the drifter

I don't want u to feel sorry for me.
I don't wanna feel ur sympathy.
I jus wanna be left the fuck alone.
Jus leave me lost driftin somewhere without a home.
I don't need to be luv'd.
Really can't stomach the flutters of touch.
I'm over the feel of empty comfort.
Bouncing off the shells of forgotten luv'rs.
Please, jus save yourself n go.
There's no need in a friendship overthrown.
Bypass what u think i might be.
I won't sink in as far as to live in ur dreams.
I'm not ur unwanted sadness.
N surely ain't the cause of ur madness.
I'm jus not much of anything.
Jus the me afraid of emotions that live within rings.
Close jus isn't what u wanna be.
There's no need in lying to me.
Gone is the way of life by tender hands.
I'm not puttin in to wind up feelin less of a man.
I'm in no need of another face to replace.
I can't afford to be stripped of the amazin gain.
I don't wanna be luv'd.
There's no use in bein held by a shoulder shrug.
Don't lie n speak to soon.
Runnin me thru my minds lonely proof.
I know u believe in what u think of me.
Yet that'll change so don't breathe, i plead.
Ur breaths isn't wanted upon my neck.
Fallin short of ur own fuckin best.
I don't believe in luv itself within a kiss.
For some reason it simply jus doesn't exist.
Yeah, I've been torn apart n put back together twisted.
A numbers been done n my moment, i missed it.
Yet I'm not broken.
Jus tired of writin of how emotion gets to soakin.
I'm good for a lifetime without the pain.
I don't wanna watch u walk away one day.
Helpin yourself jus like the rest.
At my expense of ur flaws that shows the intent.
My knees can not handle the weight of betrayal.
N if my heart were to take another blow, it would be fatal.
A wasted total loss beyond repair.
So no, i do not wish to share my life for i truly am scared.
Petrified in a sense of what u could do to me to end my reason.
Shortenin even my gasps in the way I'm already weezin.
I'm done tryin for I've given all i have.
Not a one of u has proven to be anything but mad.
Hidden behind ur eyes is nothin but hate.
N y, i haven't a clue for I haven't earned no blame.
I don't wanna be remembered as a vague memory.
Livin in the past where time fades on what was luv's remedy.
I'm jus not the refusal in which way u play hide n seek.
I won't be that point in ur finger flickin away ur moistened leak.
I jus want to count on myself for once.
Jus bcuz y'all go overboard as passion is punched.
I'd be left standin still before long as u go astray.
So it jus doesn't matter to feel me anyways.
U won't mean what u say come tomorrow.
N i ain't got no more time to borrow.
I'll know somethin real if it ever happens to appears.
Til then, bcuz of u, live in fear.
Nothin makes sense to me anymore.
I've been on both sides n seen one to many doors.
The violin only speaks of the flesh made to please.
N u are no more than the beauty that lures as a tease....