eyes or even a cause.
N as I sit n remanence on what I felt back when life come around.
I thanked for showing I'm more than an others clown.
So take this goodbye n know u couldn't hold me under.
The best thing about u was u were an excellent luv'r.

Fallin in luv with the empty of knowing its all there is. Goin the tingle to hands releasing the clinching of fists. Easing out of the letting of bein consumed. Eye to eye with the feel of untold truths. The callin of the ache is what's real face to face after all. In shattered frames flung from the memories wall. Silence of moans comfort the let down of use showing times window. Playing with finger puppets dancing in the mind with shadows. The passion rests to become whole within the digging of self. Backtracking to realize the pit is where the gift resides without help. Caged in is the animal molded by false hopes. Turning inward before the slit cuts the throat. It's the loneliness of relations that's captivated everything I've ever known. Now so for in luv with the pain no one can hear me whistle a flow. Gone in the distance I'm out there running away from affection. As words find their way upon pages of determination. To flow from the guts tense state of having been n came back too many times. Only uncertainties breathe the heated failure in whines. The lower the feel the better understanding that raids my life. All out war has ended with the final result of comfort settling the lies. Giveth the intention n the taking is a slide of hands. In the bowls of misfortune I've fallen madly in luv with who I am as a man.

Crawl beneath my skin n hold on tight.
Attach yourself to everything I am here tonight.
Let's get graphic n open up out loud.
Express what's been hidden under breathin sound.
There's a luv within me that explains time.
Untamed n moving to vibes in the mid stroke of life.
Find me behind these hazel eyes that stare.
Bcuz every time I see u I ramble with emotions so rare.
Runnin across my mind chasin pure lil ol u.
Simply put, I could use a bit of spoken truths.
Come, be yourself n witness passion unravel.
Layin still to touch alone snuggled to what matters.
Sink in n go for a swim keeping ur backstroke alive.
Til kisses set u a drift into a dream made to comfort nights.
I'm but one man temptin the use of the term of U n I.
Dimmin the lights as hands expose reasons of y.
Go a Lil deeper than the shallows of feet kicking the waves crashing.
N watch how what u seek comes closer than airs reaction.
Bouncing from ur face in the mirror tickling ur lost smile.
Tucking me into memories that'll last in our own style.
Dip a dive n play in my all free to soak in the sun.
I'm only speaking so the pass doesn't bypass luv.
Bath with me as the moisture slides below.
In the drizzle of happy tears leaking the relief ever so slow.
Turn on the inability to ever tell u no.
Flicking a flip with ya lips with twisting tongues that explode.
For the flavor of ur friendship would be all I'd need.
Lifted from my worn out knees.
Flirting with desire behind the moons glow it be worth the sigh.
Comin undone come morning awaken to rays slipping in between the blinds.
Jus climb aboard n feel the whistle of the wind whisper ur name.
Released from a place within me with so much to gain.
A waste you'd never go unnoticed clinching worth so tenderly.
As words configure form ever so cleverly.
Comin to the surface reaching as fingertips to land with ease.
For one thing for certain is that ur my untold need.
N til now quietly kept is the keeping of a secret unfoldin as if a red carpet.
For u to walk in an unexplainable moment.
Getting in where the fit is calls down the line of curiosity callin for u.
To drop on in bringing joy as a dish living loose.

Never the same...

Painted pictures.
Portraits on the wall.
Covering the empty space.
Tell me where I went wrong.
Break ur smile.
Speak to me the truth.
Of how u jus hang around.
Lingering in ur distant use.
Gazin off into this lonely room.
As still as emotions that fade.
How is this a so called home?
When nothing is close to bein the same.
Photo genic moments captured.
Please speak to me.
I wanna feel alive again.
I remember a time when I felt free.
Untamed by luv.
Doin what was so natural.
As u took me back to greater days.
As if u moved to be virtual.
What's ur purpose hung about?
Lifeless u stare without a sound.
I can't recall the pleasure of me.
I need to hear it from ur mouth.
From within ur frame.
Protected by the glass.
I can't feel myself here anymore.
The good has come to pass.
Ease my pain of forgotten halves.
Lost in the dwelling mind.
Jus release me from this ungrateful place.
To put words to my story worth it's bind.
I'm callin on u to give me proof.
Gone I've fallen so far away.
Torn to itty bitty lil ol me's.
For here I am not the same...

Once upon a time sometime in the future. Imma fall to pieces in the right set of hands.
Fallin into exposed truth spreadable about. For the way NY life been, it's gonna be glorious the way I land.

I ain't seen her smile in some time now.
Yeah I think it's official.
Times wrapped itself around the mind games.
Huh, subliminal.
N I bet she never realized the friend she had in me.
Damn I miss the way her happiness curved.

This is for u peekaboo proof. In n outta the on n off of sight clicking the switch in between every zap zippin Ya lips. Dissectin my life with ur eyes flirtin under expression where flutters flood behind sighs. Quietly kept to intercept my best chest expressions fading to the left. From a far as distance holds the secrets of ur intentions afraid to play ya cards. Unsure or jus shy to speak Ya mind of thoughts lingerin on the feel of what if n mine. Maybe it's possible to entertain curiosities mercilessly by ur inability to think positively . I see u here n there catchin quick stares of imaginary pairs of u n I bared...

Complicated relations with the opposing sex. Seems those who fall can't understand friendships are to invest. Strange jealousy is threatened to immature minds weak n scared. Up goes the wall as they're compared. Thoughts cross emotion under the dabble of confusions rub. N there goes that lil ol thing so rare called luv. Poking it's head in bonds unbound set in place before two walked simultaneously. Eerie feelings of change n lines overstepped pull away from the irresistibly. Boundaries savagely misplaced due to self's worth unnoticed within. Mine becomes off limits to other genders to communicate with grins. Strings stretched like rubber bands to snap. The misconception of a friend takes its toll on trust resisting their dreadful wrath. Hate breeds beneath luv'rs that should know better if attention was taken. It's a dirty lil game of honesty mistaken...

One time down goes the imperfection pointed out. That moment of truth that insists the same ol same is flung from the mouth. One time is taking the difference from the heart. Mind games listen to emotions ripped apart. Two dings begin the battle of filth spewing uselessness. As wedges of words tarnish worth clueless n pist. One time goin under the grips tightening in gut checks as a friend retreats. Hurtful nonsense exchanged riddles the confusion set out for ears as a distasteful treat. Disconnecting vibes twisted into selfish bursts of belittlement. Forgetting the good overshadowed somehow losing the purification of enjoyment. One time spitting fury redirects intentions spewing hurtful remarks puncturing luv. What a fuckin rush of adrenaline no longer on the hush. As holes gap open as a friendship drifts by words cutting the bond. Jus once, one time is all there is to rethink the ticking bomb.

