Reclaimed...

She said ilu...  As I slowly replied, I wish u did... I wouldn't have been walkin away... That's when the beat of my own heart dropped as I sucked it up so I too could live... Words found silence as she let me go... Somehow she could jus watched me turn n leave without a word... That's when I knew... I'm on my own... Solo... Tryin to find my way... Losing another best friend... What is luv if this was in fact, the end.?. I didn't peek in a reverse sense the way she refused to stop me as I slipped outta sight... I jus went about my way as I had to adjust to a different way of life... She said, I luv u... As I turned away knowin she was no good for me the way i was for her n oh how I tried... With that ache I felt deep enough to allow all feelings to rest with her face... Feet moved into motion in the act of livin with the truths of doin my thing... Dead emotions were left layin at her tootsies as she neva thought how i felt for her would die... Yet, it wasn't I that forgot who she was supposed to be as betraylal claimed bein unconditionally wanted inside... Nothin come of what was shared for that matter... As time rotated n gave peace to my mind... Even though I often hear her whisper to me ilu as if she meant it... Lookin around n alone watching my back I still remain in my solitude awaitin someone unlike her that's real enough neva to lie... I told her once, jus don't let me go... N she did the day she looked at me n said, I luv u jus to get what it was she thought she was gonna get... As it wasn't me behind her eyes... I was jus the only one that neva to give up as she kept comin back to run with her crazy legs n leave with the selfishness of the rush... She once told me it was me she was in luv with... But her actions spoke of a life in which I did not exist... Trust went astray the day her own influences removed me from her world... Showin her face every now n again until I stood on my behalf... N no  matter how much she tried to get me to believe in her twisted ways, she was neva my girl... As I heard her tone in the sense of the ilu that ran from her lips... As one last look told me I had to finalize the chaos... Ties like the lies ended on that very day... Face to face the goofiness had to stop... No more savior when It was me she thought of when no one was there... I too needed my friend that took the fuck off without a care... yeah, I gave her enough time to show me what it was i meant to her n what she was willin to do... shakin my head when she opened her trap to spit I luv u as we were through.. It was the precise moment i got my heart back i gave to her... N since, I haven't hurt...