The difference of here nor there...

In another place. In another time. I was someone else. Somewhere where everything made sense. Where I did more than play the cards that were dealt. Somewhere else is where I left whom it was I was. Standin as a proud man with the comforts in my life. Makin it happen cuz purpose formed n molded my heart ache. Now findin a new way to stand n watchin for the edge of the knife. In my depths I shake in fear of a hand to ease the tensions with touch. I was free once from the questions we all ask. Yet a gentle hand scratched n dug n raw I was rubbed. Findin the climb up, back to the top a struggle. N The same I will never be. I fell. For the face in the mirror has found a cocked head twisted sideways of a harsh reality. The best of me was poured out to bloom. To grow roots under the suns soil to symbolize luv. Yet the garden was mowed n dug up. N the reinvention of this man has become a battle within without a crutch. Its the secrets of the heart ignored by the minds will. Followin the leader that knows the way. Holdin on the the positivity in life thats left. N as an atheist, for me there is no god that can if I ever crossed reality can hear me pray. Yet in another time n in another place, thought I understood. As I now walk in complete comprehension of what a true friend is. Cuz I was mislead. Blinded by the rush that filled me before the rain that showed me the intensions that were b.s.. So I confess, I submit. With my head on swivel I accept life. With rollin eyes of those things ive heard once upon a time ago repeated. Believin in the actions n not the emotional hype.....