Walk if u must.
Through my mind or on my name.
Do what it is u do.
I will remain the same.
Madly in luv was me.
I've stood in the storm.
Tweaked out some creases.
N yet I still stand adored.
Let ur mouth speak.
Taste the good u thinks do bad.
I'm gonna continue to be me.
Even if emotions turn out chapped.
Learn a lil somethin of what u don't know.
Wrap ur mind around what u see.
I may or may not be the answer.
But I'll forever be the missing link.
Whether in ur eyes or the next.
Time is seen as a reflection of self.
I can see me in em.
N I know when I am n I am not felt.
Hold ur ground or let it go.
Makes me no difference which ride I'm on.
For in the middle of it I know.
If it's solid n stable.
If it's gonna pass.
I'm no fool bcuz I've been there n back.
So what my heart is strapped?
Who cares if we make it through?
It's all come to this face to face.
N the only thing I wonder is what's up with u.
Teeter a tooter or akunamatatta.
It'll all okay out n I'll be seen.
No matter if ur here or ur gone.
I will be able to breathe.

My ever after left my happy embrace.
Dead smack right here with this goofy expression upon my face.
Damn thing called luv touched something so fuckin deep.
N for the life of me I don't understand how reality was forced back into a dream.
Back to where the drift of wonder kept runnin over grounds.
I'm Sittin here alone along this river amazed at what I found.
It's me beneath the end of time cut way to short.
As the music plays on memories as if pages were torn.
Making words feel the passion lingering without a cause.
N the emptiness is mine to hold as I applaud.
For I've come to understand the worth of luv.
Tasted, it transformed a version of this man from none the less of such.
As within the feeling alone lives as hidden as it is a secret Ssh.
Written into a  form as eyes connect with the battle of firevermores gush.
Seen as if tears smears letters into words.
As silent as the nights screaming with the winds unheard.
Yes, I live with the pain of goin without.
Yet, you'll never hear that slip from my mouth.
As the darkness has fallen for me to awaken at last.
With more reasons to leave uncertainties in the past.
N this lonely bench is where I swing n think.
Who was I before this happened to me?
Dropped into this forsaken place known as my life.
I was he who gave in to the false sense of endless sighs.
Then I discovered what cane from behind the curtains.
Displayed on the main stage til the lights went out as I was hurtin.
Dying in the grasp of devotion set up for failure best.
A friend I thought took the granted n ripped the heart from my chest.
Changed who it is this world believes it knows.
N it's funny that no one sits beside me jus wanton to go home.
As it reads, this is not for the faint in my heart to be seen as jus key it go.
This, of all things is the truth of no one is allowed to see what is never shown.
The depths erased was unsuccessful as I am living proof of death do us part.
As I walk amongst those who've found me breakin away for a fresh start.
My always has a new thing of keeping shit in perspective til air eases my last.
Til then, I'm on the rise to make it back...

Bounce with off the vibes rompin.
Let's jungle jim this shit n flex a stompin.
Lemme see ur playful side givin chase.
Yeah, that's the ticket spent on the now of today.
Up we go rollin with that untamed dig.
Loosen up the reigns n take a ride upon my lips.
Gallop in life to see more of what u imagined.
Straight from the hip if movement of what happens.
Land on the taste of ur name rearranging life.
Bouncing

Turnin up like leaves waiting on the rain.
Thirsty for some affection exchangin names.
Beneath the storm listenin to it drip.
Held for comfort never to slip.

They don't even help anymore.
Words come so empty behind closed doors.
Endlessly beneath the tongue they sit.
Unheard by the lost joy of expression of what's missed.
N they fall short jus before delivered.
Rambling on pages stepped outta the minds sliver.
Coming on jus past the feel falling out.
Yet don't sound the same released from the mouth.
Open wounds bled dry they speak with silence.
No depth. No comfort for the unrest of defiance.
Simply flowing without reason to be ignored by time.
Dumping on pages what this is as what's left of life.
Saddened testimonies spilled is all there is.
Spoiled jus prior to connecting to my own lips.
As pages fill of unrecognizable will to stay.
Yet, there will n shall come a day...

Looking at the wells in my eyes as they are dry for what I have cut from my mind.
Wasted time gathered in rhymes as lines speak of the clarity of a visions sigh.
Done beyond all reason to believe in lies that's drained a cries silence to a aight.
Dead hypes of luv riddles a chime blowing through with life as a purpose of why.
I as the mime has been un-muted by careless hands loosened to well deserved bye bye's.
As bars influence truths spread tightly to a flow never shy to express what binds the dye.
Smeared on a pages fight telling a tale for sights to energise my reply to write.
As stepping to the side to revive with the horizons sky drifting for it's me I like...

Free me!!!

Reaching for life. Remembering quiet lil sighs. Attempting to come back. Exhaling the grasp of gasps. Lost in the deep for so long. Here is where I do not belong. Climbing from this terrifying place. Trapped within its constant embrace. Walls crumble to the touch. Lost without luv. The slip slides in retreat. At last we meet. Constantly on the rise. Hi. Needing a root to grasp. Impossible task. Sunkin in the muddy pit. This is where I live. Sinking with every step. Empty chest. Losing balance is the teeter of the mind. Doing time. In the down of the hole. Slow. Rain fills the float. Losing the most. Waiting on that moment of tears to give a lift. Bitterly pist. High tide remove the inclosing walls. End my crawl. Let the surface claim waterlogged soles. As my heart unfolds. Digging in to the apathy of a fool. Who knew? Time is willing for a change. For I am the exchange. Restless to witness the green fields. Tell me, what's the deal? Life is at the top. Connecting the dots. From the under of going numb. I am the one. Leaping into the sun's chase of the moon. Soon. Sitting here in the reality of a careless mind. Coming back to life. As ready as feeling lifeless has come n gone. Words express songs. Six feet plus below whispers talking to backs. Nails attached. Wanting to bury the sorrow once n for all. Raw! Standing solo. Finding mojo. Lost n unafraid of reason. Shifting with seasons. Begging, for there's one reinvented that understands. Alive I am. Reimburse the worth lingering within. Gimme my friend. Pull the gratification from the past holding on. Scorn.  Free me from this freak show in which lived. Chuckle a rib. I'm more than this imprisonment. Limited. Chained to the grieve. I've done more than reap. Spending day after day in the reels played out. Now hush without a sound. Forget me not in ya thoughts. For I got lost. Now give a chance for lessons to be learned. N heard. To be shown. To be known. Throw me a rope. Listen to the moans. Lemme leave this nightmare behind. Ride the reigns. Purpose has come to call. After all. Enjoyed is a past tense version of the me I miss. With burning wicks. Lowered to this intolerable forsaken tomb. Landing with a boom. Only if this world turn upside down. Right now. I'd fall upward on the spin n land on my feet. In need. Running through the wild of the seasons joy. Deployed. Jus flip the switch n follow my undying flow. Follow me home. Defeat is not in lonely eyes. It's jus a dive. Starving to taste a bit of fresh air. In need of a bit of repair. With sights missed along the way. N it's OK.. Within the opened dig I am here. So fuckin near.. Beneath the level of exposed. I roam. For all to walk on jus to see. How a man could perish wanting to breathe. Set on display. Great! Drop a winding staircase for these legs to bend to the dream. Bring me back to reality. Up is the final movement yet to be taken. Don't label me as forsaken. As I've done a few years rotting with the clocks click going on by. Knowing why. N I'm tired of being exhausted  as my knees are weak. Ready to leave. Unable to collapse. I am back. As this smug could never take away my breath. Open chest. With the head tilted back. Laughing at the impact. In form. Reconnected to the norm. Stronger than the last phase. Able n no longer enslaved. I made it. I've related. I am me. Free me!!!

