I've...

I've lived in a state of she's never coming back... Even though it wasn't on my end things went astray... As that rounded out to accepting I could never go home... That's when I gathered myself n started thinking I could use a real friends face... N I sit laid back looking at what I can find as somewhere I could belong... No race as patience slows the emotion according to the wisdom of a few run ins with trouble... Still don't drink as it jus ain't my thing to fall into every forsaken saddened song... I've allowed me to gain what was needed to insure the mission within by the hands that once touched me... Knowin we've all pretty much been there a time or two... As I've watched me wash my hands of what was n can never be again... If it ain't a no matter what with some stability in the mind, we're through... Friends ain't gonna hurt each other even at the bottom of shit gone wrong... I've been there n tongues do the most damage as my heart ain't about to allow me to turn on self.. The valley of darkness is a place for those who luv the drama n pain as it's their way of life, not mine... I'm past the manipulation as stares do not faze me if I ain't accounted for n felt... Tides away dragged the surface beneath so i could find a lil somethin that resembled what it is I stand for... Life jus gave trust into others that had not chill so relations feel through... Yes, Ive been there to as time lost has become the absence of who I was as it's takin notes... Waitin patiently I move with no one for I know not what they are capable of nor can possibly do to me if things hung from a noose...