how i know u...

i don't wanna be around when u decide to leave... jus disappear one day so forced to witness what i could never believe... jus have a lil mercy of my heart when the day comes that u feel u can do better... i won't be mad if u were nowhere to be found when i look around n there's nothing but stormy weather... i need no sympathy due to i care for u to be happy no matter where u are... i need not inflict pain towards u n there's no purpose in creating new scars... i already know it's coming n trust me when i say, "it's ok." things change n i never expected u to want me the same... it was for my pleasure to be as close to u for as long as time would allow... jus go when ur ready for the next phase of ur life to begin n i'll understand without a frown... as long as i'm not in the vicinity i won't have the pretend not to see ur eyes one last time... with a look that would tare me apart as u turn n go on about ur way leaving me behind... i don't wanna be stuck with a visual that doesn't resemble the stare u give me prior no feeling it the same no more... know this is as temporary as u choose to be who u are reaching for my core... i can comprehend beginnings have ends... n for every stranger there is the gaining of a friend... so if we could keep it intact it would be great... jus know when u go poof, i don't ever wanna see ur face... how i know u is how it must be when like removes itself from luv... for it's how u will be remembered when strings are cut... we ain't gonna make it when these words aren't making any sense... so jus ease on back live until we drift back into a world so immense... losing sight of what was as it is merely a blind that gets away... i jus wanna be able to smile when i say ur name...