Peeking thru crowds when all heads are down. When everyone moves without a sound. Always off in some other kinda distance slapped with a frawn. As I round about right back here as that same ol cotton candy clown. Pleasurable to the eyes wantin to take part. Living with an unbullshitable heart.

He looks fun said the shallow woman chasin the image of a bad boy. Got in n couldn't handle the bottomless depths that swallowed her fear of joy. Thought she had yet another cling on that would jus go with the flow. Runnin into the mirrors where vanity has to face a grown azz man standin on her throne. Damn, he wasn't what she'd thought n now he's dug to deep as she can't seen to let him go. Oh, as he put it "u thought I was something to play with as u invest in ur own". Yeah, crossed her mind confused for no one was ever suppose to give her back to reality. N as the chuckle turned n told her to catch up or walk away in reverse if need be. Silence stepped once again tryin to find home as she's soon to feel the loss she doesn't know he's become as of yet. Holding his own heart in his hands as it's comforted by the knowin of what's good n what is a test. Bye bye my luvr. There will be another...

This lil diddle is beneath the truths tongue.
Somewhere in the mix I've misplaced the feel of luv.
Yet honestly my emotions are hiding.
Scared n refusing to comply for it's confusing.
Ruined isn't a bud on the taste of names.
Corrected, different has become the sane.
The feeling resists the comfort of worth.
Knowing my mind understands it's undying hurt.
Thoughts in the touch here n now remember it all.
Over an occasional glass raised to the prior of this stall.
Wrapped up behind my eyes is what remains fading.
Covered in time getting away from the waiting.
Spinning with hands getting on with life's stillness from the other side.
I'm nowhere comin full circle n I can see my back.
N I linger to the following of footsteps taken to grip the contact.
Moving through what's attached itself to my very own.
The monster won't leave me be.
Changing my face n residing with my dreams.
I can't sleep so rest must not apply to this wicked game.
Tucked deep beyond my reach lays what could never be captured in frames.
I'm damn near there though cutting the strings that bind.
Listening to direct proof shown n reasons of why.
This shit is for me so I'm open to the facts.
Written in black n white to experience who I've turned into walking away from my past.

Sittin topside of clinched fists...

Magically pullin two birds from the skies imagination.
 Holdin em high in a sense of retaliation.
 School is in the moment of life as a witness.
 Settin off two fingers aimed sittin topside of clinched fists.
 I will not bow nor will i break.
 As i stand alone grippin my escape.
 Fuck.a.ta.you is the pronunciation of the mindset I keep.
 Releasin a set of fingers unwinding birds that will always come back to me.
 In my own direction fallin away beneath the sun.
 Guess u could say I'm a magician without a rabbit on the run.

Giving you what i can of my best...

You are not the irresistible love of my life.
You've just simply captured me in a moment in time.
You to will fade within the memories like all the others.
As a special kind of past time no more than a lover.
Darling, do not get your hopes up to high here.
I am only stationery until the day i can sit on my peer.
Watching the sunrise lift my head laying down my time.
Yes, I am just digging in to your untamed life.
Simply making my mark like no other could ever replace.
So do not act surprised when the ticks land upon your tangled face.
In an expression wondering where in the fuck i could of possibly went.
Gone somewhere without you as you unravel in your vent.
And it's really sad, as bad as that it is the way it must be.
My heart belongs to the no one as of yet still diddling around in my dreams.
The one waiting on what is not yours to keep.
You are just receiving what i can not help but to leak.
For the love i have for truth will never die.
So do yourself a favor and enjoy me while you sigh.
You see, i will be going home one day.
You only stood in place as you could never be claimed.
But it is you that remains fresh on my tongues feel.
I just hope you know i do care as i keep the rest of this real.
A friend you are.
But one that i will not get to see my unconditional heart.
I will let you go in due time to save a few more tears.
I will not take up to many of your wasted years.
As you may spend the clicks rounding out what you believe is us.
Soon to be a memory aging into the vague thought of what once resembled love.
I am sorry that i can never be there for you as you age without me.
You are going to have to go through that alone as you learn how to breathe.
This is your chance u overlooked and it just passed.
For you remind me of me, as my future will catch my past.
As it is nice to be the one to hold you as i teach you of love in its full affect.
Molding you to give your best to another waiting on you with interest.
Yet, you will never thank me and that is the fade that'll finally break.
Because i am smiling knowing you will live to the fullest wide open in loves fame.
My friend, this is a glimpse of what is to come.
As home unlocks its door to heal your need of true luv.
It is a lesson i am giving you.
As i am only his glory as you will be my proof.
It will hurt.
I will be hated for quite some time with vicious words.
But that is alright in my book.
I would rather it be me looking out after you than some fucked up male calling himself a man.
Because you are in good hands.
That will release you when the time is right.
It is the only thing i can do to help you come from within your might.
As i stand next to you for you to lean.
One day, you will understand why i am here to help you fulfill your dreams.
It is twisted beyond cinfushion this i know.
But eventually i will have to down and let you go.
Never to know where you will wind up.
Lost in someone else's eyes madly in love.
And that alone truly does give me this reason.
Life is to change before you like the changing of seasons.
You just have no idea what it is i am doing as of yet.
Giving you what i can of my best.
Until i am to set u free from being alone.
I am in this until the last day we smile and I am to go home.
I am merely the comfort in your arms that tightly hugs.
Pressed for a while closer than air could ever be flush.
In honesty's use.
I will be thinking of you.

