alone... again... feelin the same way as watchin em dazed in between reality n somewhere this world can neva hurt them again... i feel alone... like i did bein in relations with those who luv to be impaired... that lonely feelin is here... n i'm so far away from home... the ache of solitude found me again... i thought i outran it when i left my luv'rs alone... bein with them was a life of solo dreams witness to them unable to awaken to my friendly face jus wantin to live... as i sit here with ol familiar watchin over me tryin to ignore the fact that i have n still am alone... again i recall what it was like to live with an addict... it's the exact feel of bein by myself with noone to talk to bcuz they weren't with it enough to talk to me... as i ran through myself tryin to find somethin to do for yrs... n there was no connection to a hand that gave the comfort of makin me feel i had someone.. yet, i'm still alone waitin for the day i can escape this tear jerk from my eye... i don't wanna be alone anymore... i don't feel the need to ask myself question i cannot answer in this cell like room... here i am... again... fightin the silence when i need a fuckin friend in the flesh... as most of my life i neva had anyone to wanna enjoy things normal people do... it hurts in the chill that's found a breeze through my thoughts tonight... alone n jus wantin someone i can hear n feel as time is spent... neva to leave in the physical presence nor fade ito a dream world as i get left behind... i've been there too many times... i jus need not to drift as if i have no purpose to anyone anymore... where's my piece of ,mind.?. i'm scared to be alone with myself again... knowin i can't even see one of them nod off... they're gone n took their bodies away... one of the few things i found comfort i... as it was no mopre than a shell n i sat with myself as they went under their trans... i could use jus one person to come into my life n remove this misfortune of my own heart beggin me to open up n give it luv... as i am alone with that sneaky lil tingle that reminds me i've been this way for far to long... my emotion is unoccupied n i don't wanna live this way no more... if u can here me, come get me... i've been abandoned n friendless for quite some time... as my movement is unassisted by an other that can actually relate... this isolation has deserted my inner most cravings n i don't know what to do... even within relations i was single unable to find someone to give in to me... there's non reason i should havta spend my nights without a body close enough to chase away that endless feel of discomfort... i wanna live again.. like back when i first met those i shared moments with... yet, i don't eva want whoever it be to go ghost... it's here where i can obtain a use n give more than i eva shown... to hold on to what will neva wind up makin me feel worthless again... i am alone n these are my thoughts crawling out from the inside of my mind... runnin from my heart cryin out for a lil attention for once... to ease the feel of loneliness that's taken of my thrill... i feel dead here as i'm unaccompanied with my best friend... losin time as life doesn't feel as if it wants me to smile... secluded i'm goin to waste... here in the middle of life with only me to confide in...
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