My kinda crazy...

I met my kinda crazy n it drove me beyond what I thought was real... Out of my mind I ran through my heart taring my apart... As the lettin loose took control in the mirror as emotion fell... I felt it within n again when it released me due to a life I didn't luv to live... I found pieces scattered about like e bomb she was... Lit to take fire to my life as it burned down before my eyes... Leavin my in well being in particles tossed about... Fallin like smut for the visual effect to take place so she could laugh from a far... Grabbin ahold of my twist  in a fucked up state if mind the betrayal went deep... As I now walk with a more hehe sorta feel knowing how distant luv can be... I roll in the memories it took me to gather what was left of me... Head tilted hands cocked n loaded ready to get it solo as fuck... Bcuz ain't no fuckin one has my back the way I had it before she came along... As I sit lookin at a sea of the same type of pain that's healed peekin around prolly tryin to find me... I tempted to look my best friend in the eyes as the turn fucked me up... Let's get real n express some shit we've all had an acquaintance with... That big was only to prep what was to come as it was as if I died inside... Yet, I respectfully stepped back n saved the remains for me to adjust here in the middle if the chaos... Not yet done to the touch of the texture loosening the thrill... I ran in to what killed the immaturities n placed life back in my own beatin vibe... As feet got to movin in a spinnin rotation as the end of all bad things was left on a dotted line so I could finally be free.... Fuck it..  I've gotta be the only thing I know how to be... Me!!! Yes... I can't across me jus wondering about somewhere I believe I to be... In my demented Looney bin u call thoughts..  I went down on levels that stood me up bcuz luv had enough n had to lemme go... With birds blazin wishing her well I'll neva fuckin complain... This is me without the weight of another tuggin me back into my past... Smilin bcuz I jus don't give a fuck... Cuttin ties burying the influence I fell under we've named trust... Only to be given to someone who can see me corrected with my head over my heart... I stand without the imagination of who it is u think I am... Rattled with an unzipped lip nibbled on til I get what I want... My kinda crazy is simply infuckinsane... No limits... No boundaries... No walls to climb... Opened as not an expression of no but the feel of jus saying yes... Rockin the boat to take a swim on tbe other side of what we're taught how to be... I've already trusted to see what I am to recalculate as self wantin to play... Chucklin... I'm waitin... Holdin out to participate in a different approach with that tweak I luv to entertain... N I've used up all my tears that took to fuckin long to evaporate... So it's to getting at it with two chirps to what didn't make it onto my now... I dabbled into the connectivity of that coocoos nest n went on one hell of a ride... Got wrapped up thinking there's wasn't any other place I'd rather be... Hehe... Look at me!!!