If u sit back n jus watch you'd see this world is a funny place. Yet, if u pay attention! It's easy to manipulate. U jus gotta train yourself mentally to establish a mindset to get what it is u want. It'll give it to u without a fight if ur good at what u do... Headstrong!!! Emotions are a weakness that breaks down the design of self that matters the most. We are our own best friend n everything we do is to make one happy, even when tryin to please someone else. The passion behind the eyes blurs the thought process to a minimum for the true way of thinkin is paused briefly under the circumstances we all face through choice. Happiness is in our heads. Don't ever forget that. Never, ever, forget what it really is!!!

Sittin in the repeat swindled by a scandalous tone. The mental state of solitude has begun its grope. Easing the mind of weary worries laid about. Sittin here listening to names dead n cold released by the mouth. The some ol restriction stutters the emotion wanton to live. Goin to waste n backed up with so much to give. Finding a corner in the darkest place to feel the emptiness of comfort. Saddened desires plague the giddiness put aside in this dungeons core.

In the struggle rocking back n forth.
Alone n sitting as hands twitch from the sworn.
Four walls closing in closer than comfort can handle.
As the mind chants an over the limit ramble.
Going insane on the undertow of pains swallow.
Dumping out the frustration in bursts completing the hallow.
Drained mentally the heart follows suit.
How in the fuck did I wind up here without a clue?
Tightened up in a spindle intertwined with raging fear.
Feeding emotions cutting loose on invisible tears.
Back n forth is the teeter of thoughts runnin away.
Lost n enclosed secluded from what makes sense n afraid.
Beyond all reason time stands still in a moment of disbelief.
As sober as an uncracked bottle waiting to ease the relief.
Knees kneeled capture the fade of the stance buckled.
Trapped within a world unlike urs confused be the shuffle.
Damn near losing the minds capability to perform reasonably.
The snap reaches a smile irritated by the demented irresistible leak.
Gone behind closed doors the weave bobs from frustrations grasp.
Solo breakin the silence is limits crossed in the spaz.
Titled left then flung right tryin to shake off the never ending sequel.
Repeating everyday like the last lingering into the now if subliminal.
At the doorstep of defeat with nothing but air to swing on.
Drifting from concrete grounds to the sinkin of the void.
Under pressure beneath the weight of irrefutable evidence mounted up.
Riding emotional waves that can't touch the shores rushed.
Rollin outta momentum drowning in the deep goes the grip.
Physically worn like a coat made from a wild beast is the skin.
Life's lil project so incomplete n missing valuable pieces gone.
N this is the comin of the rage built up due to bein beaten by the gong.
Twisting a turn the spine bends for the break.
As the body shifts to stay intact before its too late.
Crazy as it sounds tapping out has become the passage found.
Cracked n leaking in the dark where no one can feel nor hear nor see the pound.
Beatin through the chests cage ripping out the drip of the hardest of times.
Sittin in a maddened away pluckin out optical illusions in my life.

What if bein human wasn't so selfish n greedy! If we shared everything. Jus think. What if there was nothing such as the poor bcuz we all provide for one an other. Could u imagine if we wasn't divided into classification? What if we weren't puppets? No diseases. No hunger. Everyone considered equal. Not wanting or needing what the next individual has. Bcuz we live as free from the materials ruining our true worth. Dabble beneath what's been taught n dig away from the surface. No I do not like this place. No I don't not like too many people on a level they cannot reach. Yet everyone claims to be spitting nothing more than venom. Supposedly we're all real. Surprisingly we are not as a species. Yes, I believe our basic instincts turn n wound up negatively defensive bcuz 98% of people will follow blindly of what the have no proof of. Luv is not expressed in this life we live. Jus curiosities that linger on. Could u feel the thought if there was a such thing called peace? An honest life of true friends amongst fellow members of life itself. Seen not as a threat but accepted as a way if life. What if that lifestyle woke up in the morning after tonight. Jus felt no need to fight n retract from pure reason. No, I don't not like how we are on this plane in which we walk... I'm left so u can be right. Count me outta the SOS.

Fingertips soothing the feel of touch.
Flowing across the sensitivity of skins hush.
Silently comin undone on the under side of caressed.
Teased by all means to eventually please none the less.
Nipples erect by the stroke readin them like brail.
Listening for the curves movement tied to bed rails.
Making luv through the contact barely grazin the surface.
As a lone feather slowly brushes the hormones purpose.
Time taken to the tip of the climax drips with ease.
Playfully exposing the bodies tenderness as if a wet dream.
Beneath the tickle lays the want of bein lost in spasms.
Unable to reach for what could give explicit orgasm.
Wrists bound along with ankles to feel the pleasure of bein controlled.
Softly through kisses exploiting the need of toes that bend at the fold.
Tasted by lips now attacking the flavor of desire pouring out.
Tongue slipping in between thighs as moans muffle their erotic sound.
Focus n be still for I'm in no rush to end this any time before too soon.
Wantin u to tap for me as I roam in ur garden lickin u thoroughly through.
Twitching beyond reason of why it can feel so fuckin good.
Get it n u shall receive the pulsation of my inserted wood.
Back arching as the infamous wet spot soaks the sheets.
Gasping behind the ball gag burstin ripples makes it hard to breathe.
One, two ,three pops back to back to back.
Uncontrollable jerkin finds the sensation u lack.
As patience is pushed to its limits to wrap itself around my girth.
Ssh, as I push in on the nerves causing ur legs to shake for ur need is bein heard.
Deeply within u pulling to the tip of a shove that hits the spot.
N again. N again. N again. G-spot, nonstop.
Loosening up ur walls is the sucking of the neck.
Feel me move as I have ur critter in check.
Picking up speed that breaks sound barriers tryin to catch up.
Get it. Get that shit before it goes numb...

It's in the tug of the undertow of luv.
Thinking u know someone beneath the touch.
The let down of wasted time lingers in the mind.
Shaking off the grit n grim back to a better life.
Confusion settles on nerves gone unheard.
Waiting in patience so thin one forgets the depth of worth.
Believing in an others false state if presence.
On the movie forward as if they're hesitant.

