touchin the feel of comin up...

did u ever stop to watch me lose what brought me to life.?.
as tears fell from the thoughts unbound by the broken mind...
when u laughed at the pain u inflicted that tore me from limb to limb...
name one time u felt ur best friend dyin within the luv u ran with...
have u ever since u claimed to be the one to never walk away...
jus once thought about who's face has forever changed.?.
were u proud to be what turned me inside out jus to divide me inside.?.
as the games turned ur own promises into wicked lil lies...
when u held the power that held me up...
what was it that fell from the way in which we fell in luv.?.
did u ever stop n think of what u were doin to me...
to the only one that was there when no one else gave a fuck about how u came from ur seams.?.
i wasn't gonna write this n i've held it in for some time now...
but words cannot hide if i'm to complete my own life past the end of vows...
how was it u could release me so easily.?.
as my ever after is better off without u actin so sleazily...
who in the fuck did u think u were.?.
as i allowed u to dig ur hole so i knew my own worth...
where did u think i'd be other than by ur side.?.
bcuz i'm still here n i am alive...
lookin up at the memories i'm not allowed to keep...
as it's alright by me due to u weren't who u were supposed to be...
touchin the feel of comin up, it's ur loss not mine...
u can no longer slit me open for i've taken away ur last knife...