I took it on the chin... That left hook that felt like a slap... She got to asking about where I stayed... As I mentioned nothing about my past... Her words were as if I wasn't worth shit... Mine on the other hand got turned around... Some shit I had no control over took place n I wound up face to face with the lack of reason so absurd... I was to far in n couldn't regroup quick enough to skip out... As I tried to give a reason to why I myself was looking up... But she didn't wanna hear it... N it was at the point of seeing the pettiness for I knew... I seen my reflection in her eyes as what she saw matche the noise coming from her lips... All I heard was, I jus ain't what she's looking for in so many words... N it was cool n all... I got it as she had no interest in a man trying to get back to the top... She was jus flat out raw... As some people are just fucking shallow as fuck... As she was unable to relate to how I got caught up financially even emotionally once upon a time ago in the mix... Seems I was a waste of her time... Yet, lil does she know I don't give up easily over some goofy bullshit... I don't chase as she's that type to need that kinda attention... It's the finer things I have no use for that make her happy... Not the petty luv as she simply refused to see me with no quit... Silly broad would rather go through relations over n over instead of doing something that doesn't drive her crazy... So I stepped back n jus took a gander at what it was I was witness to... A materialistic female that wants it all right now... Even though if I hadn't lost it all she would've gladly stood by my side... As I'm jus grateful I had the opportunity to do more than visualize who she truly was before I fucked up again somehow...
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