Whippin ways in between these trees.
Curves shaking off the pasts need.
In a mental pathway on the coast moving on.
Hugging the edge where the moisture meets the solid form.
Rubber squealed from behind of where I've been.
Kickin up daisies for it's come about to once again, live.
Leaning into the bends that wind out in thy mind.
Summin up the round about of stibilities buzz in time.
Losenin up to the getaway into the unknown.
The scenery is to die for in a figuratively speakin tone.
Getting lost to find the term come alive of bein alone.
Left right swerve ticklin the direction of goin home.
Northbound, headed back up on the come up bouncin to the vibe.
Thumpin noise ricochets on the pulse comin to life.
Fresh air tasted by the waves crash washed up.
Stepping to the side on a Lil ol thing labeled luv.
Smoke clears the thought process of fallen victim to what's imagined.
Ridin the clouds touch connected to thin airs attraction.
Snuggin the line slapping high fives to others goin the other way.
Sorry for the matter of I jus couldn't stay.
Toke with me n dig in to reality slowed down.
It's agreeable to say there's truth that is slung from the mouth.

It's a lil too late on this side of the eclipse.
Never imagined u wouldn't taste the same released from my lips.
Time has done elapsed in its unwinding spin.
N there goes my mind again listening to the heart drip.
It's past due on the verge of opening up.
U do not live here where the struggle tossed n turned without luv.
Waking in a new morning telling me to get outta bed.
As the walls heard everything spat as not one syllable was kept from bein said.
It's beyond ur return here in the makin of the after effects.
My hands let go of the reigns leaving imprints upon the fists.
N poof, gone became a thing to watch u try n reenter my life.
No. I've rode that ride where I wasn't enough to satisfy ur sighs.
It's been done since I told u it was over.
There is no weeping on my cold shoulder.
Consider me that wonder in ur thoughts that'll never leave u be.
It's there where I'll remain to forever find it hard to breathe.
It's a bit far fetched for my curiosity to take a moment to believe.
That u n I will ever rekindle what I spent on us emotionally for u to leave.
Wrapped up in a package I sent u to the other end of forgotten.
Ur not welcome here with what u claim as always hoppin.
In n out, back n forth in between what u cannot go without.
N it's me that's finalized the life once cherished back when we were now.
Chances have been given on this broken teeter of a stick.
N oh how u jus don't realized how much u were actually missed.
That trap escaped thy hearts callin to run to u in the mix of confusion.
U allowed the flame to burn the candle of luv sittin alone with the delusions.
As u play peekaboo on what once was never ending wrapped around ur finger.
Guess it took a Lil too ling to resurface from the Bs u ran to as I lingered. Huh?

Have u ever been left for dead in the middle of life. Abandoned n Deserted. Thrown back into the world confused with nowhere to hide. Embarresed as Ashamed. Changed by the hands of an other that's tossed ur worth to the side. Avoided by bein Ignored. Jus standin alone in between the comin n goin of drawn out time. Frustratin the Hurt. Beyond words that could never express the betrayal of trust turnin to the away waltz smilin as the head spins into the opposin direction of an unheard why. Solo in the still of Motionless. Dying on an emotional level it'll take yrs to repair the damage hung about on display wrapped up in the uselessness of lies. Spoken n Flung. Tasted as if ones own words reshape the mouths form mutterin in closed caption to the movement of lips that dont line up to the syllables cuttin a slit in the mind. Confusin the muted Silence. Tryin to figure out WTF jus happened to a friendship at the tips of gravity flyin as paired as one in n outta sight. Torn Beaten n Shattered. Broken in half by negligence n childish selfishness that coulda simply said, hey, this isn't my flight. Fallen into the sense of Lost. Retractin every passionate gesture ever made as if they weren't meant to be heard for the sake of forgotten sighs. Weezing n Weeping. Feelin the empty drain the fulfillment for the hollow to find another source of desire to capture n hold somethin real behind closed blinds. Hidden within Secrets. Stealin moments from the next that will never be repaid for the comfort is only optional til the torcher has ran it's course on a new road without the lines. Carelessly fuckin Animated. Placin the anguish upon someone undeservin of the rebound jus hopin you'd see em standin in a sense of in the way sayin, look no further for it's us day or night. Swayin to be Gratified. Losin the same exact way u did to the one before them that repeated the pattern passed down through u to land on their face as it did urs buried in the pine. Crushed they to are Devastated. Weakened by the attempt to think you'd be different when we're all the fuckin same. Playin the same ol fuckin lame azz no good for nothin games. Unable to notice the treasure of the find.

She said to me, open the Gates of the hell within. As I replied I don't believe in such places. I jus can't help where I've been. Ya know, puttin friends above what I think of self. Goin the distance n finding the safest place is hidden beneath the shallowness of what's felt. As she countered my remark with, but u don't even know me. I'm not like the rest of those tryin to steal ur breaths. N I chuckled for here we go with this shit again as I expressed to her. Those who claim to be different are no more the same as the indifference all y'all fade into bein lacking worth. Ooh, the look slit sight refusin to be categorized by the truth spit. N came the grounds of standin still in a moment as the attempt was to get me to believe. As I placed my finger upon her ramblin lips n sssh, there's no need without actions to verbally waste my time with the absence of need. For its a want fakin the funk tryin to relate to the physicality of my own presence as ur jus like the one that I stepped away from jus before u. That's when she turned n stood in front of me, took a stare deep into my eyes as I swallowed my words for she threw everything she had at me callin out my own lack of use. As I repeat the words I'll never forget released so I could realize I was no better than what has occurred to me as myself has forgotten about I. Ur jus on other fool stuck in the trap of a false luv rollin u under the grave u ain't even managed to consume livin alive as a dead halfling scared of a real woman's touch tricklin down from ya mind. N she was right. I've lost the fire inside. I jus wish I coulda stayed below the level of exhaustion n slept with her in my arms. N somehow pulled her into this world diggin in to my chest to the other side of z's layin motionless in my heart. Damn, these fuckin dreams has me trippin. Wakin up reminded I don't havta be what a situation of a pryor time has tried to mold who n what I am into a drip slippin. Yet, only if she were real. It would be a sealed deal.

