sssh, come now

I have a voice.
N it needs to be heard.
I'm over the silence that's filled the void.
Don't.
Jus hold ur breathe.
This won't take long.
I jus need a moment for me to speak.
There's things u don't know.
Have some self control.
Find reason to relate on a muted tone.
Make this bearable before i fold.
Calling an end to a past.
As the now doesn't make it much further.
No, it's no joke.
Unconfuse yourself before luv is murdered.
Dead n wasted on hush.
I'm trying to tell u a lil secret.
Somethin i haven't been able to do.
Coming apart at the seams i don't fit.
For once jus listen n shit the fuck up.
I don't mean to be rude.
Hold ur tongue.
It's jus the only thing ur programmed to react to.
Quietly ease back n figure on this.
U see, I'm tired of pretending.
I'm not me here.
Jus gimme a chance to explain.
It's not me i see in the mirror.
Spare words of retaliation please.
This isn't another fight song of emotional torture.
It'll only show u don't know who i am.
That u don't feel me in any way.
There's no need in putting down a good man.
Once that's stood in ur line of fire.
N we both know, for far to long.
My life jus means more to me than this.
They're is not right out wrong.
Jus the honesty that i jus released.
Freed to u so i don't waste even ur time.
Wait for it turn, for ur gonna have it.
Though I'll only hear the maturity u hide.
I jus need another minute to clarify the truth.
I don't want to confuse u in any way.
Please, try n restrain yourself.
I need a change n it starts today!
If u can't seem to understand u failed me.
You'll never know why I'm walking out.
Leaving u with this fantasy in which u live.
I've heard enough silliness come from ur mouth.
It's my time to express unspoken echoes.
N I'm not receiving what I've been trying to give.
I'm done.
This is no way to live.
I cannot watch the clock spin any longer.
Shits gotten outta control.
Way past boundaries ever could stretch a wonder.
How i wound up here, i haven't a clue.
Carelessness is my best guess.
I'm lost n fading.
There's nothing here worth to invest.
I'd like to say I'm sorry.
Yet i can't apologize.
I've done nothing wrong.
I'm simply cutting ties.
Without a need to kiss n say goodbye.
Jus two friends that's tried something that didn't work.
That's where this ended up.
U i am not tryin to hurt.
Don't act like u didn't see it comin.
Ignoring the facts that fill ur eyes.
Dry up the tears.
Years have come to see through the lies.
Ghost me.
Delete me the way u seen it coming to a halt.
It's ok.
I'm alright with thinking within a pause.
I won't be on the next page.
Our story ends now.
Ur free to write a Hollywood ending.
I'm out....