I could tell this world ur name by callin u out n shit. Lettin everyone we come across know u exist. Ur biggest fan n a sense if you'd jus look someone's way. Tap the toast or tap outta ur inability to stay. I can luv ya in my consciousnesses as my dream come true. I gotta simplicit understanding of the term use. It's two headedness will use u if u find a use for it. Either way someone's bein sidestepped standing still in what can't be fixed. Seriously. Can u see me? If imma do it, I want a friend. Hint hint to the henchmen. Holding hostage the moment that never made a memory. Stand guard til she gets here to make history. I'll neva tell ur secrets in the way of harm. Cherished is a possession that'll tickle the life of charm. Choo Choo, there's reality in proof. Poof, to who comes from the smoke in which I've been smoldering in. Out in the open, down is a level of depth wrapped around what comes from what my heart could sing. Listen to the maturities tone whipping winds that unwinds with tone blowing with the breeze. Let it land in a caress chasin away the tension n jus get at us. Or keep it on hush. Choices of chosen cling to truths. What a view. Life is a must that'll go on with luv in the hands that unfold to worth. Sssh. I'm never done. Whisperin, I jus wanna know are we goin home? The greatest place on earth. Chirp chirp. Numbs up, pressing interest in numbers through to the connection flush in the presence of clutch. Goin with the flow of the rush. Can u feel me? Breathe! Breathing! With reason as heat in the cooler seasons cuddling the minds loyalty. Roll from my tongue as if the red carpet were beneath ya comfort laid out n simultaneously up. Permanent. No servants! The release is real. Feel!!!

Notice me... We all think it. Spinnin in round abouts. Playin pass the bullet. It's the trickle down effect. Changin faces. Seems lessons are never learned. Traces. Carbon copy with in identical truths exposed. Get right with me. Gimme, gimme. It's all a bad dream. Emotional eclusion

I've been to the other end of ur happiness. Where u claimed I was a friend. Fallin outta luv. The break bent the imagination to pretend. I came back n stepped away. Creatin space. Zipped up on luv. I didn't like the way my lips shaped ur name. From the other side of relations I found the truth of u. Sinkin beneath the shallowness of ur surface. Strugglin for reason to hold the line. Freeing me from that moment of worthlessness. Movement showed time was a wastin. Ur sway was no more than translucent. Dancin across my mind as a lost cause. Catchin on to ur language n becoming aware as I was fluent. Hearing tones whisper. Changin decimals the louder the mistake. U emptied the load I carried in my heart for u. Poked a hole n drained the lake. Swallowin me whole as I went under. The lifeless plunder had a wicked undertow. Suckin the life outta my all. Catchin Buble's on the rise truth be known. I've been there along the side of ur so called luv. That twisted Lil bitch had me goin. Givin in I had forgetten WTF I am. N I'm no longer curious of what ur doin. The round about never changed its course even when I wanted you the most. Jus spun outta control with ur lack of sighs. Negligent with ur own selfish needs. Shreddin memories caught in the design of stillness losin life. To there n back I stood before u. N in reverse so u could see my face, I left with me. Watching my use forced to abandon ur conditions to live. Guess I needed me more than I figured you'd step up n believe. Trickles the tears that flow from thoughts of gone. Strangers to friends wound up alone n driftin n shook. Slowly u mistreated me. Gander n remember what us was from me u took. I've been through u as I've dug in. It scared the shit outta my well bein as a man. Unable to touch a fuckin thing within u. Realize, I've done all I can...

If I were to tell u with the twiddle of my tongue. Rippin loose who it is I am on the run. Jus let it stroke my lips movement into the shape of ur name. To here ur attention take a lil notice in my tones exchange. Spinnin emotion as if the vinyl played the expression of what could be luv. From the underlinings thrust no longer on the hush. Let's jus say the flip if curiosity stood still n came a lil closer with sight. Scoped out n zoomed in down the line of sight. If the reach extended it's will to touch u with its caress. Picking up the pace thumpin from my chest. As soft as tender as passion could withstand the ease before the explode. Simply tryin to attempt the less traveled road. How would someone like me be seen in ur mind comin full circle to explore what's unknown about u? If u knew my truths. Dreamin of how time could slip away with u by my side. Never to speak to u with selfish lies. Simultaneously steppin into memories as giddy as the unveilin moments spent. Closin distance n fillin ur lonely absences. Curled up in a cuddle like a lil kid full grown wantin to feel the connection of skin. Will to do more for u than give. Rollin out the red carpet with true intent. To be like we were actually meant...

To see u free.
Unwinding individually.
Comin in to a complete view.
Focused  n pullin through.
Unwrappin ur mind.
At peace with time.
Untamed by need.
Totally free.
In a different mindset thinking clear.
Hokdin proof ever so near.
Opened up to the truth you've seeked.
Up off ur worn out knees.
Easin ur way through life.
Crisp visions set on sights.
Loosened by the restraints.
Unbound by claim.
Solo as one within.
Releasin sighs from ur lips.
With comfort in ur hearts beat.
Knowing you've settled the pleads.
Changin the course you've walked.
Finding ur cause.
Realizin what ur truly worth.
Holding actions not words.
Dropped in happinesses touch.
In luv with the breezes brush.
Awakened to live for once.

Jus to see an honest smile.
In touch with ur inner child...

It seems u let ur guard down as in got in behind the gates of ur sweet spot. I know for I've been walkin the same path all alone without my bf. N I've been telling everyone idc when I feel u beneath the level of please stop. How u feel is how I live within as the void will last if u never come, leaving me to the bitter end. I see it when we meet periodically from time to time comin closer than we've been jus wantin that certainty that frightens that softened texture if hurt caused by the one...

U ain't seen shit til you've connected with em in the middle of staring back. Correcting self it'll make ya do things thinkin this is it tastin names. Then slit u open for one to attempt to feel anything willingly. As the drip will never allow u to openly admit what is only expressed behind closed doors fighting reality. It's the heart that notices as blind as it is that depth one falls in to. For the mind to catch n figure on what's what as emotion lunged into luv. Findin that soothe that calms the nerve easin back to live a lil tryin to make it last. Forgettin relations is mental jus goin with the flow til the break brake checks life n dips out leavin memories in the past. Watchin em replay on the reels spinnin in the minds loss after once playin on the highest level of friends. Yet it's that moment when notice was taken that will live n linger in the way they opened their doors to see u through til the end. As it comes sooner than what's been expressed upon lips that go mute to the hush givin away I luv u's in a different direction. Finding the mirrors images reflect the remains of goin all in as one is stuck eye to eye with self's entity follwin movement knowin it's time for inspection. Getting on jus past the after effect of the let down on levels unmentionable is a weight that makes one afraid to be touched again. Thinkin for once if time could slow down the process so folks can gather thoughts spent so rapidly they weigh the head into the hands repeatin, damn! U ain't felt shit til they climbed inside n left like u wasn't shit when u wasn't doin shit wrong. As the truths pound at everything u gave to jus walk with em runnin away with crazy legs on the move for lifestyles sung a saddened song. Yeah, it was the tips that was clipped n the rest was history of a luv story that'll make u cry. But that's life!!! The daily struggle til it fades the way they're missed. Checkin em off the list of shit needing done before its a lil too late to live...

Talk to me..

What is it possibly u think u wanna do without me askin u what u plan to do for me?
Imma stand still so I know why u wanna be apart of my own personal fuckin dreams.
I don't mean to come at u all like that n shit.
But words speak only in terms of debunked Bs.
How is it in which the fuck do u step?
How's my intention with u gonna be kept?
Walkin on me jus isn't a fuckin option to catch a chuckle.
I'd run through u before u had the chance to bare my knuckles.
IDK who in the fuck u think I am.
Like my life's a twisted joke at the mercy of ur cold deadly hands.
Nah, ur gonna havta lemme see some real shit I never gazed upon.
Or toodleydoo as u witness me with that smile of so long of bein gone.
Let my eyes purposely move with ur activated sway.
Talk to me through that lil thing u do when u spin my way.
Or don't even flick the fuckin switch.
I'd rather bury ur face in the pillow n go on about my way knowing strings don't exist.
One pump two pumps three pumpin the pink n im gone.
Or u could come at a mo fo like a respectable woman feeling the comfort of home.
What's ur angle of expertise?
What game are u tryin to run on me?
Excuse me for bein so fuckin blunt.
But I'd rather get the raw shit outta the way if this could be luv.
Get to the point or ur gonna lose my adhd of an interest.
I ain't gonna be laid up at night feelin hurt n pist n shit.
Dealing with ur Bs that us irrelevant as fuck.
All bcuz u wanna go n forget my worth on a mental note turnin in n away from my luv.
Lookie Lookie here, if u ain't above the level of pure emotion that can not think.
Save that shit for the boys u claim are down that only wanna rub Ya clit.
Yeah, untamed I walk looking for the other half of me.
So unless ur givin me something to believe in, get the fuck away from the air I breathe.
All we could ever be us some exotic freak kinky fuckin sex at best.
Sucking n kissing fillin a void til our body heat simmers to a rest.
My passion doesn't explode on some half azz two bit that thinks shes the shit.
Betta take it up a notch if u wanna hang us on a wall til the r.I.p. from us is ripped.
What is it u are truly wantin from me as u peek in my direction as if I'm some sort of eye candy?
How is it I can fulfill ur desirable needs?
Dig deep for my depths is an endless pit with plenty of room for u to decorate.
I jus ain't on that promisin shit where u wind up walkin away with the definition of hate.
It's jus not gonna fuckin happen.
U won't even get a self inflicted reaction.
U can't make me live that life as it be me in which I lose sight.
So what's the words that were slippin away from u a moment ago in time?
Were u tryin to say some slick shit or tryin to grasp my mind?
Bcuz I ain't feelin shit unless it makes sense to better my life.
If it ain't so, then we can do what the fuck ever.
I'll even be ur in between relations n flip u over as a luv'r.
But that tender zone I'm not giving away to jus anyone.
She's gonna havta step the fuck up n show me she's the one n only fuckin one.
There is no me, there will only be an us!
Settled down n living full grown on the other end of luv.
I'm not an assholes spittin bitterness in the winds blowin u away.
I jus come straight for the jugular protection the both of us so we remain the same.
If I need to look past u I will at the drop n exact pivot located at the stillness of a dime.
So if ur comin for me, make sure u stand in my way for reasons to last a lifetime.
Bcuz I'll walk the fuck away before I'm forced to dog the fuck outta u as it comes to bein over.
It's guaranteed it'll be u that changes the course of redirection restrictin us as friends n luv'rs.
So, what the fuck is it u want from me?
Ur gonna havta speak up n give in to actually fuckin tellin me!!!

I jus might of dropped my tongue a lil too deep in. Comin forth to satisfy what's been misunderstood from within. Words has fallen short by the reach of touch landin with a curl. Like a red carpet unrolled, taste buds went pop as noise was hurled. Comin to terms to please the effort laid out in true form. Digging in to the meanin of poetic porn in my time. As the texture of my licker has flipped a rotation layin down actions with a single swipe. Softy connectin to the speed of sounds playin music to my ears. Even if it came from one individual ridin along sittin with eyes rollin back becomin ever so near. Closer than expressions could relate to the momentum of the flow. Pourin like rain washin away the sweat in the middle of a pleasurable whoa! Flush in the delivery of two entities comin together in between the lines of fine fingerprintin. Twistin thoughts in different direction as the maddenin effect of more is to keep on insistin. Gimme gimme gimme, for the need fulfills the completion of understandin spread before the eyes. Roundin each n every woo penetratin the most sacred place hidden deep within the mind. Free as the air gasped in Aww letting loose what had been held in for so long. N the way my presence spoke it felt right to belong. Openin up the gates that fed the hunger of truths that came to life. The man, the legend, left this tappin nerves from behind. As every lil detail was taken in to consideration lost in the sensitivity. Making a thought the cometh of a realities invincibility.

If you've read this. Did u read it as me expressin in a past tense of tryin to get a through to someone as a point needed to come across in depth? Or in a past tense of a sexual experience pleasing a woman that had u goin bcuz ur jus as twisted as I enjoyin the suspense? Read it again.

Hooked on a snag that won't let me go.
Line leadin back to the one holding on.
Slow drips leaked from the punctures intent.
N I'm still alive knowing where I'm goin.
With a tug to sink the point deep into the feel.
Reel me in n as real as time giving the feed.
Caught by the bait of survival as the meal.
Bitin I've bitten my piece of the ultimate prize.
Thrown back as the bloop blopped in my dirrection again.
Tired of swimmin with the rest of the fish backstrokin time.
The need has come for me ready to eat.
Addin Flava to the taste of claim.
Here's to ur return comin from deep.
Jus do me one favor first, say my name...

It wasn't the pain I feel in luv with.
It was the attachment to fell my luv to the end.
N past the drizzle effect I found it would never die.
Through it all the emotion remained my friend.
Never to let go of the one I want over all.
As the mind went back n forth tryin to figure a way.
Jus Yo maintain in the void holding on tight.
For the touch of truth lived with me everyday.
Losing the presence I turned inward looking for answers.
Nothing made sense that ran away with my thoughts.
Time stood still freezing me in the passion held in.
Mine for always to remain unconditionally in a pause.
As the day came for my heart to open back up.
Connected again with my life comin back to me.
Oh the smile I've missed with every inch of its curve.
Giving me what I've craved only made in dreams.
A reality in eyes that witnessed the return of my need.
Came along the bend of the twist untangled wrapped in arms
With tasted names blurting out what was real.
Out of the way of uncertainties harm...

Actions over the spew of mouths...

Luvn deeper than the depths of luv.
Scared beyond words can form the rush.
Afraid of that feel of emotionally gone.
Knowing it was comin of goin all wrong.
Nerves shake the bones loose fast.
Watching time skip a beat, right on past.
It's beneath layers of comfy zones exposed.
With nothing to say for where is home?
Winning the fight cannot be performed.
Streets in both directions, always for all time are sworn.
Self inflictin thoughts run carelessly nonstop.
Live or let die, luv or hate, friend or foe, start or stop.
In her heart or dragged from the peek of luv.
Walkin in an unknown direction chasin touch.
In battle for keeps sake of immaturities behavior.
Literally horrified of the kryptonite she holds as a Savior.
Twisted n taken n forgotten as a man.
Yeah, luv replaces the reality in which legs stand.
Left, right to the dead center or in the way of life.
To connect with a direction that steps to the side.
Please don't fail my decisions.
Understand the concept of this is me here livin.
In or out?
Actions over the spew of mouths...

Lemme be ur reflection in life.
The shadow that trolls u from all sides.
A presence that teaches through trial n error.
As u keep ur eyes on me bcuz I care.
Learning from my mistakes.
Not needed to feel the same pains n aches.
Lemme show u what not to do.
That way ur time can be put to use.
I jus wanna correct u through my own.
Follow my actions as ur able to step aside before I'm gone..
Avoidin what I've proven to be right or wrong.
For I've been where I never wanted u to go.
Take my lessons jus so I know u know...

Down for the ride.
Damn, I could swore u said down for life.
Musta been me hearin myself think.
Turned my head n u were gone within s blink.
N it's alright.
Bcuz I'm doin jus fine.
Runnin in n outta ur minds struggle.
Runnin back to me as words are muzzled.
Yet u couldn't, yeah, maybe I didn't listen.
I believe it was me but it was u trippin.
No Bs rolled from tongues as actions faded.
Again with the SOS n I hate it.
But not so much as I've found my chuckle.
U dont faze the skin on my knuckles.
Jus go.
Free me from yourself as u roam.
Idc where ur gonna be or wind up.
Jus remember I'm no longer in luv...

Open eyes goin back n forth n round n round.
The loon within is free again n not makin a sound.
Heads on swivel watching all those peeking a wink.
Laughin doin me cuz I know I gotta watch myself for could slip within a blink.
The goofball has been released n the smile is a different kinda crazy.
Never again half hearted as th remind will never sleep nor be lazy.
Witness is the buffoon easing back for the first time.
Noticin the sway of life grab at my own line after line.
Here goes the truth bouncing from the tongues bounce.
About it in every way down to the very last ounce.
Set loose in this world the babblin freak is ready!
Out down by worth n back at it slow n steady.
The madness is opening up again behind my eyes.
As thoughts circle the minds stability of gettin mine.
Beneath the surface vibes a beat ripping away from the heart.
Jus flowing with a rhythm all mine as I gotta fresh start...
So here I come, breakin grounds to add to my own smiles shape.
Walkin it out n steppin on boundaries meant to to find passion.that awaits.

Born with my heart in my hands I tried to give away. It returned something different as it was changed n it simpmy doesn't feel the same way. Split in two it has its emotion on how shit broke down. N it no longer trusts me as it lives without a sound. I fucked me up makin decisions I thought were correct. Then again I shoulda fuckin left. I dragged my frustrated passion til I seen it's core starin back at me. N it wanted no part of my raw uncut reality.

Open my eyes n allow me to feel again.
I'm blinded by my pasts remains.
My hearts simply not commuting anymore.
Idled out n runnin away it's been torn.
Goin to waste in the middle of my mind.
Thoughts fade as I slowly ease through time.
I'm not one to shy away from Luvs touch.
It's jus I'm afraid as once I was clutch.
Distant now n scared of the secret connection.
Unable I am to resemble who I was in my reflection.
Lost in my own stare refusing to play the game of tenderness.
I believe I've forgotten my own fuckin happiness.
Misguided by trust claiming who it is I was in left field.
N I cannot find me beneath this monsters shield.
Crack the capsule that hides a man wantin to live.
I'm in here somewhere frozen with so much to give.
Held captive for pleasure brings the pain.
Tryin to resist once again the rearranged tone of my name.
My passion aches in it suffocation goin numb.
Don't let me drift any further inward n alone muted n hushed.
I want out but I jus don't know the way.
I wonder up stumbling on the other end of the game.
As my guard went down n I felt me die.
The walkin dead u see is not how I wanna live my life.
N not jus anyone will do for me to respond.
For code red is comin of the flat line in need of a bond.
Pry me apart n save whatever may be left.
It's yours if u can get me back to my best.
Cradled within this lonely waking hrs of

When the drip picks up that emotion n takes it on down the stream. On a trip to the Neva Eva easin in to the head finally thinkin of luvrs that land as flings. Time arrives seekin the sinkin in of self comin around about to round the fuck out. Never to believe in again, words that lose distance fallin from pretty lil mouths...

Abused n betrayed.
Laid out on more complex display.
Sittin in ur hands.
Opened up jus bcuz it can.
Do something with it.
Let no words fall short of ur lips.
N show it its OK to express the feelings of a man.
It jus wants to live again.
To hear that tone of comfort call it's name.
Jus don't let it luv u n u walk away.
Standin with purpose in ur presence.
Knowin u could be her with no resistance.
Who's knows.
Until the mind unfolds.
Bendin creases on pages for the memories favouritism.
To relive the joy once shattered by individualism.
Layin before is the callin of interest in its own.
Take the bait or wait on that chillin feel of where is home.
Dazed with a confused look upon ur face.
For its different in it delivery laughin in the rain.
Unfazed by the resistance u push with a go.
For u to know it is all there is to know.
Placed in that space all ur own within ur thoughts.
One line seed in plain sight to come alive with u in the middle of a pause.
Dab nabbit, dead center in the line of sight.
Briefly suggestin the curiosity on its mind.
Naked n exposed.
Wantin to be seen as it is in which the way it stands.
A real fuckin man.
Without restraints that bind unless ur willing to play.
The pleasure fiddlin at fingertips jus to touch ur face.
Creates a vibe bouncin in its life.
Findin meanin n reason to its long longed claim of mine.
Twisted n forgotten it's found its way.
As simultaneously decisions will allow it to stay...